Friday, May 16, 2008

Mood: Kinonai

I decided that for my post titles, I'm gonna do my mood in Japanese. I won't tell you what it means till the end of the post. So I've narrowed down my name search for my new site and added a few options. I've got: Sokotsumono- Thoughtless Person Samishii- Lonely and Desolate Isamashii- Valiant And the new suggestions: Shinmenmoku- One's True Character Naishougoto- Secret Watakushi- Myself So, out of those choices, pick your favorite. Please?!?!?!? Um, things are okay today. I miss Apanda so much! Holy Monkies! It was weird walking down the hallway and remembering that I wouldn't get to hug her today. *pouts* I hope she has a ton of fun at Acen. Might go see Prince Caspian today, which would be amazing!!!!! My lord, I really hope my plan works out. The other Amanda and Nat's sister Nicki might be coming with. I hope! If the plan doesn't work, then I have to clean the house all night with my mom. *sigh* I tried to watch Ouran High School Host Club, but all my amazing websites only had seven episodes! O_O So I had to ask Nicki, and she told me to Google it. Ryan's wearing a pink shirt today, it looks like it has a tampon on the back of it, even though it doesn't, but it's good for a few laughs. Mom read me a journal she found of hers this morning. She wrote it to me when I was a baby. It goes through all my accomplishments as a baby up until I was two. I used to bite people a lot. I had no kid friends cuz I'd always bite them. And I used to pull hair. It's funny cuz nowadays I find a lot of sexual pleasure in biting and hair pulling, and I used to do that all the time when I was a kid. Hm. Kinda Fruedish. If anyone knows who Frued is. I posted a new song, listen to it if you can, it's Beauty From Pain by Superchick. I posted the lyrics not too long ago. It's a stunning song. I listened to it over and over again last night. Can't wait to get the CD. Posted a Bible verse, read it, 'tis good. Posted a sweet pic too. Do you like it? I found it on a deviantart account. I've been kinda following this girl's progress through the whole year, she goes to my school. I've never met her, but one of her photographs was displayed in the hallway, and I fell in love with it,she had put her deviantart account on the bottom of the photo, so I've been keeping track of all her new photos as she uploads them. She's REALLY good. My Worlds on theOtaku are back up and running! Well, I actually ended up deleting Beauty and the Beast, the site dedicated to Gaara and Neji as a pairing. There just wasn't enough material to keep the site going. But Fox and the Hound (Gin x Aizen) and LemonAide are still going strong, so sheck them out if you can! Still searching for a good book. Had a few mediocre suggestions, I might just end up rereading some of my favorites. *dramatic sigh* Left yet another comment on October's site asking if any of her friends could have her leave me a message so I know she's doing alright. We'll see if anything happens. Hm, don't know what else is going on... Lyrics time! Yay! Alright, so I know October Hates Fall Out Boy, and for the most part, I do too, but I like this one song of theirs, so I'm posting it! ^_^ Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner By: Fall Out Boy Drink down that Gin and Kerosene, And come spit on bridges with me, Just to keep us warm. Light a match to leave me be. Light a match to leave me be. I keep my jealousy close, 'Cause it's all mine. And if you say this makes you happy, Then I'm not the only one lying. [Chorus:] Keep quiet, Nothing comes as easy as you. Can I lay in your bed all day? I'll be your best kept secret And your biggest mistake. The hand behind this pen relives a failure every day. I keep my jealousy close, 'Cause it's all mine. And if you say this makes you happy, Then I'm not the only one lying. Drink down that Gin and Kerosene, And come spit on bridges with me, Just to keep us warm (Just to keep us warm) Light a match to leave me be. Light a match to leave me... [Chorus x2] So wear me like a locket around your throat. I'll weigh you down. I'll watch you choke. You look so good in blue. You look so good in blue. [Chorus x3] I think the "I'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake" fits in well with Nat and I. Well, it's actually getting a bit better now. We have once again established contact! Huzzah. I walked past him and ran my nail lightly across the back of his neck. He almost jumped out of his skin, he's so sensitve there. But he gave me this big grin and waved. Then when the bell rang he walked behind me down the stairs and blew in my ear. I'm so sensitive there. These little touches are almost more erotic than what we had been doing before. And it's breaking down the ice that formed between us, so it won't be awkward when I hang out with his sister at his house anymore. Well, not AS awkward. But, I'm still lonely, cuz Nat and I both know that there is nothing but lust between us, and I sure need someone to love, and to love me back. So here's some depressing lyrics for ya, more in tune to how I feel. Wait By:Earshot Something's wrong, Trying to conquer these fears I thought were gone. And it's been so long, I'm dying to live in a world I don't belong Chorus: I can't wait for someone to hear me, And wait for someone to touch me. And wait forever to be told, I'm forever alone. I can't wait for someone to feel me, And wait for someone to heal me. And wait forever to be told, I'm forever alone.. On my own, I'll show myself what it means to be alone. And the tears I cry are washed away. All the scars are my disguise. Chorus I'm forever alone. I'm forever alone. I'm forever alone. I, I'm not waiting here this time. There you have it, a good old fashioned depressing song. I'll have to find it on imeem and see what it sounds like. Although, I won't be changing the song on this website for a long time. I really love the song I have now. ^_^ *sigh* I really have nothing else to say, nothing new under the sun, so I'ma leave you with another Bible verse to ponder. Proverbs 14:13 "Even in laughter the heart may ache, and the end of joy may be grief." Ato my pretties, I'm gone for the weekend! 'Kinonai' means indifferent.

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