Wednesday, May 2, 2007

It's only wednesday??
You know, I had plans on ranting on something today, but...I’ll pass on that, because I don’t want to repeat what I’ve already said the day before. That and I get headache thinking about it. *shrugs* Yesterday there was a business after all, and we went of course, and it was no different from the others. The pledge went on, then some student sang the national anthem, and then they rambled on about what it is they needed to ramble on...which was common knowledge. Ok, I might sound mean or something when I say this, but we don’t need some random student to sing the anthem for us...I mean, yeah we may need to say it more in school and stuff, because I’m sure most people our age know it, either because they don’t hear it or they don’t care...strangely enough, it’s a combination of both...a HEAVY combination of both of them. I know bits and pieces of it, but I can’t really sing/say it all myself...back to the point at hand, the student wasn’t a bad singer, but we didn’t NEED her to sing it for us, just like we don’t NEED some punk people singing rap or something again. *sighs* Sorry about the whole mini rant on the business meeting I had to go to, but it was the first one we’ve had in weeks, and it was still as crappy as ever.

I blame part of my attitude at the moment on the dorm...hell, that’s a big part to be honest. ...nah, I’m not gonna complain about it too much for now. Then again, I’ve got nothing much else to talk about, since nothing much has been happening, other than JC getting to me and everything. I think I take back what I said about this place and my enemies. I WOULD wish this place on my enemies...it’d be the worse kind of torture yet, emotional, mental, physical...ALL methods of pain and torture would be wrought on rivals, arch-nemesis, whatever you call people you don’t like...biatches if you will. Yeah, I think I sounded a bit insane just now, but that’s what happens when you stay here too long...things start to get to you, and you start feeling things and thinking all types of weird of stuff...oh, and of course every new stage of JC-Fever is introduced by well...some kind of actual illness. Like my new fever for example. I haven’t had decent mornings since before THIS fever...I had the usual groggy and sleep in my eyes and everything...I think I said this already...anyway...but now that I’m recovering from it and everything, I’ve been waking up easily recently, not being affected by sudden changes in lighting, and actually moving at faster pace...until breakfast, then I break DOWN. *laughs...sighs* That and my already bad habits got worse...

When I heard my roommate was getting kicked out on Monday, I was all for it, cheering in my head, making plans for having the room to myself (peaceful sleep, peaceful gaming, even peaceful phone time), and having a great time...until he claimed he’d leave behind a drawer full of trash to clean up. That right there made me stop in my tracks, not because of the fact that I’d have to clean it, or that I’d get in trouble if I didn’t, it’s the fact that he planned on doing so. It makes me wonder what makes people want to do things like this to other people. I mean, sure I may have given him a smart-ass answer because he gave me a dumb-ass question, but that’s to be expected, especially when you think it’s all fun and games. I don’t mind questions and stuff, don’t get me wrong, but it’s the kind of questions that piss me off...most of them being a bit too personal, considering I don’t even know who that person is. His friends were no better, but they’ve been kicked out also, or at least most of them have been anyway. So now no one has any reason to come to my room now, so it’s peace and quiet until I leave or my luck kicks in and I get a new roommate soon, which would piss me off if he’s just like the others. Well, back to this guy, the who got booted on Monday. I go to my room, and make sure that none of the trash of his, which was a load, wasn’t anywhere on my side of the room, like in my drawer, or under my bed drawers, or anywhere. *shakes head* Nope, no trash in any place on my side of the room, and it’s still in his drawer. So he comes in shortly after, and starts trying to be friendly, and I ask him about the trash, and he says he’ll take it out...which to my surprise he did. He went on to say that this was “messed up”, but that should be expected of me, I’ve had two roommates screw me over in some way or another, and I’m not gonna take it. So I stay in there until he’s fully packed, and well, see if he needs help trying to leave...which thankfully he didn’t.

*sighs* I blame pessimism, allergies, and JC for how I’ve been acting lately. I haven’t normal lately, like at any second I could just go off on someone and not care...but I do, but only for my own safety and everything like that and stuff. Who knows, maybe things will pick up by tomorrow for me? Or maybe even today? Who knows, but as of now I’m feeling a bit better thanks to chatting with Kelsey on several things, so yeah. *hugs her* All I can do now I suppose is hope that something happens, good or bad...although I doubt it. Ciao for now ya’ll.


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Ok, so I'm not feeling as crappy as yesterday...everything was written before today, so yeah. No time to post a more calm post, but the good news is my pm box is slightly less full. >_>
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