Monday, July 6, 2009

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I'm so out of it. Leaving up my last post in case October comes back. Blargh. Panders, come back to this site.

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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Mac Attack

I'm gonna get my laptop next week. I think it'll take awhile to get our internet up and working again, but maybe I'll be able to go to Starbucks or something and leech off their WiFi. Ry and I are starting our blog again. Still looking for a catchphrase to sign out of my blog posts with. I might go on birth control pills, I'll find out on Friday. I have no idea where October is, haven't heard from her in over a month, getting a little worried. Miss Panders, hope to see her next week if I'm not working. So tired. Goodnite.

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Friday, June 26, 2009

:D

My parents left me here for the weekend, alone.... *has heartattack* I don't think I've ever been so deliriously happy!

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Monday, June 15, 2009

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For Aaron. May you never be forgotten, and may we forgive ourselves for not doing enough. Future's Gone By: Blacktop Mourning Why those so for luck, I circle with black, Who'd make the choice to die alone? We hold each other, Arms grasping the night, Hearts heavy with fear, Take him home Future’s gone, Future’s gone, Future’s gone, Remember all the images, Capture his courage, This will be his memory now, This is how we’ll carry on This tribute is no regrets, Never forget this, We’ll never forget this, Hope for tomorrow, You’ve only got your past, Nothing will last, Nothing will last Our succession of friends, Wondering why weren't we there for you? Lost parade of broken dreams that ended much too soon Confession of sins, Wondering where did this all began? Loss of possibilities gave up his chance to win Help us understand, Did we let you down? Help us comprehend, Why we let you down Future’s gone (live for the moment), Future’s gone (live for the moment), Future’s gone, Remember all the images, Capture his courage, This will be his memory now, This is how we’ll carry on This tribute is no regrets, Never forget this, We’ll never forget this, Hope for tomorrow, You’ve only got your past, Nothing will last This tribute is no regrets, Never forget this, We’ll never forget this, Hope for tomorrow, You’ve only got your past Future’s gone, Future’s gone, Future’s gone

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Monday, June 1, 2009

Hum

Well, I haven't posted anything real here in while, and now ppl are yellin' at me for it, so here ya go! A real-ish post! Haha! The background isn't working for some reason, and that makes me really sad... *pouts* Uhhhhhh, I really don't know what else to say. My goal is to graduate by June 17th. I'm working SUPER hard to finish on time. I still need a summer job to earn the extra $2000 for tuition that I didn't get a scholarship for. I have started to work out in the mornings with my friend Ryan. I don't want to buy any new clothes for college till I'm back in the shape I want to be in. I'm not fat, I just know I could be better! ^_^ Things with my mom still suck, but I keep reminding her I'm counting down the days till I leave. Mom's actually out of town right now, and there's SO much less stress in the house, it's incredible. All my friends graduated this Sunday, I'm so poud of them! It's gonna be impossible to say goodbye to everyone. I still can't fathom the fact that we're all going to different colleges. I moved all my stuff to the basement except for my clothes, because I have no motivation to clean out the basement closet. As a result of living in the basement, I have now become an expert spider and centipede assasin. UUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, oh I've become obsessed with a new band again. I heard one of their songs playing on AMTV which is when MTV plays music video at like, 2 in the morning, anyway I liked the song, looked them up, and instantly fell in love! The band is called Cold War Kids, and this is the song I first heard from them (and still my favorite) I've Seen By: Cold War Kids How's it going to feel when summer ends? Out of money, out of friends I've seen enough Of nothing new The blackest stain on history or last laugh blues Not gonna fight Not gonna cry Not gonna shop around for one flag to fly Ive seen enough Inventor's age I've covered up my face Brownbeaten shame I've got the itch I feel the sting Like falling in to the deepest sleep Telephone rings How's it going to feel when summer ends? Out of money, out of friends How's it going to feel when summer ends? Out of money, out of friends I've seen enough The angry mob Yeah they were unison da-da-da They can't be stopped Sitting at home, making plans Dont wanna be another silly set of accident hands. How's it going to feel when summer ends? Out of money, out of friends How's it going to feel when summer ends? Out of money, out of friends You should check out the music video on youtube, well the music video isn't interesting, but the song is like, the music I've wanted to hear my whole life!!!!! Okay, that's all I've got, hope you're happy! I love you all my pretties! Have a great week! Ato!

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Saturday, May 16, 2009

This song turns me on. *nods*

Think Twice By: Eve 6 When all is said and done And dead does he love you The way that I do Breathing in lightning Tonight's for fighting I feel the hurt so physical Think twice before you touch my girl Come around I'll let you feel the burn Think twice before you touch my girl Come around come around no more Think twice before you touch my girl Come around I'll let you feel the burn Think twice before you touch my girl Come around no more She spreads her love She burns me up I can't let go I can't get out I've said enough Enough by now I can't let go I can't get out Wait till the day you finally see I've been here waiting patiently Crossing my fingers and my t's She cried on my shoulder begging please Think twice before you touch my girl Come around I'll let you feel the burn Think twice before you touch my girl Come around come around no more Think twice before you touch my girl Come around I'll let you feel the burn Think twice before you touch my girl Come around no more She spreads her love She burns me up I can't let go I can't get out I've said enough Enough by now I can't let go I can't get out What is it you really want I'm tired of asking You're gone I'm wasted When I showed up and he was there I tried my best to grin and bear And took the stairs but didn't stop at the street And as we speak I'm going down Cause she spread her love And burnt me up I can't let go I can't get out I've said enough Enough by now I can't let go I can't get out Think twice before you touch my girl Come around I'll let you feel the burn Think twice before you touch my girl Come around come around no more Think twice before you touch my girl Come around I'll let you feel the burn Think twice before you touch my girl Come around no more Yeah, I don't know why it turns me on, but it does. *shrugs*

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Saturday, April 25, 2009

Uberness

heyllo my pretties, miss me much?!?! so i'm just gonna give a bit of an update, cuz a couple people have been asking where i am. sorry to make anyone worry... the past two weeks i've been training for a new job (same place, new position), it has eaten up a lot of my time, and all of my energy. i'm just not used to the schedule yet. but it's getting better. this week i started working the job on my own, which has been stressful, but productive. i like the job. it's a bit hectic, and there's a lot of pressure to get everything right, but all the other employees are super cool and understanding and forgive me when i screw up. Things at home have been non-existant since everytime i'm at home, i'm trying to sleep. consequently, the five mintues i see my mom every day consist of her yelling at me for not getting any schoolwork done. she's the one that told me to get more hours working anyway. >_> but whatevs, i'm ususally too exhausted to care. college things are going well. to anyone that doesn't know, i was accepted to Hope College in Holland, Michigan, and plan to go there in the fall. i had no idea how i was going to pay for it (Hope's cost is about $33,000 every year), and things were looking bleak for a time. i knew i was eligible for a scholarship, but it wouldn't be much. i got news of my scholarship award a week or two ago, it totalled $7,000, a fair amount, but still not enough to get me there. thus i had to endure Mom yelling at me to try and get scholarships off websites (those of which are basically impossible to get), but once, again, i was too exhausted to care. then, about a week ago, Hope sent a letter of their financial aid report to me, stating that due to my family's circumstances (meaning we are way super poor) Hope is willing to award me $30,100 a year (including my scholarship) in financial aid. well hell yes. i guess i'm going to college next year. the last $3,000 i can pay on my own with the money i'm earning right now with this new job. so suck on that mom. no loans for me. yeah, so i'm looking forward to the college life. i've got a lot of books to write, a lot of manga to read and anime to watch, and a lot of tatoos to get. finally. i'm sorry i haven't been around lately to see/talk with anyone. the only reason i can post this right now is because i'm at work waiting for a shitload of papers to print, and i've got five minutes of downtime. soon my schedule will be more consistent again, and i'll have to start making some plans. and so i leave you with my current favorite quote: Alice came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" she asked. "Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat. "I don't know," Alice answered. "Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter." ~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

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Monday, April 13, 2009

Fuck You (Very Much)

By: Lily Allen Look inside, look inside your tiny mind Then look a bit harder 'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired Of all the hatred you harbor So you say it's not okay to be gay Well, I think you're just evil You're just some racist who can't tie my laces Your point of view is medieval Fuck you, fuck you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch Fuck you, fuck you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch Do you get, do you get a little kick Out of being small minded? You want to be like your father It's approval you're after Well, that's not how you find it Do you, do you really enjoy Living a life that's so hateful? 'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be You're losing control a bit And it's really distasteful Fuck you, fuck you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch Fuck you, fuck you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you Fuck you You say you think we need to go to war Well, you're already in one 'Cause it's people like you that need to get slew No one wants your opinion Fuck you, fuck you very, very much 'Cause we hate what you do And we hate your whole crew So please don't stay in touch Fuck you, fuck you very, very much 'Cause your words don't translate And it's getting quite late So please don't stay in touch Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you Everyone needs to go look her up on youtube. NOW. ^_^

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Wednesday, April 8, 2009

We Made You

By: Eminem Guess Who… You Miss me?... Jessica Simpson sing the chorus (CHORUS) When you walk through the door It was clear to me (clear to me) You’re the one they adore, who they came to see (who they came to see) You’re a … rockstar (baby) Everybody wants you (everybody wants you) Player… Who can really play you (who can really play you) We're the ones who (chicka) made you *cough, cough* (VERSE ONE) Back by popular demand Now pop a little zantack for andacity if you can You're ready to tackle any task that is at hand How does it feel, is it fantastic, is it grand? Well look at all the massive masses in the stands Shady man… no don’t massacre the fans Damn, I think Kim Kardashians a man She stumped just cause he asked to put his hands On her massive glutious maximus again Squeeze it, then Squish it, then pass it to her friend Can he come back as nasty as he can Yes he can,can, don’t ask me this again He does not mean to lesbian offend But Lindsay please come back to seeing men Samantha’s a 2, Youre practically a 10 I know you want me girl, In fact I see it when I come in girl (CHORUS) When you walk through the door It was clear to me (clear to me) You’re the one they adore, who they came to see (who they came to see) You’re a … rockstar (baby) Everybody wants you (everybody wants you) Player… Who can really blame you (who can really blame you) We're the ones who made you (VERSE TWO) The enforcer, looking for more women to torture Walk up to the cutest girl and Charlie Horse her Sorry Portia, but whats Ellen Degeneres Have that I don't, are you telling me tenderness? Well I can be as gentle and as smooth as a gentleman Give me my ventolin inhaler and 2 zenedrin And I'll invite Sarah Palin out to dinner then Nail her,'Baby say hello to my little friend' Brit forget K Fed lets cut off the middle man Forget him or your gona end up in hospital again And this time it wont be for the riddle and binge Forget them other men, girl pay them little attention A little bit did I mention, that Jennifer's in love with me John Mayer So sit on the bench Man I swear them other guys you give em an inch They take a mile, they got style bigger than Slim (CHORUS) When you walk through the door It was clear to me (clear to me) You’re the one they adore, who they came to see (who they came to see) You’re a … rockstar (baby) Everybody wants you (everybody wants you) Player… Who can really blame you (who can really blame you) Were the ones who made you (VERSE THREE) And that’s why… my love You'll never live without , I know you want me girl cause I can see you checking me out And baby, you know, you know you want me too Don’t try to deny it baby, I’m the only one for you (Fart) Damn girl Im beginning to sprout an Alphalpha Why should I wash my filthy mouth out You think that’s bad you should hear the rest of my album Never has there been so finesse and nostalgia Man Cash,I don’t mean to mess up your gal but Jessica Alba put a breast in my mouth but Wowzers, I just made a mess of my trousers And they wonder why I keep dressing like Elvis Lord help us hes back in his pink Alf shirt Looking like someone shrinked his outfit I think hes about to flip Jessica rest assure, Supermans here to rescue ya Can you blame me? You’re my Amy, im your Blake Matter fact make me a birthday cake With a saw blade in it to make my jail break Baby, I think you just met your soul mate (Now break it down girl) (CHORUS) When you walk through the door It was clear to me (clear to me) You’re the one they adore, who they came to see (who they came to see) You’re a … rockstar (baby) Everybody wants you (everybody wants you) Player… Who can really blame you (who can really blame you) Were the ones who made you So baby, baby Get down, down, down Baby, get down, down down Baby, get down, down down Baby, get down, get down Baby, get down, down down Baby, get down, down down Baby, get down, down down Baby, get down, get down Oh Amy, Rehab never looked so good, I can wait, Im going back!! HAHA Whooo! DR DRE, 2020, Yeah

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Saturday, March 28, 2009

Heyllo

I haven't really posted on here in a while, but I had a really long break today, so I figured I had time. Spring Break has been really hectic over here, I haven't gotten one day with rest and I'm so fucking tired. I tried to see everyone that wanted to see me, but I guess I sorta failed at that. I'll have to try again next week, even tho it will be harder. I've been okay, I got accepted to Hope College and now I'm trying to figure out how to pay for it. I did qualify for a scholarship, but it isn't enough to cover the whole tuition. I have a lot of school to finish in a short amount of time, but I have the motivation now, cuz if I finish I know I'm getting out of here. So it's all worth it. Yeah, that's basically all that's going on with me. *nods* How is everyone else? I gotta go, love you all my pretties, ato till next time.

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