Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Hoaryu got some sleep? (warning: Long post, venting, etc etc)
Survey says....*wrong answer buzzer noise*...of course my streak of crappy sleep would continue, and that's thanks to my...no, I'll save that for a later paragraph, but then again, keeping things in order for a little more than a pair of people is over doing it I think. Despite almost not caring at all about it, I'm gonna take a stab at comments and stuff, because I have nothing else going on. *yawn*

First of all though, I'm gonna rant about people in general...no, I'm gonna be specific. I'm gonna say something about our current generation...OUR age group to be frank. You ever notice how you sometimes think that someone you know shouldn't be acting the way they do? Take for example, the "cliques" if you will at your school or college. To be even more specific, let's aim the sights at...how can I put it without offending anyone too much...*sighs*...the rapper group. Sorry, to those who've taken offense, or don't like the way I put it. I blame it on the week I've been having lately, but I'm only trying to vent, so my bad if this is annoying you. (Interruption...a pair of students are fighting over a chair...) I take back what I said about talking about cliques, I'm probably gonna talk about something on a bigger scale in a sec. ....Wait, no, back to the "rapper" thing. I've had one too many people (my age) assume that's what I'm like at first glance, because of the way I look. Yes, that's a stereotype, and I know that's everywhere you go, but I gotta say/get this out on some type of medium, or else I'd crack eventually. Anyway, back to the subject, when those people do ask me what I listen to, and I say nothing, they're shocked. Then if they're persistent, which is the case over half the time, they ask me to be specific, and I tell them what I don't like (which would be rap nowadays, some country, and rock where they do nothing but scream and yell and stuff).

I have no real preference as to what I listen to, but as most of you know, or could assume safely because you guys know me more than these overgrown children at JC, would be stuff related to J-rock and VG's. Yeah, games have excellent soundtracks, take Valkyrie Profile for example...well, maybe at a later time, I'm side tracking myself. ...Yeah, I'm drawing a blank trying to remember what I was-Oh yeah...the fact that I'm in a dorm full of guys. Some of you may not have read when I talk about the actual place I'm..."live" in, but it's a program, not college to be exact. No need to explain this place because it's soon to be a memory to me, but I HAVE mentioned several times that I'm in a dorm full of guys. Some of you might be thinking, "Hey, a bunch of guys, party and good times, right?" Pfft, this isn't like all those other dorms you see in real colleges and cities (San Marcos is as lame as MY hometown almost) where everyone gets along and we all get each out of hairy situations. *shakes head* There's too much hostility, arrogance, and well, just a bunch of negative crap that makes this place a tad less than welcoming.

Let's say you wanna keep to yourself, and you make it blindingly apparent that's how you want it for the time being. You're not gonna have peace of mind out in the lounges and well...anywhere out of your room...unless the jackass that's patronizing you happens to be in the same room. I've jumped the gun, so let me explain. On Monday, I went to the RA office for some reason I've forgotten at the moment, and some guy that was already leaving decided to be funny I guess, and do the whole, "Ladies first motion"...with the moving swiftly to the side and extending his arms out, as if to guide me to RA...when she's in plain view. I glare at him slightly, and pass by and go about my business. He decides to make a big fuss, and ask me why I looked at him that way. I'm getting sick of answering to bastards that, in reality, don't give a damn in the first place. I forgot what I said, and I walked off. Oh yeah, later he thought it'd be funny to try and call a "truce", and pretty much demanded that I shake his hand and be "cool" with him. I've been played for a sap because I try to stay on good terms with everyone, so I said to hell with it and didn't even come into contact with him. I barely do that with anyone in general, and I'm not making an exception for an jackass.

I can't stand fake people. I don't mind cleaning up one's act when in the presence of others, but straight up acting different (out of deceit) is something I'm seeing more and more. I've met my fair share of people that like putting on a show back in high school, and that was acceptable I suppose since people there had an excuse, being insecure about their popularity and stuff. I stopped caring about that at the middle school, but that's besides the point...ah, I just remembered the term I was looking for. Two-faced. That's the word I was looking for earlier. Ever wondered what some people thought about you? Well, act like you can't hear what's going on in the class, and odds are you'll find out. You don't even have to want to know to find out, just listen to the words people mumble behind your back. *nods* Yeah, yesterday, an acquaintance...or so I thought...of mine was coming up to get some books or something for her work, and I see her out the corner of my eye (she didn't see me see her) and she mumbles, "****ing nerds". Now, I could care less about the fact that she called me that, it's the fact she didn't have the nerve to say it to my face, which was in arms length by the way.

Since this post is probably long, I might as comment ON comments. Won't take long apparently.

Angel Zakuro- I think I'm just gonna leave my roommates and their phones alone. I'll just see how they like it when I set the alarm clock for FIVE on the dot, and leave it running until THEY turn it off. *hugs* So sorry if I seem...a little off today, people and stress have been getting to me lately.

Lady Catra- I'm pretty sure my luck is taking a break from being bad. I got a feeling something is gonna snowball soon...and I hope it isn't gonna affect me TOO much.

Grave13- At the rate this week is going, I'm sure that'll be the most fun I have this week. Gotta love government run facilities! Everything is so organized and effecient! (/HEAVY sarcasm) Sorry about that.

roseeyes- I hope you're able to enjoy your summer, and that you're able to relax and enjoy yourself. I'll try and do a little of that myself...one of these years.

krustyknuckles- Nope, although if I didn't care about what happened to me in the least, I would've. It's every three months I think we have a big inspection. We have a normal, less petty one every day.

If you scrolled down all the way, past all the crap I've ranted about then, that's fine . I got a surprising five comments yesterday, if I combine both posts anyway. It'll probably be less today, since this post is long as hell. I've been in an iffy mood, what with lack of graduation results, ignorant people, and the dorm. I'm only trying to vent myself out here on the O, instead of exploding on some deserving sap. The only redeeming thing about yesterday was chatting with Kelsey, and that's enough to get me through the day. So I suppose I'm off to go...do something. Ciao for now...
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