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Birthday
• 1986-09-14
Gender
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Female
Location
• in myself in which no one there ever hurts me
Member Since
• 2006-05-26
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Real Name
• Jasie
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Achievements
• Surviving one day at a time.
Anime Fan Since
• The first time I ever seen one of Hayao Miyazaki's movies and other Studio Ghibli ones I fell inlove!!! I just started watching anime, movies and reading manga ever since then...
Favorite Anime
• NARUTO!!! ^^ Trinity Blood, Bleach, Gunslinger Girl, Elfen Lied, FMA, Howl's moving castle, witch hunter robin, Inuyasha, samurai 7, samurai champloo, Rurouni Kenshin, spirited away, vampire hunter D, princess Mononoke, blood: the last vampire, and many
Goals
• To Never change into something or someone I REALLY am not, to just be my self.
Hobbies
• hanging out by myself, chatting, writing stories, poems, and on occassions I read in my dark room with only a single lamp shining through it's darkness.
Talents
• playing several instruments, making people laugh, and hiding my true feeling from everyone around me with my "so called" MASK.
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Monday, March 26, 2007
*exhales* why does life have to be so... so...
I can't even understand why people would want to be my friend!!! on here or out there... i have nothing to offer them ofr you guys!!! I'm just a loser trying to go through life and failing at everything as usually!!! I can't escape that and not to mention the violence that comes and follows me!!!
Yes I have a big heart and befriend people easily, and care about them and wonder how their doing and such... I don't deserve you guys, I never did!!! I don't even know why I'm still coming on here!!! no one really cares what happens about me and what's going on, most, MOST!!! people only care that they got a certain number of comments on their site... me, I don't really care but even if the ones I befriended don't comment on my site I still comment on theirs!!! my stupid heart... I care about you guys and wonder what's going on so no matter what I try to at least see what's going on!!! me, *exhales* I a waste of place on myo and I'm not really helping any of you... you'd go through your life with or without peoples comment on here... what makes you, me, or anyone else special?!? maybe it's because all we want is someone to care about us, show compassion, love, addvice, tell us everythings going to be alright... but the truth is, nothings going to be alright!!! we all fall, and we have to pick are selves back up!!! [scoffs at self] I haven't even learded to do that yet, well physucally yes but not emotionally and mentally!!! but whay I'm trying to say is, life goes on, all we can really do is hope of the best, make a friend and take it on together, have a loved one beside you, or face it alone like many others do... but we come on here so we don't and hope others have compassion and help eachother by... a "freeloader" I would call them... we I'm a loner and on occassions I've been a freeloader who'd lean on someone for help, but that was ages ago... and all you do by that is burden and upset them, who have gotten and became very good or close one to you...
I'm sorry for this post I'm just feeling down and hating myself for things I CAN'T change... only if we could, everything would some how get or be better... but probably it'll get even more screwed up and we'd probably have killed are selves sooner, but yeah!!! well sorry for my bitching and so on... I hopw you all are feeling good and ready for monday morning "hate day" as I would call it and be "happy" for whatevers on your agenda for life!!! how was your guys weekend?
have a great day and take care!!! ^^
Hollow
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