Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Sorry if you can't see it, it's just for me really so I can watch it again later... sorry, nothing new with me!

BLAH!!!
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Tuesday, January 22, 2008

   Memorial to Heath Ledger



Actor Heath Ledger Dead at 28

Born: April 4, 1979 in Perth, Western Australia, Australia
Death: January 22, 2008 in New York City, New York




Biography:
Already something of an established actor in his native Australia, Heath Ledger first came to the attention of American audiences in 1999 with his winning turn in the teen comedy 10 Things I Hate About You. Playing the rebellious Patrick Verona in the update of The Taming of the Shrew, Ledger managed to arouse many an adolescent hormone with his thorny, charismatic performance.
Born in Perth, Western Australia on April 4, 1979, Ledger first became interested in acting while attending the all-boys Guilford Grammar School. He began his career performing onstage with the Guildford Theatre Company and was soon appearing in substantial roles on Australian television shows. The 1996 series Sweat featured him as a gay cyclist, while the following year's Roar cast him as a medieval Celtic prince--and also won him the beginnings of a fan base. After moving across the Pacific to Los Angeles, Ledger landed his lead role in 10 Things I Hate About You opposite Julia Stiles in 1999. The movie proved to be a summer hit, and it succeeded in introducing Ledger to a legion of new fans. That same year, he starred in Two Hands, an Australian action comedy that cast him as a Sydney teenager who finds himself in debt to an underworld kingpin, played by Bryan Brown. The film premiered at that year's Sundance Film Festival. Following a prominant role in Roland Emmerich's The Patriot (2000), Ledger brought Excalibur sensabilities into the new millenium with A Knight's Tale (2001). With its tradition shattering blend of modern slang and music balanced with the classic tale of jousting mayhem, A Knight's Tale served as an exciting star vehicle for the popular young actor. The young actor also garnered a fair amount of praise for his supporting role as a deeply depressed prison employee in the Oscar-winning film Monsters Ball (2001).
Though the film did not fare well critically or otherwise, Ledger nonetheless proved himself a versatile actor in The Four Feathers (2002), in which he starred as a cowardly officer-in-training who resigns from the British Army shortly before being shipped off to Sudan. In the same vein, though The Order (2003) was shunned by critics, Ledger was praised for his intense performance as a tortured, knowledge-seeking priest. Australia's Ned Kelly (2003) features a then 24-year-old Heath in the title role of sixteen-year-old outlaw Ned Kelly, and places him among a skilled cast including Six Feet Under star and fellow Australian Rachel Griffiths, the Oscar-winning Geoffrey Rush, Orlando Bloom, and Naomi Watts.




HE WORKED WITH
Mel Gibson
Michael Caine
Brad Pitt
Halle Berry
Adrien Brody
Richard Gere
Christian Bale
Adam Baldwin
Halle Berry
Michael Caine
Adrien Brody
Sean "Diddy" Combs
Chris Cooper
René Auberjonois




I've seen alot of movies that he's been in, and I for one will miss he's creative and awesome acting. It's a shame to lose such a brillant actor like him.

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Friday, January 18, 2008

hmm-- interesting yet very strange-- but it feels so damn good!
Strangely I feel like being really cruel and-- to put it in plain english, a fucking bitch! I don't know why I'm feeling like this, but I'm in a mood for violence and being yelled at and just-- i feel like another person and it feels-- it feels, GREAT! I feel alive and like I'm on a rush of some type of high. My nerves are all wacked out and I feel like running in the night and even if I'm tired or breathless, I feel like I wouldn't stop. Like if I talked to someone at this very moment, I'd totally demolish them emotionally with rage, anger, yelling and just, cussing the hell out of them. And the trippy thing is, I wouldn't feel one bit sorry or bad, at this moment, I could hit my best friend in the face and I would laugh. I feel free, alive. Yet I also want to cuss the hell out of two ppl I know, both guys. Just cuss the Frigging hell out of them till their ears are raw and bleeding. Crank call them at all hours of the night and laugh at them none stop with pure enjoyment. God-- this is so not me. I'd never do things like that, but I so desperately want to and need to it seems like. I feel like punching a brick wall over and over again just for the hell of it and laugh during so, like slapping myself and laughing and-- god. I'm so fucked up rght now with-- Hell it I know. It's just something I've never felt before and I'm loving it and every moment of it.

:Quote on quote, someone told me this: You seem colder, not like yourself... dead inside. Where's vanessa, the real nessie?

Have you ever been at this juncture, in your life?

Oh yeah-- my mom's heart stent surgery went well yesterday and she's now on bed rest for 3 days. That's been killing me with worry for the last couple of days, and not to mention her joking around that she'd die or some shit... Gah!!!

Today's my friend Darrel's 19th birthday! Happy birthday bud, sorry things are shitty.

L8ter ppl who actually come and read this shit I write... Hi, Hi, Bye!





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Saturday, January 12, 2008

   Mind trama and thoughts
Time: 4:25pm
Mood: Anxious and unnerving.
Listening to: All that remains
Quote: In every beginning, there is an end-- Yet where is my end?





Things are ok I guess-- I'm doing semi-ok yet things and feelings plague my mind and thoughts. I can't escape or shake them off me, and the more I run or try to block them out-- the more harsher they get and the more painful my heart begins to break. I'm stuck in between.

Have you ever been there?

How's it going?
Sorry I haven't been by your sites and commented for a-- long time. *sighs* I'm trying to come back, yet I find it harder to do so. I'm ok though, yet I'm more on the lines of wondering how you are-- So how are you?



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Friday, January 11, 2008

   Hey
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Friday, January 4, 2008

   Blah... I'm bored!
I'm ok, things are getting even more complicated with things in my life, yet everythings... semi-ok still. I'm lonelier than ever, yet things are-- looking up in a weird sense.







What I'm thinking about doing to my hair...






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Thursday, January 3, 2008

   Hey... I'm bored!
Sometime I Feel Like Howling At The Moon, But What Use Would That Be...


Nothing much happening, yet maybe there is-- I'm just not at liberty to mention what at the moment. Yet it has to do with friends and a man I once, and still do love, even though he has some-what, forsaken me!

1. How was all your New Years?
2. Any kissing going on?
3. How was christmas?
4. Whatcha get?

~Me

1. interesting, boring, yet fun in the end.
2. Nope, I'm kiss free! lol, T.T
3. sadly is was a mix of disappointment, then laughter, and finally fun! It was good.
4. 2 sweaters that were to small, a pair of sweat pants that were two sizes to big, well three really, and a movie, comedy... which was funny yet stupid, but it was still great!

How are you?
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Saturday, December 29, 2007

   Hmm...
Time: 3:28am
Mood: Mixie <-- I know it's not a word, so just bear with me, ok!
Quote: A bird may love a fish, but where would they live... then I shall make you wings! ~ Ever After <--movie


Sometime I Feel Like Howling At The Moon, But What Use Would That Be...



Life seems to always take interesting, yet rather dramatic climates/turns-- in my life. And I'm really starting to Hate them!
But on to other topic's, it seems I'm stuck between feelings and how a certain someone feels about me-- i feel like I'm doomed to be alone froever at the moment, yet I know that feeling will pass and I'll finally wake up and say-- You prick, why'd you care about me in the first place then! But, I'm ok... I'm just-- what's the right word... Stuck inbetween, that's all I can really say. Yet I'm surviving beautifully, well so far anyways. I'm really worried about some close friends of mine, and my-- well I still think he's my boyfriend, yet... at the moment, all I feel like, is that everyone is pushing me away from them-- yet actually, I'm doing it, it seems... But I highly doubt that. *sighs* it's hard being me and getting lost and so confused within my own mind with my shitty problems, yet I know others have it far worse than me. *sighs*

How are you, and things going?


My pal John from Gaia



His Avi


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Monday, December 24, 2007

   Christmas Eve, Santa's comin' to kill you!!! And I'm his helper elf!



Time: 4:47pm
Mood: A mix of ~ giddy, worry, mellow, tired, and HELL-YEAH... it's drinking time!

Quote: Sometimes it feels like I'm just so alone, yet even though my times are gloomy, you always have to think on the brighter side, even if it's just, for the faintest of moments. But in those moments, you cherish the good ones forever...



Tonight the creatures are stirring -- and I'm one of them!

Well I've had fun with my kick ass sister, and at her house for my winter break -- so to say. We hung out, watched movies, laughed are ass's off and had a couple of drinks.

We watched Balls of Fury, Hot Fuzz, Superbad, The Banger Sisters, and StarDust! ~ I loved Stardust, ^^ It's going to be my new theme, that or Balls of fury, lol jk!

I made a new pal, we kind of have a lot of things in common, and he's pretty cool. His name is Scott... I talked, well have been talking on myspace with Chris, for those of you who know, he's my boyfriend, well I still think we are together, I'm a fool though...

Well guys, it's Christmas Eve, it's party time... well my sister wants to get me wasted for some unknown reason, probably to laugh at my ass falling all over the place, Yeah -- Lets do it! ^^
Well I'm gonna have no gifts tomorrow and I'm ok with that, just seeing my neices and nephews opening gifts is ok with me, and besides, I get to play with them as the, "toy tester" LMAO! well guys I g2g, Merry christmas and I hope you all are doing ok! Love ya and be good!

Happy Holidays and Kisses for all! *MUAh!* bye...

Nessie, your bud!


Enjoy!!!




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Thursday, December 20, 2007

   Blah, blah, blah...
Time:10:36 am
Mood: waiting and giddy
Quote: when others fall, don't fall with them, but help them back up...

Nothing much to say... I'm alive and kicking, and I finally put up the christmas lights last night, oy! I'm going over to my sister's house, and staying for the weekend. YAY, yay... lol

I sometimes wonder if your life will be how your moods are... If your up and down, depressed, and so on... will you life end up like that as well... Hmm... I wonder.

I how everything is going great and things are fine.

1. How are you?
2. Do you think your getting coal this year?
3. Did you make christmas cookies yet?
4. Have you seen where your hidden presents are at?
5. Do you still believe in santa?

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1. I'm ok, just wondering when Chris is going to call me...
2. Heck, YES! lol, I'm not sure... I think It'll be rocks from outside.
3. We've made the dough, but haven't baked yet.
4. Nope... I'm almost positive I don't have any!
5. It all depends... sometimes I do, then I don't...

Happy holidays!




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