Monday, March 16, 2009

Walking On Water

By: This Providence Who would I be? Where would I be going if I didn't have you to shake my face? Why do you care? Why do you care so much? Your love's such a stretch for my faith. You don't let go easily. No, you hold onto me tight. And it's just what I need. To get me through the storm tonight. Whoa, I don't have to be afraid of the wind. And that's good to know. 'Cause I've heard it all before. But I'm walking on water now. In the midst of a storm. My life fell apart and you were right there. The fire turned my whims into smoke. I choke on your words that somehow make sense. And I dance with a joy only found in the pain. You don't let go easily. No, you hold onto me tight. And it's just what I need. To get me through the storm tonight. Whoa, I don't have to be afraid of the wind. And that's good to know. 'Cause I've heard it all before. But I'm walking on water now. Whoa, I don't have to be afraid of this sinking ship. And that's good to know. 'Cause I've heard it all before. But I'm walking on water now. Whoa, I don't have to be afraid of the wind. And that's good to know. 'Cause I've heard it all before. But I'm walking on water now. Whoa, I'm singing in the rain. Well that's a joy I've never known. 'Cause I've heard it all before. But I'm walking on water now.

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Monday, March 2, 2009

The World Should Just Fuck Off.

This song is for everyone that just fucks you over. Rape Me By: Nirvana Rape me Rape me, my friend Rape me Rape me again Am I the only one...?[3x] Am I the Only one...? Hate me Do it and do it again Waste me Rape me, my friend Am I the only one...? [3x] Am I the only one...? My favorite inside source I'll kiss your open sores I appreciate your concern You're gonna stink and burn Rape me Rape me, my friend Rape me Rape me, again am I the only one...?[3x] Am I the only one...? Rape me! (Rape me!)[9x] Rape me!

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Tuesday, February 24, 2009

=O

Omg! Over the radio at work (which is usually playing instrumentals) I heard "A Dream is a Wish Your HHeart Makes"!!!!! Omg, I almost started crying! I really needed that... ^_^

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Super Dad

Things are a little better today. My mom gave me two options. Go to Bob Jones University (prison school) or go to Harper and reap the consequences of not doing what she wants me to do. I gave myself another option and started looking up other Christian schools that aren't as strict. She got all mad because she didn't agree with some of the statements of faith of the other schools, so she was yelling at me for it, and then my dad came upstairs and like, tore into her. He's all like, 'Karen, that perfect school that is in your mind does not exist. How dare you discourage our daughter from looking at Christian schools! No wonder she's so depressed! Any Christian scool is better than a secular one, so if she wants to look at them, let her look!' So that like made my day. My mom just went downstairs with her tail between her legs, so to speak. I love my dad. Unfortunately now, I have to deal with the fact that almost ALL private schools are twice as expensive as public ones. *rolls eyes* I see my dream slipping farther away... Whatev. I'm starting to get worried about October again. I haven't heard from her, and I wish I knew that she was alright. *pouts* Thanks for stopping by, Britty, it's been a while! ^_^ Hope you're doing well. Panders, I'ma try to go out tonight and pick up some minutes, but I don't know yet if I can. Miss ya, love ya bunches and oodles. Justineeeeeee! I sure wish you'd update your myO site, then I could actually talk to you. *sobs* Miss you, I'll call you soon. Fun song, yes? I'm on a Boat By: The Lonely Island Aww shit, get your towels ready it's about to go down (shorty, yeah) Everybody in the place hit the fucking deck (shorty, yeah) But stay on your motherfucking toes We running this, let's go I'm on a boat (I'm on a boat) I'm on a boat (I'm on a boat) Everybody look at me 'cause I'm sailing on a boat (sailing on a boat) I'm on a boat (I'm on a boat) I'm on a boat Take a good hard look at the motherfucking boat (boat, yeah) I'm on a boat motherfucker take a look at me Straight flowing on a boat on the deep blue sea Busting five knots, wind whipping out my coat You can't stop me motherfucker cause I'm on a boat Take a picture, trick (trick) I'm on a boat, bitch (bitch) We drinking Santana champ, Cause it's so crisp (crisp) I got my swim trunks And my flippie-floppies I'm flipping burgers, you at Kinko's Straight flipping copies I'm riding on a dolphin, doing flips and shit The dolphin's splashing, getting everybody all wet But this ain't Seaworld, this is real as it gets I'm on a boat, motherfucker, don't you ever forget I'm on a boat and It's going fast and I got a nautical themed Pashmina afghan I'm the king of the world On a boat like Leo If you're on the shore, Then you're sure not me-oh Get the fuck up, this boat is REAL! Fuck land, I'm on a boat, motherfucker (motherfucker) Fuck trees, I climb buoys, motherfucker (motherfucker) I'm on the deck with my boys, motherfucker (yeah) This boat engine make noise, motherfucker Hey ma, if you could see me now (see me now) Arms spread wide on the starboard bow (starboard bow) Gonna fly this boat to the moon somehow (moon somehow) Like Kevin Garnett, anything is possible Yeah, never thought I'd be on a boat It's a big blue watery road (yeah) Poseidon Look at me, oh (all hands on deck) Never thought I'd see the day When a big boat coming my way Believe me when I say I fucked a mermaid I'm on a boat I'm on a boat Everybody look at me 'cause I'm sailing on a boat (woah) I'm on a boat I'm on a boat Take a good hard look at the mothafuckin' boat (sha-sha-shorty, shorty, yeah) Hahahahahaha, you should see the music video... Heh, good stuff. Well, I gotta go, I love you all my pretties, ato!

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Monday, February 23, 2009

Sucky, Sucky Day

Yeah, I'm not having a very good day at all. It just keeps getting worse. The only good thing is that I get to work with Ryan today, and he's good at helping me smile. But otherwise, everything that could have gone wrong, did. Fuck. I've been singing this song all day. A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes From: Cinderella A dream is a wish your heart makes When you're fast asleep In dreams you lose your heartaches Whatever you wish for, you keep Have faith in your dreams and someday Your rainbow will come smiling thru No matter how your heart is grieving If you keep on believing the dream that you wish will come true

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Saturday, February 21, 2009

Hello Goodbye

By: Lupe Fiasco Hello darkness Hello sunshine Hello not at all Hello all the time Hello nowhere Hello olbivioin Hello goodbye Hello darkness Hello sunshine Hello not at all Hello all the time Hello nowhere Hello olbivioin Hello goodbye Hello darkness You [echo] All in together the weather is better then ever I hope it never ends I hope it lasts forever But when it does we can all pretend that it's been beter than it's ever been [echo] Lie to our selves like sky to a bell And it's well and it's fine and it's fine if we fell And you can refind the story line if you survive to atell We are targets, hello darkness Hello darkness Hello sunshine Hello not at all Hello all the time Hello nowhere Hello olbivioin Hello goodbye You said everythings gunna be Fine [echo] You said everythings gunna be Ok [echo] You said just don't breathe the air He just sits and waits for them to kick in the door He once was a hero they don't love him no more There was a blast Everytime he hits the floor His gift for not fighting an other mans war And if, they can get they hands on the mask that he wore On his face they can put somebody else in his place or restore To state the illusion that it's safe, the faith That being a slave is so great As gas fill the room and rockses destroy everything around him He stands to find himself surrounded By thousands of soldiers that he once trained And never miss they targets heartless hello darkness Hello darkness Hello sunshine Hello not at all Hello all the time Hello nowhere Hello olbivioin Hello goodbye Hello darkness [Lupe: Talking] Hello darkness Hello sunshine Hello not at all Hello all the time Hello nowhere Hello olbivioin Hello goodbye Hey darkness Hey sunshine Hello not at all Hello all the time Hello nowhere Hello olbivioin Hello goodbye

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Monday, February 16, 2009

Crazy

Yeah, Ryan just played this song for me on the way to work, and I fucking love it, it puts me in a good mood, so here are the lyrics: Crazy Bitch By: Buckcherry All right! Break me down, you got a lovely face We're going to your place And now you got to freak me out Scream so loud, getting fuckin' laid You want me to stay, but I got to make my way Hey You're crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back to keep me right on Hey You're a crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back to keep me right on Take it off, the paper is your game You jump in bed with fame Another one night paid in full, uh You're so fine, it won't be a loss Cashing in the rocks, just to get you face to face Hey You're a crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back to keep me right on Hey You're a crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back to keep me right on Get the video fuck you so good Get the video fuck you so good Crazy bitch Crazy bitch Crazy...bitch Hey You're a crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back to keep me right on Hey You're a crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back, come on Baby girl You want it all To be a star You'll have to go down Take it off No need to talk You're crazy But I like the way you fuck me Hey You're a crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back to keep me right on Hey You're a crazy bitch But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it When I dream, I'm doing you all night Scratches all down my back to keep me right on You keep me right on You're crazy But I like the way you fuck me Haha, it sounds much better when you listen to it. I'm leaving up my last post too, cuz I don't think Apanda saw it. Love you all my pretties, ato!

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Saturday, February 14, 2009

Eh... Happy V-Day.

Well, things are getting better I guess. I've applied to two colleges I'm interested in, and my mom and I are working on putting together my transcript to send out. I've got most of my stuff into the basement, and my dad just put the door onto basement today, so things will be even better. I haven't asked my mom for internet in my room yet, because she's just super touchy about stuff still. When I have a fulltime job, she'll be more comfortable with it, so I'll ask then. Dad's being awesome, he's totally on my side. I'm not used to having someone fight for me, it's hard to get used to. Everytime mom upsets me, all I have to do is tell dad what happened, and he fixes it. It's so... different. *shrugs* Apanda, I'm so sorry about Chu, I know I can't really say anything worthy of the situation, but I really am so sorry for you. *hugs* It's so frustrating trying to coordinate our schedules! Well, next week I'm probably working Monday, Tuesday, and Saturday, so I'll have Friday free, maybe then we could go out? There, I'm telling you in advance so you can work out stuff! ^_^ Now, you stay strong until then, because I don't have a lot of minutes left still, I'm milking it as long as I can, but I only have like 10 more units. Stay strong and know you're gonna get a hug soon!!! October, my beautiful koishii, you stay safe and be careful! I'm glad you're doing well, please keep me updated! Okay my pretties, I gotta go, but I love you all. Have a happy V-Day.

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Monday, February 9, 2009

Apanda

In response to your comment: Hey, please don't be angry with yourself, you know this is all my doing. You're not useless at all. I knew that going back with my mom would probably be a trap of some kind, but I did tell her that I would come back and say goodbye to my dad. I said I would, so I had to. It's not your fault. She does that a lot, says, "I think you owe me an apology". Like you'd really apologize after that kinda self-righteous bullshit anyway. *shakes head* You owe her nothing. Awww, that's a lot of love! *glomps* We'll see about seeing each other soon. I think once things calm down here and I start getting things in order that I might be able to take you out to see Inkheart. I'll try, okay? I love you so much and I'm sorry I brought any sort of stress to your life, it's the last thing I wanted to do. I feel uber selfish for putting so much crap into your life, and I'm really sorry for it. You have nothing to be sorry for and you're definately not useless. You're the most wonderfully giving person I've ever met, and I hate myself for upsetting you. Thank you for all you've done for me so far. I will see you soon. I love you, I hope you're doing alright.

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Saturday, February 7, 2009

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Things with my dad are much better than they were. My mom is a thousand times worse. I just ignore her now. I have most of my stuff into the basement, but the basement closet is full of crap so I have to clean that out. Until then I'm still living out of a suitcase. I'm gonna start going to church with my dad, which is good. The 'plan' is that I'll start working full time and then next year, I'll go away for college. Mom wont 'let' me go to a secular college, but dad said he'll think about it, he just needs to make sure I'll be safe there. So we're gonna go on a college visit down to SIU. Ryan still doesn't know I didn't move out. Hopefully Gloria will tell him. How are you Apanda?

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