Friday, May 2, 2008

   It's Been a While

Yo, haven't been on in ages... for October, since you probably didn't read my last post, I won't be on as often as I'd like, because during the end of the year, things get pretty crazy for me. I will try to get on as often as I can, but don't get worried if I'm gone for days at a time. Okay, so I just need to say that Secretary is the best fucking movie ever! OMG. I'm serious, it was just a beautiful movie. I love it. It is now my favorite movie. Yeah, look it up. Um, things are alright with me I guess. I had a good long conversation with my mom, I decided I was going to be completely honest with her. I told her that I don't want to live at home next year. I expected her to be hurt, or something, but once again, my momma never ceases to amaze me. She just nodded and said, 'I thought you might want to move out'. O_O Then I told her I don't know where to go. I can't afford an apartment on my own, and because I won't be a full time student, I'd have to pay for my own health insurance, which I can't. She said she'd think about where I could go. She'd help me look for a place. I love my mom. So much. Uh, Prom's coming up real soon, people keep asking whether or not I'm going, I always say I can't afford it, so no. What I really mean is no one asked me, and I'm not gonna be a loser and go alone. As much as I'd love to go to Prom. I wish Apanda was feeling better, I wish there was something I could do to help, but I guess I just have to let her ride this one out. But I'm here for you, no matter what you need, my pretty eyes! I miss Justine bunches. October, I miss you so much, I'm sorry all that crap is happening with your sister not letting you get on. My days feel so weird without talking to you. I'm sorry I haven't emailed you yet, everytime I try to get on at home, my Dad has to use the computer for business. I listened to your messages though, i'ts good to hear your voice. I'm so excited that your mom will let you get a computer if you're good! ^_^ Keep smiling for me, my darling, it makes my life so much brighter to know you're smiling for me. And it's raining up here today. I kissed the rain for you. I miss you. Here's lyrics from one of my fav songs, it's real good, maybe if I get the chance, I'll post the actual song on here. Will You By: P.O.D. See you sittin' next to the window in the bedroom She breaks down - breaks down Crying over something and starin' into nothin' Afraid now - hate now Wanting, needing, haunting, it's killing me Faking what has happened to live the life like that man I'll break down - It's fake now Will you, will you love me tomorrow? So Will You, Will you stay with me today? Fade in and out of reason to fight the way she's feelin' She breaks down - breaks down Going through the motions and holding onto hopes and her dreams now - somehow Shaken, mistaken, forsaken, it's killing me. Wishing you could change, but he's always been this way If you leave now - I'll drown Will you, will you love me tomorrow? So Will You, Will you stay with me today? Will you, will you be here tomorrow? So Will You, you remember yesterday? Yesterday! Yesterday! Yesterday! Yesterday! This time, I'm sorry This time, I'm sorry This time, this time, I'm sorry for this time This time, this time, I'm sorry This time I'm sorry! Will you, Will you love me tomorrow? So Will You, Will you stay with me today? Will you, Will you be here tomorrow? So Will You, you remember yesterday? Will you? [x6] So Will You? Will you? [x6] Well my pretties, Ato for now, I don't know when I'll be on again. Plan for like, Thursday next week. *shrugs* Miss you guys. Love you.

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