Tuesday, June 20, 2006

   yesterday and today!!! the true story at what happened... lol...
well yesterday my mother and sis came home and I helped my sis put her new bed set (cover set) together on her bed and help her put up her new curtains up aswell!!! and I cryed also!!! my gradmother finished my quilt and I called her up to tell her thank you and I told her now when I'm missing her I can just smell the afken (which is the quilt) and be reminded or feel as if she's her with me!!! and I did feel that way!!!!!!! and then we both stared crying!!! and you can really smell my grandma in the cover!!! she sowed it herself the whole thing by hand!!! I love her SOOOOoooo much and she's the only one who loved me without ever judging me!!! and showed me lots of love throughout the years!!! I love her!!!!!! my grandma also gave me a couple of books to read!!! she's SOOOooooooo awesome!!!
I had to also get their things out of the truck and put in house!!! I watered the plants and just hangout outside!!! it was weird having them back!!! I felt when they were gone like it was.... I don't know like I belonged and didn't have to be ones caddy and muse!!! or get beat upon with slaps on shoulder, scratches, or being tripped all the time by my sister!!! she's a little punk/brat but I still love her!!! then I made pizza for my sis and me and then we watches princess mononoke and her TV had a ghost inside it b/c everything something dramatic happened the light and color went dark and when it was all happy and suck it went back up and lighted the TV screen!!! it was weird and funny how it did it perfectly like if it was in done to the movie!!! lol *laughs as I remember* It was Kewl!!! and then we fought!!! over something stupid and it was her that caused it and she acted all innocent and like she was the one you got hurt by it!!! [scoffs] typical of her though!!! well then I cleaned up my whole entire room and got all the laundy outside to wash today!!! well I spent the whole time in my room and they bugged me and would not leave me alone!!! i also needed time to think and recollect meself b/c I felt so weird and lost when they came home like I didn't know how to feel or act around them anymore!!! it was strange and kinda scary!!! but when I told them I wanted to be alone they took it out of porportion and thought it was b/c they were home and I didn't want them to be!!! and it wasn't like that but that's how they are always thinking they know me and how I feeland why!!! I hate that and they don't listen to me or anything!!!somoetimes I hate them but in the end I just can't... b/c I love them to much and I get that BIG heart, from my grandma who also but sometimes I don't see it, to my mom!!! she has the big heart too!!! but I also have his anger and that's was frightens me and scares me SOOOOOOOoooooooooo much!!! that I might turn out like him or even be like him!!! and I hate him!!! and I'm SOOOOooooooo terrified that I could be since he is my father!!! but I don't consider him as anything to me but an ass hole!!! he wasn't their when I was born and then came 2 years later and whatever and such!!! well I read one of my BOOKs last night till 2:30 in the morning and I was so jitty, heart-pounding and excited to read on when I was almost done, last two chapters left and it i'm on ch 51!!!!!!!!!!!!! then I heard his alarm clock go off and he had to get up and go to work... I hid so fast into the covers and played dead!!! lol..... asleep!!! and I actually feel asleep!!! awwwwwwww, just my luck!!! oh yeah and pretty soon I'm gonna get a dream book!!! I really need one and hope I can traslate mydreams and figure out what they mean!!!


Today!!!!!!!
well today I woke up at 7:00 and then rushed to get the phonon out of bed!!! (it was ringing) and my sis got of the internet like 5 mins before the ring!!! then she left to go riding or walking to a friends house down the way passed are house!!! with are cuz!!! so then I rushed to my bed and con't reading my book and finished it!!!! and OMG I LOVED the ending and it gave me chills of excitment that she had finally found her mother, family, and found out her name and who she was!!! after 23 year of memory lost and living on the streets!!! I LOVED THE BOOK!!!! it was great and sweet...wel then I got oh and my sis in Idaho sent me some emails and told me she's saving up some money to come and get me since my mom and other sis I'm babysittin for can't but it seems like won't find a babtsitter to watch her kids so I can go!!! and she sent me a sort of poem and I really liked it I hope you do to and below it I'll tell you how it made me feel!!!


I'm Glad You're In My Dash

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone,
From the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came her date of birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years.

(1933 - 1991)

For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth...
And now only those who loved her,
Know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own;
The cars...the house...the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard...
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
To consider what's true and real,
And always try to understand
The way other people feel

And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile..
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy's being read
With your life's actions to rehash...
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?

I am glad that you're in my life and part of my dash.

and you guys can send this to your friends and family if you want!!!
From My dash to yours.

Laugh long, live long,
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery


It's sad how I lived my dash or maybe in a way it's not!!! b/c along the way I've met people and learned early about doing bad and things always coming back to bit you!!! charma!!! doesn't it just suck sometimes!?! lol......... I like how it expressed how it doesn't matter the beginning and the end of ones life, but the middl an dhow you lived it that truly matters!!!!!!!and that the future is unknown and ready to be lived!!! so I must and have to live it before it take me with it, along with ending it!!! so what did you guys thing about the poem and such?????????!? well I got to goo and I'm still working on Moonless shadow/moonlight shadow!!! I like both!!! what do you think?!?
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Monday, June 19, 2006

   I'm tired but I posted FUNNY/KEWL things for you guys to do and read!!!!!!!!!
My sister in idaho sent me this in a email and I literally LAUGHED MY ASS OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


a boy's first time


A boy's first time..A girl asks her boyfriend to come over Friday night
and have dinner with her parents. Since this is such a big event, the
girl announces to her boyfriend that after dinner, she would like to go
out and make love for the first time. Well, the boy is ecstatic, but he
has never had sexbefore, so he takes a trip to the pharmacist to
getsome
condoms. He tells the pharmacist it's his first time &the pharmacist
helps the boy for about an hour.

He tells the boy everything there is to knowabout condoms and sex. At
the register, the pharmacist asks the boy how manycondoms he'd like to
buy, a 3-pack, 10-pack, or familypack. The boy insists on the family
pack because hethinks he will be rather busy, it being his first time &
all.
That night, the boy shows up at the girl's parentshouse & meets his
girlfriend at the door. "Oh, I'mso excited for you to meet my parents,
come on in!" The boy goes inside & is taken to the dinner tablewhere
the
girl's parents are seated. The boy quicklyoffers to say grace & bows
his
head.
A minute passes, & the boy is still deep in prayer.with his head
down.10 minutes pass, & still no movement from the boy.
Finally, after 20 minutes with his head down, thegirlfriend leans over
& whispers to theboyfriend, "I had no idea you were this religious."
The
boy turns, & whispers back, "I had no idea yourfather was a
pharmacist."**********************



Subject: Friendship Quiz

Subject: tag your it

You've been tagged, so here it goes... I would like you guys to answer them but you don't have to if you don't want to!!! I did though!!!!!!!

Four jobs you have had in your life:
1. worked at Resturant
2. babysit sis's one of my kids
3. wal-mart
4. babysit another sis's kids and bro's kid

Four movies you would watch over and over:
1. Underworld 1 and 2 the first one rocked
2. pride and predjudic, it's a good movie
3. all adam sandlers movies!!! I love them all
4. howl's moving castle, I love it

Four places you have lived:
1. Phoenix, Az
2. mexico, unknown
3. Tonopah, Az
4. and back to #3

Four TV shows you love to watch:
1. CSI, IT KICKS ASS AND ROCKS
2. supernatural!!! I love this show Honest!!!!!
3. LOST, good show!!! supense and thriller...
4. south park/simpsons

Four places you have been on vacation:
1. Douglas, Az.
2. San Diego, Cal. sea world/knottsberry farms
3. Dallas, Tex.
4. mexico, unknown since I was being flyed their at a young age to visit family members!!! and I am a US citizen and was born here in USA!!! my moms white and my dad's mex...

Four websites you visit daily:
1. MYOTAKU!!! hell yea all the time!!!!!!
2. Yahoo.com, to check emails
3. google.com, to seach for stuff
4. I don;t really have a fourth one!!!

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Tacos
2. chicken enchiladas
3. Hamburgers from Carls Jr
4. carnitas

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. somewhere where I'm free from everything with only me, what I need, a beautiful view, my music and books to read!!!
2. somewhere I belong b/c I feel like I don't in this family!!! somewhere were I can be me and not be made fun of or thought I was being stupid or ignorarnt!!!
3. With my sis in idaho!!! to try somewhere and something new!!! to be someone new and different (but still myself) to be excepted!!! and to be treated that way!!!
4. a place to fill up this hole inside me!!! somewhere happy and I only find that in books and with friends on the internet on Myotaku!!! I love you guys!!!!!!!

Four friends I am tagging that I think will respond..... I'm naming you all!!!!!
1. All you guys!!!!
2. Deciever
3 mojogroupie
4. scraps
5. shishou
6. brokenwings01
7. insesskomilover
8. Esruc
9. sessy514
10.snowangle14
11.KaizDarkAngel05

I hope you guys do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or I would just feel stupid and dumb for doing it!!!well I hope you all have a good day it's like 2 in the morning and I probably won't be able to get on today and see you all!!! *sad look on face b/c I'll miss you* bye guys......... Have a good day!!!! now I'm tired!!!!!!!!!L8ter/bye..........
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Sunday, June 18, 2006

   I thought these fraises & sayings were funny!!! I laughed my head off on some of them.........
My sis in idaho sent this email to me and I thought it was funny so I though I'd share it with you guys!!! Have a ball....

*THINGS THAT HALLMARK CARDS DON'T SAY**


**M**y tire was thumping.

I thought it was flat

When I looked at the tire...

I noticed your cat.

Sorry!
**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~**

**Heard your wife left you,

How upset you must be.

But don't fret about it...

She moved in with me.

**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~**

**Congratulations on your wedding day!

Too bad no one likes your husband.

**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~**

**How could two people as beautiful as you

Have such an ugly baby?

**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~**

**I've always wanted to have

someone to hold,

someone to love.

After having met you ..

I've changed my mind.

**--------------------------------------
----------------------------------------------------------**

**I must admit, you brought Religion into my life.

I never believed in Hell until I met you.

//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////


**As the days go by, I think of how lucky I am...

That you're not here to ruin it for me.

**####################################################**

**Congratulations on your promotion.

Before you go...

Would you like to take this knife out of my back?

You'll probably need it again.

********************************************************************************


**Happy Birthday, Uncle Dad!

(Available only in **Tennessee**, Kentucky & West **Virginia**)

**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~**

**Happy birthday! You look great for your age.

Almost Lifelike!

**~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~**

**When we were together,

you always said you'd die for me.

Now that we've broken up,

I think it's time you kept your promise.

//////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////


**We have been friends for a very long time ..

let's say we stop?

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

**I'm so miserable without you

it's almost like you're here.

=====================================================

**Congratulations on your new bundle of joy.

Did you ever find out who the father was?

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**Your friends and I wanted to do

something special for your birthday.

So we're having you put to sleep.

**)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))*


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   ummmm, now am I going 2 have 2 clean up after you guys!!!

adopt your own virtual pet!

adopt your own virtual pet!

adopt your own virtual pet!

Feed my pets please they all need a like TLC tender, love and care!!! and owen nathaniel is the werewolf in my story!!! his real name is nathaniel but he goes by owen!!!

well guys I'm having a ssdd type of day!!! and it's like I'm living the same day again!!! and if you were wondering what ssdd means it's same shit different day and that's how it feels!!! and I'm sorry guys for not posting my 2 chapter today!!! I'm kinda working on it still... and did you all understand it!!! cuz if you didn't I'd like to know so I can fix it so you can!!! tell me, don't be shy or think your going to hurt me feelings!!!!!!!! I want to know that you understand it and got it!!! well likfe as I know it is getting stranger for me... and it's not the people on myotaku!!! it's me!!! well I hope to see you around and I commented on you!!! deceiver and mojogroupie's site today!!! on yesterdays post!!! sorry I didn't get to it yesterday!!! *sad look on face* well don't forget to read the cbox message I left right after deceivers message!!! it's funny.... L8ter.........
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Saturday, June 17, 2006

   In the forest with danger lurking everywhere below her
Yeah guys!!!! Yea......... I finsihed the continued 1 chapter and I'm POSTING IT.......... well maybe tomorrow!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo, TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So you better enjoy b/c I Really loved how it turned out and where it's going!!! I hope you guys too!!! well I'm still all alone in this house of memories!!!! oh yeah, I forgot to tell you guys that the when.... I think it was two or three days ago I was getting music off the computer and as you know my song on site!!! I got it and I got others but when I was listening to them I got goosebumps!!! scary b/c I never do... and it wasn't b/c I was cold because I live in arizona and IT"S SOOOOOOOOOoooooooo HOT here!!! it was freaky and I felt all happy and gooey inside!!! I had to babysit last night and my sis around 2 in the morning was suppost to come and get the kids but she went to her house and slept till 7:30 well it was when I got up and I told her ass to come and get the kids!!! she said she would come so I waiting till 8 and she never came!!! I went back and she told me to bring the kids to her house!!! I was so effing pissed!!! I did it anyways but I was so mad b/c she made up a lame excuse why she couldn't come and get them!!! she told me she didn't have any underwear on!!! lol... Hell I didn't check if she did or not but I think she lied so that she wouldn't have to get up and get them!!! well I'm sorry you all had to hear/read that and I know that your all anxiously, dying and enthusiaticly waiting to read my story!!!!!!!!! so here it is!!! it maybe Very long but here it is!!! and it leaves right off from where I stopped so if you don't remember you better go back and reread it!!!!!!!! you might get confused at times but if I write this / with two names that means their the same person!!! so you better remember!!! and have fun kill your brain cell from all this reading!!! lol...... *smile and IS serious about the reading* See ya at the bottom!!!

In the forest I run and in their I must hide...


I just couldn't believe what was happening... what had happened... the whole pack of wolves turned into humans, human beings!!!
Her Pull yourself together before they notice you...
They all exchanged looks and greeting towards one another and then, well it seemed like to me as if he was the head honcho of the group... He came upon the stranger who helping me and answered his question...
wolf guy We're chasing two humans, an older fellow and a young adult female... she's probably around 19 or 25... and we... [he looks at others with a grin] Well... we wanted to have a Little FUN...
Guy Aaron, you got to stop this... You got to stop this now!!! Your put us all in danger...
wolf guy is Aaron oh come on, I'm just having a little fun and when we're done with her will let you have some too... what's left of her anyways... [chuckles]
Stranger clinches fist and stares at him with hate and anger in his eyes...
Guy what's wrong with you Aaron, she's human, what your doing is wrong and not to mention dangerous for all of us shape shifter...
Aaron [smirk on face] b/c are kind doesn't give it to us willingly and they tend to bite back and tare us to pieces when we're tangling the bed sheets... humans are weak and easy... and I love the way the scream when I'm showing them a good time... [he turns back to pond one of his pack mates hand]
Stranger [scoffs] he stares at him and as he's turning (Guy) punches him in the gut, before he sees it coming ... and in the face when he's coming back up to face him... so wolf guy fell back flat on his back, with blood escaping from his noise...
Aaron what the HELL was that for... and that was a cheap ass shot you bastard... what the fuck, Nathaniel...
Nathaniel/Guy You know I don't go by that name anymore... it's dead to me, and if you bring it up EVER again... I'll make sure you never will...
Their was sadness and hate in his eyes when he said that... pain and anger mixed together is what usually causes destruction, death, and devastation... and he'll leave all that in his pathway where ever he might go... Aaron seemed nervous and very aware of he surrounding... but more of Nathaniel and wondering what he might do to him...
Aaron I'm sorry, I'm sorry man.... I didn't mean to say it... it just slipped out that's all... I didn't mean to sound like a smart ass and shit when i said it......
Nathaniel/Guy [looks away with teeth clinches and fist] Just don't let it happen again... Aaron...(sounds like a smart ass)
Their was a challenge in his eyes and in the way he said it as he looked back at Aaron... Like he was daring him to say it, so he can show Aaron and hurt him if he did... The silence went on for... it seemed like 3 minutes, but it would to me since I was staring into Nathaniel's eyes... I was lost in them and I could almost feel the anger lashing out at me, daring me alone to say it... But no one did and someone came out of the bushes and stopped the whole thing with one word...
wolf messenger Cedric's...[panting and out of breath]
He fell over and hit the ground with force... he was exhausted, his face was bloody and blood was gushing out of hidden wounds on his body... Almost everyone froze with fear in their eyes and waited for his entire message...
I winced at all the blood seeping out of his cuts and wounds...
Her Oh, my God.....(puts hand on mouth and quickly looking away)
I feared I would throw up if I took in another sight of his tore up bloody body...
wolf messenger It's Cedric... He's on his way... [moans in pain] He found out what we we're going to do and He's Pissed...
Aaron Noooo, duh... either he has a psychic ability or we have a snitch/rat in are mists...(he looks side to side at all the people around him...) I know it's not my buddy here who punched me earlier... b/c he doesn't hang loose the way we do, and if he had a problem with me he'd tell me to my face... so ummm, I wonder, who it could be... he looked back at the messenger and his eyes told everyone who it “Logically”was...
It made sense and I wondered what was going to happen, then all of a sudden Aaron's nails turned to razer sharp claws...
messenger Please Aaron... I beg you... please, it wasn't me... you have to believe me... I would never betray you in anyway... Aaron, Noooooooo.... Pleeeease!!!
and right at that very moment Aaron lashed out at his neck with such force that he cut him ear to ear... Aaron's his whole entire body was soaked in blood, the Messengers limp body fell to the ground and lay fragile and weary as if he didn't believe or would have never guessed and seen it possibly coming from a friend... his friend, who in fact killed him... his eyes wide with shock, pain and a truth in them that told them all that he really wasn't the one who betrayed them... but they all ignored that sign and the look in his eyes... all except Nathaniel, he seen the truth and through the very last breath and movement the messenger had left... Nathaniel held his hand as he dead with tears in his eyes... Nathaniel got up slowly and pushed Aaron fiercely to the ground... But Aaron gets back up with ease...
Nathaniel/guy You son of a.... ahhhhhh... [he slammed his fist against a tree several times] GOD!!!!!!!!!
Aaron What.... What the fuck is your problem?!?
Nathaniel/Guy You!!! Your my fucking problem and your an ass hole you know that!!! he was your best fucking friend and you just Killed him... you killed him because you had a feeling... a feeling he was the rat/snitch...
Aaron Yea, and I would do it again if I had to...
Nathaniel tackles Aaron down hard and it knocks the wind out of him... Nathaniel starts punching him in the face and gut... Everyones cheering and yelling Nathaniel and Aaron on... all I could do was watch and hope Nathaniel wins... then the yelling stopped... the crowed that formed around the two split and parts down in the middle showing off a magnificent Huge Black and Grey wolf coming through and snarling at all of them... Nathaniel and Aaron were still fighting, rolling around, and throwing punches at one another... the wolf jumps at them and while he's in mid-air he transforms in to his human state and he then pulls them apart from each other...
Cedric what's going on here?!? I demand an explanation right now!!!
They all look down and left the explaining for Aaron to do... Cedric looks towards the messengers dead cold body and the splatter of blood soaked on Aaron's clothing and forearms...
Cedric Don't make me repeat myself!!!!!! I want an answer and right NOW... So spill it, Aaron... Or will I have to spill you and your blood like you've done so eagerly to your friend here lying dead on the ground!!! and I do MEAN, everything!!!
Aaron was silent for a moment, they all we're and Nathanael never once looked up at me... not throughout the confrontation of the wolf pack, the messenger, or this.... it was like he wouldn't dare look up here because it might signal where I'm at... just right at that moment he looked up at me... it was brief and only for a second but the look he gave me was worry and it was filled with like he was telling me to hang in there just a little more longer...
Aaron[wipes blood from bottom lip he glances at the pack and then at Nathaniel with anger in his eyes...] We heard their were two lost humans in the forest and we found out by tracking them that it was a female and an older male traveling with her... but we smelled a faint scent of blood and we noticed it was coming from her... she was injured in some type of way and...
Cedric Let me guess you took it upon yourselves to find her and to show her a good time... Am I warm or boiling hot yet!!! don't lie to me either pack or I'll rule with an iron fist and you know how tough, rough, and mean I can get!!! Just try me...
It looked as if Aaron considered his answer for a moment... pondering and choosing the right words to say before answering him.... as if he valued his life and wouldn't dare juggle with something that precious to him...
Aaron To be exact, we had intended to find her and have are fun... but we also wanted to find the male, hunt him down, slice the throat and soak are fur in his blood...
Cedric you know the rules of are kind and things that are forbidden... and ravishing a human is one of them!!! but killing a male in protecting are pack is not... So lets be off in are hunt and Aaron...
Aaron Yes... [holding his breath in fear]
Cedric bury your friend and pay your respects for him and his family... and tell them what you've done to him and why!!!
Aaron Yes, elder...
Cedric Well, get to it... and for the rest of you... hunt down the male... and if you come across the girl, Leave her unharmed and untouched!!! and if any or you have her scent on yourselves I'll personally kill you myself!!! is that perfectly clear... did I make myself understood to you all?!?
all spoke at once Yes!!!!!!
Good, now get going and bring the male to me when you catch him!!! unspoiled and dead...
Nathanael/Guy I'd like to stay behind if that's alright elder!?! I have things to attend to...
Cedric of course Owen, it's good to see you again... it's been a long time!!!
Nathaniel/Owen it has... and I'd like to recollect myself and gather my bearings in order to face the rest of the pack...
Cedric take as much time as you need, and always remember your welcomed to stay in my house for a while till you built your own or find a reasonable one yourself in the mean time...
Owen Thank you Cedric...
Cedric you've always been a son to me, Owen... you know that right!!! and your family.... so it wouldn't offend me if you chose to stay out in the woods other then in the company of my house... I would understand...
OwenYou've done so much for me already Cedric... I wouldn't want to overstep myself and your bounds...
Cedric Nonsense, Owen!!! it's alright if you chose to stay with us or somewhere else... as long as it's comfortable and suitable to you... besides I could use the company since my household is overrun-ed and ruled by woman... [they both chuckled and laughed]
Owen Need help putting the misses back in line!!! [they both chuckled again and patted each other on the back]
Cedric What am I going to do with you Owen...
Owen I'll tell you what I don't want you to do to me...
Cedric Which is..............
Owen Try to marry me off to one of your 7 daughters!!!! [they laughed harder and fuller then before]
They probably laughed that way because Owen's comment was true... that Cedric would try to marry him off with one of them!!! they seemed very close, like in a father son type of way but from the way they were talking you would know that it's they were not... my hands started shaking from the cold breeze coming up out of no where... I really wasn't wearing warm clothing, the wind blew right through them and I couldn't stay warm like I would if I was on the ground... since the breeze was in fact coming upward and hit me everywhere... [shivering and trying to warm hands with her warm breath] she still pondered and tried to remember something that was trying to comeback to her but it didn't and she wondered what happened to her and why has she forgotten everything from when she was running in the forest with that strange man pulling her along... her past... everythings Just gone... vanished and disappeared from her... she looked back at Cedric and Owen laughing and having a good time and then her eyes drifted towards Aaron... and his gaze was aimed at the both of them... with hate in his eyes and it was almost like he had a death wish for both of them... it was a cold stare, cruel and ugly.. he began dragging the body and then he lifted it up onto his shoulders and walked away... silently into the night with blood dripping on him and only a memory of a dead friend calling out to him....

End of chapter 1


and YES!!!!!!!! The wolves/shape-shifters/Guys... were naked throughout the whole time!!!
*smiles, giggles and blushes all at once*
so what did you think and how did you like the ending verse I wrote??? Kewl huh?!? well I hoped you LOVED IT!!!!! see ya GUYS and try to be good!!! lol, yeah right!!! L8ter....... and it was so hard to pick our nathaniels names!!! believe me!!! I had 7 or 8 names I thought might be good for him!!! so what do you thing??? did I pick good one?!? well ttyl, and bfn (bye for now) Hang loose.............
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

   The shadows of her life no longer exist as her past
Hey guys, I'm having a crappy, lonely, hurt felt day!!! but I'm happy sort of toooooo!!! well as you see I have a current song and it's Inuyasha_dearest... and I feel how the songs displaying it's emotions and feelings!!! lonely, can't escape from the pain, but hopes along the way, but the ache will never go away... and that's how i feel!!!

today I'm alone again and it's lonely... it's weird b/c in my house my whole life i've had seven members in the house including myself and it's just empty, dark, and lonely by myself!!! but in a way I like it b/c it's who I am suppost to be alone!!! I know that's bad to say but all my life I've feel alone and like I was meant to be also!!! and I feel home along with just waiting for the yelling and screaming of the household to explode in volumes from sis's and my bro!!! yeah I have 5 sisters and only one brother, and I feel more like a boy then a sister or a girl... yeah I'm a tomboy!!! it's probably b/c I was raised a boy in lifting heavy stuff, digging hole, planting, doing the outside work more then I would do the inside... and feeling kewl around my brother when he was still around!!! he left at age 16 and I was 13 and that's when I needed him the most and he wasn't their... everyone else had him around except me and they say things they wished they had but they had the one thing I wanted my brother and they spent years with him that I lost without him... I wish so many things but I wish I couls have had him around when I needed him and after he left that's when things got worse and bad... the yelling, slaps, hands raising, belt flying, bullshit came back... and I tryed to stop it and I just couldn't... so many things I hate about life and myself but even more things are the things I could have done, did better, or stop those off and on 6 years... not to mention the years before he didn't leave!!! and I blame my self for those!!!

Man, I said alot!!! and some stuff I didnt want to say... ahhhhh, well don't feel sorry for me!!! b/c I believe I deserved all of his bullshit and more... I don't even know why I wrote this, it just came out like if I would say it suddenly out of no where... Ill write the story tomorrow, I just don't feel so good today and not to mention the big fire a block away from are house that happened yesterday!!! someone lit their car on fire and left it in the desert to catch fire I guess but a firetruck came out to put it out... and in the morning down ar road an ambulance came to one of are neibors houses and such!!! it's weird, everythings going out of whacked and what do you know, maybe something will happen at my house!!! well I'm not trying to scare you guys in worrying about me I worried too, but things around my neiborhood are just strange and.... I don't know out of place and different... well I'm alright I just had to... I don't know for sure I'm so confused about things and where I'm going in life that I'm not sure I even have a life... and I'm kinda scared and worried about things that don't matter anymore... and I'm catching myself wondering if I even matter anymore or at least to myself!!! I'm making no sense but I fel like I am... I got ot go!!! things are just changing and.... I don't know just weird for me right now and I'm having a hard time dealing with it right now... I'm lost and it's sort of alright for me to be... I don't know why but I'm clouded with past feelings that hurt but give me comfort at the same time!!! it's weird, like their both fighting each other to hurt me or relive something and I'm feeling both but both no fully... am I even making sense???? strange how life can turn on you and confuse you!!! I'm left behind in a way aren't I!?! I g2g....


L8ter, and I'm sorry if I'm making no sense and acting strange in a way!!!bye....
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

   The world is silent... so why am I not!!!
I'm so alone and it's dark, quite and lonely where I'm at!!! everyones missing, gone and left me once again with the beast of the house!!!


well my mom and sis went to my grandmothers house and I was left behind to babysit and live in a house by myself for a week alone!!! in a way that's sort of KEWL!!! but i live out in the boonies and we have goats and animals that make noises and it's kinda scary out here in the night!!! Really it is... well yesterday I got yelled at and became the(take my stuff to the truck NOW) person and had to lift and take heavy stuff and place it in the truck before they left!!! but my sis *thank GOD* helpeed me lift a heavy meat grinder and put it in the truck!!! well I wanted to go but was left behind!!! but maybe it's a good thing, but yet again it could be a friggin nightmare!!! and if your wondering about the beast, well it's my, well sort of dad!!! he is my dad but I hate him and he is not ever a person to mess with!!!!!!!!!!

Here's one, well most likely the one I will be writing about!!! I don't have a name yet but I'm thinking about naming it moonlight shadows!!! here's a part of it!!! I started the begining of it but I don't know if I want it to be though!!!


A forest, a memory, a dream at that... or was it a nightmare that just went out of wacked... I was holding a strange mans hand running, trying to get away from whatever it was chasing us. he urged me to run faster and harder, but I was to weak and tired and my hand sliped through his fingers and hold... he let go of my hand, it seemed though, but I kept on running with him. he looked back with a sad look in his eyes and I focused on them and lost my footing and fell to the hard floor of rocks and dirt... I called to him to help me, but all he did was run and left me to face whatever certain fate coming my way... a single tear rolled down my cheek as I kept calling to him, but he only looked back once and their was coldness and relif in his eyes that I was the one to fall and be the one to face the object of fear... I tryed to run to him and called out to him once again but I was now all alone. sso I told myself why run when he left me to die and face this fate alone, but then why when I'm ready to face it am I trembling and ready to bolt at whatever is to come my way... I feel to my knee's and looked to the ground ready to face the shadow and not the face that I heard come... as the footsteps stopped in front of me, i looked up slowly and from the the barefeet, black pant, his barechest, to his in credable lavender pale eyes... he bent down to ask me if I was alright when loud howls from a distance caught both are attentions... he gazed with fear and worry in his eyes and rushed me up off the ground...
Guy: You can't be here, you have to leave NOW!!!
he told me with panic and fear in his eyes... I ran into his arms and held him tight.
Her: I don't want to be alone...
the howls grew closer with in feet from us...
Guy: Run... Run, NOW!!!
His eyes filled with sadness and fear... he looked at me and wiped the tears away. he looked in my eyes and knew I couldn't be saved... he held me close and then we stared to run, we ran into a cannopy of tree's and bushes...
Guy: Stay out of view and now matter what you see, don't make a sound or scream...
the howls got closer and closer... I climbed in a tree full of leaves and branches to hide me and he stood in plain view ready to take on the howls of wolves coming are way... they came out of every corner and they gathered around him, as if ready to attack him from every corner, and they were beautiful huge wolves, frightning but beautiful... and he looked at them with calmness and began to talk to them...
Guy: What are you guys doing in thsi part of the woods?!?
and then the shocking truth of fear came to be... the pack of 6 wolves began sheding their fur and standing upright... right before me they changed to people, nude men right before my very eyes... I slammed my hand against my mouth to hold in my muffed scream or horrifing concludion of what I just saw... The trembling and shaking came out of no where and now I knew why the man who lead me running through the forest wa glad I fell, so I would buy him time to flee and run away from them!!!


so guys what do you think so far?!? do you like it?!? I hope you do b/c I'm writing this story, and I hope you do read it!!! I got to go, I'll finish the rest of the first chapter tomorrow!!! I write a lot!!! I just thought I might warn you!!! Bye...








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Saturday, June 10, 2006

   I'm feeling Much better!!!!!
today I woke up late, really late like 12 in the afternoon and almost feel down when I got up!!! it was weird!!! like everything around me faded and I couldn't breathe and lost my balance!!! I caught my dresser b/f i fell, so I didn't hit the floor!!! my sis was like are you alright!!! and I couldn't answer that b/c at that moment I just came to a blank and felt like this wasn't real... well most of the night me and my sis tried to beat this boss in Devil may cry 3 and we couldn't so then we watched the last part of south park and it was when cartman try to get all beefed up with BEEF CAKE and got huge!!! b/c he won with the best essay and he cheated!!! but Wendy was Pissed!!! and Kathy lee was coming to give the award to cartman and their teacher (Mr. Hat) the gay teacher!!! not that anythings wrong with being guy, b/c I have friends that are!!! but he wanted to kill Kathy lee, but instead killed Kenny!!! Poor Kenny... and then we went to sleep!!! I had to baby sit thought!!! it was all good though... well in the morning we (me and sis) beat the boss who was a vampire that was nude somewhat... she had her hair covering her top half and bats covering her bottom half!!! it was crazy and now were playing vice city!!! it's so funny, b/c were killing ppl and trying to see who can get the highest number of cops on are badges!!! we both got 5 and that was hard!!! we had the cops, secret agent and FBI trying to arrest us!!! it was so fun...

I'm feeling better and know it's b/c of all of you guys, MY friends caring about me and telling me to hold on!!! Thank you!!!

Deceiver, brokenwings, mojogroupie, scraps, insesskomiover, and esruc for commenting on my post when I was having a hard time and really bad day!!! Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm okay so far so don't worry about me!!! I just hope your all ok!!!

g2g seeya around, L8ter.......
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   I'm feeling Much better!!!!!
today I woke up late, really late like 12 in the afternoon and almost feel down when I got up!!! it was weird!!! like everything around me faded and I couldn't breathe and lost my balance!!! I caught my dresser b/f i fell, so I didn't hit the floor!!! my sis was like are you alright!!! and I couldn't answer that b/c at that moment I just came to a blank and felt like this wasn't real... well most of the night me and my sis tried to beat this boss in Devil may cry 3 and we couldn't so then we watched the last part of south park and it was when cartman try to get all beefed up with BEEF CAKE and got huge!!! b/c he won with the best essay and he cheated!!! but Wendy was Pissed!!! and Kathy lee was coming to give the award to cartman and their teacher (Mr. Hat) the gay teacher!!! not that anythings wrong with being guy, b/c I have friends that are!!! but he wanted to kill Kathy lee, but instead killed Kenny!!! Poor Kenny... and then we went to sleep!!! I had to baby sit thought!!! it was all good though... well in the morning we (me and sis) beat the boss who was a vampire that was nude somewhat... she had her hair covering her top half and bats covering her bottom half!!! it was crazy and now were playing vice city!!! it's so funny, b/c were killing ppl and trying to see who can get the highest number of cops on are badges!!! we both got 5 and that was hard!!! we had the cops, secret agent and FBI trying to arrest us!!! it was so fun...

I'm feeling better and know it's b/c of all of you guys, MY friends caring about me and telling me to hold on!!! Thank you!!!

Deceiver, brokenwings, mojogroupie, scraps, insesskomiover, and esruc for commenting on my post when I was having a hard time and really bad day!!! Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm okay so far so don't worry about me!!! I just hope your all ok!!!

g2g seeya around, L8ter.......
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Friday, June 9, 2006

   Hi.......... I hope you enjoy!!!!!
sometimes I feel like it Just want 2 :wallbash: and other times I Just want 2 :Banger: and rock all night long listening to my favorite songs!!!

:aetsch: he's making fun of me!!! you no what!!! Lets :rumble: and then will see if you'll do that again!!!

I hope I get :mail: today!!!

:teetrinken: I'm really not a morning person and I hope deceiver :Kotz: feels better!!!


Bye guys!!! I'm feeling somewhat better!!!
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