Saturday, May 19, 2007

sorry I haven't been on and visting


Time: 6:20
Mood: ok and happy since I've been reading Dark Lover, the vampire book!!! ^^
Listening to: Papa Roach "forever"
Quote: lifes a challenge of ups and downs, don't let the downs get the better of you and don't expect the up's to always come, it's a life we must live in, so don't give up and let it overcome and beat you down. we must live in order to make better of areselves and the world around us, so get to it... By: ~Forsaken Shadow inside me~


well everythings going good, my mom's... well i don't know, she's getting worse and her legs, god they just look really really bad and I'm worried about her, I've been rubbing alcohol on them and just massaging them. (I think I spelled that right) and not to mention my grandmother... she... she just wants to give up on life and die, how ironic that I've been and have been feeling the same way for a long time but I haven't!!! I'm just really worried about everyone in my family!!! not to mentinomyself but my sister and my nice and nephew went camping and a forest fire started up were they went and since it's fire season already I was going out of my mind worrying and such and she didn't even call or let us know she was alright for 4 days. that punk!!! I'm just glad she's ok and the kids!!!
and my little sis... *exhales* when am I NOT, worried about her, she's my emo and hate sis like I was for the biggest part of my life and I'm hoping to GOD she's doesn't turn out and go through the things I had in life or even think about the stuff I had!!! I'm worried about her though. she doesn't let anyone in and I'm afraid she'll do something stupid like i did.
I'm ok so don't worry okie-dokie!!! ^^



well as you can see my minds full of worry and things pladging it non-stop but it never stops me from not worry and wonder about you!!! so how are you? anything new happening or going on?



The book is great and MAN, i'm so... into it that I just feel like a vampire theme or changing something. ^^ I'm not sure though hehe ^^ but I just love the book and it's been two days and I'm already on chapter 22 pg 167 and I only get about 2 or 3 hours to read it sometimes less. lol I only get to read it at night around 11, or 12... and I end up staying away fro hours if I can, well I did in reading other books!!! ^^ what can I say i'm a night person and love everything and all things of the night. The moon just the moonlight shinning down on me i have a feeling over come me and I want to just run in a forest and lay down in it, a place somewhere no one can find me or call me, a place magical i can call my own. The stars, a million wishes and hopes of people that sparkle and shine letting you know everything is gonna be alright. and the sounds and night breezes from the night is so... it feels like home, something I've never felt anywhere else!!!



Q.) do you ever have dreams of picking up and leaving all you've even known and leave it all behind, walking out on everything and making a new start for yourself, you. and I'm not talking about dream DREAMS, but do you ever think about that, just picking up and leaving it all, start fresh and new somewhere else away from your worries, doubts, troubles, pains, and fears. run away!!!

me.) Every DAMN day, is it so wrong to want something different and new? to live life somewhere else and not worry about this person or that, or what's gonna happen. to just be free and leave everything you've known lived, I feel bad for thinking about it, especially since my mother needs me and all, but what about me, don't I diserve a life of my won to live and find out I never had? I don't know, I guess I'm just selfish and should wait some more.




well guys I got to go, I have things to do and extra. ^^ and are dog had puppies, little baby chiwawa's (I think that's how you spell it lol) 3 so far and she bit me!!! O.o it's cool, she's mostly my dog but she was only being protective of her puppies and I was just trying to put in a soft comfy blanket and snap, she got me, I wasn't even near the puppies. but It's ok!!! ^^
she' bit me twice though lol ^^
well it's 7:07 pm and I'm headed out to make dinner and do laundry so L8ter guys, and thank you all for commenting on my post!!!
the 5th chapter and I will proof read and fix through it this time (not just go on blind hope that it sounds good) lol sorry about all those times it wasn't!!! but the 5th chapter will be, I hope!!! lol by and have a great day, night, and great dreams... mine haven't been all that good, more like freaky and sick lol L8ter,

~*hollow*


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