Tuesday, June 19, 2007

my tears and the breeze (my new written poem)
Time: 1:31pm
Mood: iffy
Thoughts: looking for love is harder then just being alone, why is it that it never finds most of us, but tortures us in knowing that others have it and found it. maybe it's b/c we feel unloveable and not capably of love and of someone loving us... me! lol me. but love will find me, like a cool summer breeze finds me, I just have to let it wash over me and let it come to me. not hide and run in the house when it blows on by. I always let the breeze wash over me but a man or guy... that's a different story! a breeze never hurts you emotional but physically, well sometimes yes. but emotionally NO! and thats why I love it so much I guess or that it just makes me smile for some reason everytime is blows and washes over me with new life. life, yet to be found in others, a whole world waiting for us to explore and live in. I want to live in it, do you?



My tears and the breeze


I cried while my tears fell upon your lips and caress your face as they slid down your bruised face.
My cries were never heard, but echoed only in the silence of the murky dark night, forever staying within the silent night of my cold heart.
I held you in my arms and watched as you slipped away within the darkness of the dead.
And as I kissed your rough lips stained with my sorrow filled tears upon them, I dead inside.
While my soul stretched out under my skin and pulled at my flesh trying to break free from it and its confined cage... in order for me to just reach out to you, and in hopes of going with you in spirit… so I wouldn’t be alone in this heartless world we both lived in.
But I failed, you left without me, and my heart chipped off like ice into pieces, leaving me hollow and empty, without you in this world.
It means nothing to me without you here.
I don’t want to be in it without you holding me each and everyday, kissing me with you sweet lips, and making me laugh and smile while deep down inside you know I’m crying.
And so my cries fall upon my out stretched bruised palms as I see your blood stained upon them. I feel you under my skin and caressing my hands as if you’re here with me.
So as I close my eyes in hopes of remembering the last smile and look of your face, and you reach out to me in spirit to whisper my name, as I open my eyes to see your face, I see nothing but the streaming of your blood running into the lake.
I hug and hold on to your body one last time and your face is all I see when I hear my name on your lips in the night breeze.
Cherry blossoms are gliding and dancing within it and combine together as your face.
Then you swipe at me with the petals and caress my skin face and lips, in a one last attempt to touch me as you fade away, forever unseen by me, but forever there beside me.
So as my tears fell swiftly into the dark night, I knew that you were always there to catch them and kiss me with leaves and petals that caress my cheek on a summer breeze.
And that you’ll always be there with me and within my heart until we can finally meet once again.
But for now we’ll always have a breeze to connect us, and a whole world to share together unseen but forever together, until we meet.

written by: Jean well... Vanessa aka hollow

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L8ter,

~*hollow*


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