Tuesday, March 4, 2008

   Whoa baby! A post!

Hello my pretties! Long time no see, ne? Um, a lot has been going on, so I guess I’ll just give a quick overview. I just got back from a college trip to Bob Jones University in South Carolina. I didn’t want to got to Bob Jones at all, but I went on trip with my friend Sarah who has been wanting to go there since she was a kid. To make a long story short, we switched. Sarah doesn’t want to go to Bob Jones any more, but I applied. ^_^ Funny how God works! Um, so when I came back, my mom had redone my room. I’m kinda really mad at her, but I guess I’ll get over it. It’s just that I asked her not to touch anything of mine while I was gone, but she didn’t listen. The room is beautiful, it looks like it came strait out of a magazine, and I hate it. It’s not my room anymore. It’s some middle-aged, single, interior designer’s guest bedroom. It’s very feminine and it has no touch of toughness! I hate it. I know my mom worked really hard on it and she tried her best, and I feel like a total bitch, but I asked her not to! So yeah, that’s what I came home to. Then I looked online and found out that Britty’s girlfriend got in some major trouble recently and I feel awful for both of them. Apparently Ashley’s mom found out she’s bisexual and kicked her out of the house. I pray that her mom will work things out in her own head and forgive Ashley. I wish the best of luck to both Ashley and Britty. I guess that just really hits home for me because that’s my biggest fear, my mom finding out that I’m bisexual. I think she’d probably do the same thing as Ashley’s mom. Happy Birthday to Amanda! I know, I know, it was on Saturday, but my mom and I believe in birth months, so I’m gonna drag out the celebration for you as long as I can! And much fun hanging with you after school! Even though we didn’t do much… Oh well! I loves ya anyway! And Justine, I wish that stupid girl moved and we could sit next to each other in the media center! It was so annoying, but it was nice to listen to you laughing and talking with Tony! ^.^ Have fun in detention! Haha, *avoids puch* Sorry I had to! ^.^ And damnit, this stupid renovation! theOtaku better be awesome! Because I can’t PM you right now! ARGH! So here’s the reply to one of your PMs: “aw, i love you bunches! but yeah, i picked thoughtless because that's what my mom says is my biggest fault, she's been telling me that i'm really selfish for years, so i guess i just believe it. haha, shika-kun does secretly love yaoi! ^_^ i love ya more than black holes love stars! haha.... yeah. ^.^” So Jay has officially disappeared. *sigh* I do so miss him. Ah, and to my most lovely October *blushes* I’m so sorry that my PMing has sucked lately, I’m really doing the best I can. I only get about 45 minutes a day, if even that, to do everything I need to online. Today I’ll be on for a while longer, because I convinced my mom to let me go to the library. So, I just wanted to say that I’m very happy to be your muse, as you already know, but I wanted to post it on my site too! ^_^ And the pic on your site is so pretty! You are a gorgeous goth! :) Okay, here’s a poem that I wrote at Bob Jones, I was inspired by a verse that was posted in the bathroom: Psalm 60:12 ‘Through God, we shall do valiantly.’ I liked it, thus, a poem was born. Lady Valiant Alone she stands While the world Binds itself in chains. The Wicked Design Drags the ignorant under So they are enslaved. But the lady remains. Defiant till the end Her eyes are open wide And she cannot be bound, For she sees the way Humanity is decaying. Others are quietly molded For their roles, But they are blind. In their pride they say, “I am in control, Every choice I make is my own.” How deceived is the world! Their ways are dictated By the whim of their Master Their minds in the Hands of deceit, Freedom is willingly surrendered. So they lady resists The call for peace and unity. And she is beautiful In her defiance. She stands alone, But she is valiant. And for my other poem, which I’ll post again in case you forgot, I still cannot decide on a title, so I’m throwing together all my favorite suggestions, and I need your help to vote! Or at least single out your favs. My will is strong. I stand as a fortress Against those who would Take me captive. Independent in thought and deed No one holds me. Try to bind my soul, I will break your chains And stand steady with shining blade. I am my own! My own! You come to conquer But Force will not take me! You fight in vain. There is but one crack In my ever strong wall, A weakness that could Bring me to my knees. A gentle hand and steady heart Can stay my soul from Breaking free. Soft look, light touch, A Kiss! A Kiss! As sweet as Rose’s bloom. Win my trust Daring Conqueror, Yes, that will be my doom. Destroy my Fortress Stone by stone, As only a lover can do. Reach my cold heart And breathe into it life, Then, will I give myself to you. Body and soul, you own me now, Yours! All Yours! To do with as you will. Take me, break me, mark me As your possession. My sweet Conqueror! All my resistance you have killed. So here are the suggestions. What do you like? Fortress, Touch, Fallen Walls, Submission, Surrender, Will, Break Me, Conquer, Own Vote! Yay. So anyways, um, I am uber sick right now and it sucks because I have a band concert tomorrow, and I’m gonna be useless. But on the plus side, my voice is all raspy and I like it! It’s oddly sexy, so that’s pretty cool. Okay, I really have nothing else interesting going on right now, So I’ll go and PM peeps. I love you all! P.S. Aren’t you excited that I actually have a decent post today?! *claps* Heh…

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