Thursday, February 3, 2005

The muddled mind
Thanks guys, for giving advice and being there for me. It seems that my parents are totally pissed about all of this. They're telling me that they've notice how much all my siblings have been putting me down more after taking up the job of taking care of the house (my brothers are doing it less than my sisters). They were completely pissed off when my siblings didn't give me my money and had me just buy stuff off of Adriane's debet card. I know I'm a bit vexed, I would be totally pissed if I didn't use that money to buy Megaman comics (those are rather funny).

Anyway, thought I'd share this with you guys considering you're all very cool. I'm sure you've either seen or heard about the 4th trailer for Final Fantasy Advent Children. But I'll go ahead and post this;

Final Fantasy Advent Children has been anounced to release in the year 2005, the creators are hoping to have it out in Japan by summer.
The 4th Trailer is out and at the end you can get a very breif clip of Sephiroth lunging at Cloud. This site has playable trialers: http://www.square-enix.co.jp/dvd/ff7ac/

Anyway, thought I'd just write whatever comes into my head at this point. So here it is;
I love the Sephiroth themesong makes me wanna write action stuff. I've also been noticing that my little brother has been talking to my friend Jaime more and I'm glad he is, he doesn't talk to many people because he's always closing himself away in the house. I heard from Jaime that April was encouraging her to date one of my brothers. It's kind of scary considering that my elder brother wants nothing to do with anything sexual or dealing with anything anywhere close to intemite. And my little brother is like 7 years younger than Jaime. Loved it how she told me how she thought April was crazy. I totally agree with her, April is not in the best set in health considering she's emotionally dependant on Emily and enjoys the abuse that her twin gives her.

Hey, ever feel that darkness in the back of your mind? Ever try to imagine what it looks like? I know I have. All I can get are sounds that make me want to hear something other than it. Most likely why I play music a lot. It's a funky sound, just... blaring yet so deaf at the same time. It twists and writhes deep within peering out likes eyes in a raido that can only pick up white noise. I know I have a demon deep inside, it growls and waits for the right time to come out in order to consume me. Late at night, when I'm by myself I can tell it comes out when the shadows begin to dance and the sounds become more audioble. Those are the nights I stay up until dawn and do nothing but clean. I can feel things around that shouldn't be there with people telling me about darkness that sleeps inside my body with evils following me. I can't help but think "do other's have this"? A part of me hopes so, just so that I'm not alone, but then there is the part of me that never wants this to be given to anyone else. I don't want others to feel these horrors, these dark emotions that make you want to eat bunnies in the petting zoo (evil bunnies). And I'm cracking into jokes. >.> God I can't stay serious right now, probably for the best. If I got serious I'd most likely become depressed.

Okay, enough of that. I've got a challange for all you cool people out there!!! In your journal write a short story, has to funny, of something that had happened in your life. It could be a dream, an event, or just something somebody told you. Just make sure you had/heard it and it's true. Here I'll start:

It was a dream of mine where my brothers and I made these weapons that formed like armor. We designed it to look like Megaman like armor and I distinctly recall my brother, Cory, having his to look a lot like Zero's. Well, I ended up blowing up the bank that cheated me out of 100 bucks, and destroying an old work place that treats you like you're lower than donkey urine. And my little brother distroyed his school that put him in Special Ed for 4 years. Cory just sat on the couch and watched TV.... well, anyway, in my dream I was sitting on the couch behind my brother (our couches are leveled so one is higher than the other one and set behind each other to give theater seating). I rolled over and fell between the couches reaching out my hand and screaming out, "ZEEEERRROOOOO~!" Then I hit the floor and sat up and screamed at my brother, "Why didn't you save me?!" only to find him asleep.
I woke up laughing finding how silly the dream was only to remember it for a very very long time. ^_^
Comments (3)