Tuesday, November 13, 2007

   Happiness, life and worries...


Time: 9:37am
Mood: hmm... trippy yet worried and mixed with so many thoughts i'm falling apart!
Listening to: My Heartstrings come undone, by Demon Hunter *sways and dances to it* I love it!!! I just go to your site all the time Chris, just to listen to it! ^^ I will wait for you, I will stay with you, decay with you! Infected by Demon hunter is, Great too and I LOVE FADING AWAY!!! I'm pretty much listening to My boyfriend's Playlist! It rocks! ^^ hehe, i might steal it! lol I love it! ^^
Quote: Her wishes were curses, and her love was lethal. ~Christina Dodd
I love this quote and it's from the current book I'm reading... Scent of Darkness I love it, but it's not a book I wold recommend to you, just for the fact it's not a kid book! lol
Reading: Scent of darkness by Christina Dodd LOVE, LOvE loVE! it's about a man who's family is cursed and ancesters made a deal with the devil, so they could change in to animals at will, to kill, hunt and destroy... it's very good!



Well alot has happened since I last pm'ed most of you or... well posted up anything worth reading. *smiles slightly while holding on to the point of exploding form excitment* I have a boyfriend, I meet him here, we were great friends who gradually grew on one another, then the warm flutterly feelings came and made things complicated cause of the situation... but lets no go into the past, it's hollow and sad for most! We were kick ass friends who wante more, and I called him for the first time on the 9th and... *sighs sadly* his granny passed away, my mom has the same thing he's granny had and... well we know what one anothers going through pretty much in that area. Him more so though, My timing sucks, but in the end we... *giggles* we kept getting eachother lost in conversantions and being totally nuts, lol. and he popped the question in... what wold I say if... and then he asked and... *smiles happily* I said yes! ^^
We always had lots of things in common but now I'm learning more about him and it's surprizing yet so exciting as well! We're both freaks, yet we laugh and have a great time talking all the time, he lives in Arizona too! So YAY! and he's only about... a 5 to 6 hour drive away! He's 19 and I'm... 21, wow talk about me robbing the cradle, lol jk! I'm in a weird mood today so... a happy mood you can deffinately say! and those are very rare for me! ^^ I hope I don't cause the world to got into a catastrophic polarity orbit causing us to all die, from my happy, great, good mood! O.O lol ^^
I'm really worried about a close friend of mine... he's... *sighs* in pain you could say and we both caused that to eachother in ways that will never mend with time, well it will but it'll never be forgotten, EVER! I'm just worried, and feel like I'm being pulled in two different directions, I desparetly want both, but... the heartache from choosing is going to effect my from the rest of my life. Live life without regret... for you can't change the past so why ponder and make yourself suffer reliving it within yourself! I try to tell myself, hmm... that might be a new quote for me! but still... it's hard not to make yourself suffer with what if, it's always there nagging at you and killing you from the inside no matter what and how much you supress or push it away... you know? *sighs* man... well things are going good, and some amazingly awesome ^^, but thinks plague me and cause my happy times to go down the shitter, but I know it'll be ok, it has to be... It's gonna be! no if's and's or but's about it! *sticks my tongue out to the world* hehe ^^

My story/character/she's a vampire!

Love, that word engraved it's self in her heart as it slipped fromhis lips to her and the knowledge that she loved him too, she wondered if someone could ever love someone to much, cause she felt she did and for this wonderful man. Jasie hugged him tightly and slid her hands around his neck before resting her head on his shoulder sighing happily, as well as cuddling up against his neck. Jasie followed his eariler gaze at the stars and the full moon, and sighed wonderfully inside. A full moon always did that to her, she always felt as if it guilded her and lit up just for her, as if it's warm beautiful glow could mingle and... become a part of her. Jasie envied Lycan's, she loved the moon and she's often found herself running in the woods on full moon nights or just loving to fill her hearts content with the moon, staring and always being out on one. Like it called to her in some mystic languge, beging and pleading for her to come out and just be, to live. Jasie wanted to stay like this forever in his arms, to never leave his side or be forgotten with time like most vampires are, or infact, left alone because the ones they love... Well, their ticket comes up and it's time for them to go, and which way does she mean that you may ask... it's in death and age. She'd never feel that or go through that. But she's watched the world around her change just like he would and she couldn't except that, wouldn't or couldn't lose him. But she knew she would, so Jasie's heart began breaking as tears fell from her eyes in sorrow. "I love you, never leave me... for I'd rather die then leave you." Jasie said burying her face in his shoulder and neck hoping he wouldn't pull her away, just to see she was crying. Crying for him and what will be with and in time... her left alone, hollow and without him. But she still would have risked her heart if she went back in time, just for him... Jasie would risk her heart a thousand times to be broken just for moments like this, to not be alone, to be loved and cherished.


Well my mother's freaking out on me and... lol being a need-freak from hell, she acts like she desperately needs me, as if in a life or death situation and it's mainly to find the damn remote! LMAO, but yeah, she's loopy a bit and well... cries on me and most the time makes me feel like shit, not purposely... yet sometimes to do think... lol.
well... as another Fave quote of mine is said, Nothing ever becomes real till it is experienced. ~John Keats Fire does not wait for the sun to be hot, Nor the wind for the moon, to be cool. ~The Zenrin Kushu and Cruelty has a human heart, and jealousy a human face. ~William Blake.



LMAO... Yes Kalli, I took the test from your site! ^^

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Jasie Sloan... lol ok, ok... It's Vanessa Sanchez
Birthday:	Sept 14
Birthplace:	Maricopa... well Arizona lol
Current Location:	Tonopah, Az
Eye Color:	Shitty brown, i hate them... but there easy to hide in and be unnoticed with... I find myself gazing into them and get lost with so many secrets within... it's scary sometimes.
Hair Color:	Redish brown
Height:	5'5 or... I don't know anymore... *studders*
Right Handed or Left Handed:	hmm, which one do I jack off to the most... lol jk I'm right handed!
Your Heritage:	O.o... I'm a a mutt, a mix breed! I'm latino so... yeah! lol
The Shoes You Wore Today:	converse, old school! I ROCK! lol
Your Weakness:	Caring to much... I'd sacrific myself for others anytime or day of the week!
Your Fears:	Nevering being loved and forgotten... well somewhere on the line of that... and lost more but those are screts... *whispers them to-self*
Your Perfect Pizza:	lol... red onions, cheese and pepperoni... I'm plain and boring! lol
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	Lose an abudance of weight!
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	L8ter
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Oh man... I'm alive, damn! lol jk, just... eh
Your Best Physical Feature:	lol I honestly don't know... my hair! lol I'll let others decide who meet me
Your Bedtime:	lol... LATE, but currently whenever I'm tired I sleep, so YAY!
Your Most Missed Memory:	hmm... this is a hard one, but I'd say... my friend Sam's face and hanging out with her, I miss that damn girl!
Pepsi or Coke:	lol since I... hmm... pepsi!
MacDonalds or Burger King:	LMFAO... since I worked at macdonalds once... lol I'd have to choose them! lol
Single or Group Dates:	single, cuz it's always me and me alone! lol but... NOT ANYMORE! ^^
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton Ice Tea ^^
Chocolate or Vanilla:	hmm... since you can add and put so many different flavors to vanilla... it's vanilla for me! lol
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappuccino lol... WHAT?!? hehe... ^^
Do you Smoke:	Nope, and I never will!
Do you Swear:	HELL YEAH, I do!
Do you Sing:	lol... trick question... Oi/Oy! YES, I love to sing!
Do you Shower Daily:	sometimes, it all depends on what I did that day to get all hot and sweaty! lol, but yeah, I do!
Have you Been in Love:	Yes
Do you want to go to College:	Yes
Do you want to get Married:	hmm... don't know yet!
Do you belive in yourself:	lol... sometimes, yet I tend to confuse meh self! lol
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Nope
Do you think you are Attractive:	lol... now that's funny! seriously what's the question now?!? I... ah.. don't know!
Are you a Health Freak:	lol... no, but I should be!
Do you get along with your Parents:	not really, but sometimes I do.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes, I love them!
Do you play an Instrument:	lol... yesh!
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Yes!
In the past month have you Smoked:	Nope!
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	Hell no!
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	lol... no!
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	lol Hell no, I'm a hermit crab, I stay in my room and tend to die there too! lol jk, but I haven't!
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	Nope!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	Mmm... that sounds pretty good, but sadly nope.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	lol... no!
In the past month have you been Dumped:	*sighs* Nope!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	lol... since I live in a desolent desert with no river or pond and so on... Hell NO! unless you call dirt skinning a new trend! lol jk
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	Nope! wait a min, wait a min... my brothers sweat pants... lol I couldn't help it, their comfy! lol ^^
Ever been Drunk:	Sadly no, I wanted to be... but nope!
Ever been called a Tease:	*giggles* Yes!
Ever been Beaten up:	Yes... many times!
Ever Shoplifted:	lol... yes!
How do you want to Die:	decapitated! *grabs katana and gives it to stranger* swing away fool! lol... I don't know how I wanna die, well as long as it's not by fire or some horrible dieases... I'm fine with anything else!
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	hmm... a PLAYBOY BUNNIE! LMFAO, HELL NO! I seriously haven't... a writer, journalist, artist, photographer... PI!
What country would you most like to Visit:	New zeland or Ireland!
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	hmm... grey or grey-ish blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Black
Short or Long Hair:	mid-lenth! ^^ I like pulling hair! lol
Height:	taller then me... so 5+ or 6
Weight:	hmm... 130, 140 , 150... I don't care really! but muscled would be nice! *drools* lol jk
Best Clothing Style:	lol, NONE! LMAO, jk! I'm not good at this so... as long as it's nice looking and what he likes to wear, I'm cool with it!
Number of Drugs I have taken:	hmm... what kind of question is this, damn! but as long as it wasn't any kind of horrible kind that you could get something from... and your still intacted with a brain, I'm ok with less then 10!
Number of CDs I own:	Limitless!
Number of Piercings:	Mmm... yeah, lets not go there! ^^ Cuz i'd be a brutal lover! lol
Number of Tattoos:	YES, YES, YES! I love tat's, completely!
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	LOADS! lol... ok some, cuz without having some adventure you never really become who you are! things and life molds and changes you, but you choose to weld the bad things within you!
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