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Birthday
• 1986-09-14
Gender
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Female
Location
• in myself in which no one there ever hurts me
Member Since
• 2006-05-26
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Real Name
• Jasie
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Achievements
• Surviving one day at a time.
Anime Fan Since
• The first time I ever seen one of Hayao Miyazaki's movies and other Studio Ghibli ones I fell inlove!!! I just started watching anime, movies and reading manga ever since then...
Favorite Anime
• NARUTO!!! ^^ Trinity Blood, Bleach, Gunslinger Girl, Elfen Lied, FMA, Howl's moving castle, witch hunter robin, Inuyasha, samurai 7, samurai champloo, Rurouni Kenshin, spirited away, vampire hunter D, princess Mononoke, blood: the last vampire, and many
Goals
• To Never change into something or someone I REALLY am not, to just be my self.
Hobbies
• hanging out by myself, chatting, writing stories, poems, and on occassions I read in my dark room with only a single lamp shining through it's darkness.
Talents
• playing several instruments, making people laugh, and hiding my true feeling from everyone around me with my "so called" MASK.
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Friday, January 18, 2008
hmm-- interesting yet very strange-- but it feels so damn good!
Strangely I feel like being really cruel and-- to put it in plain english, a fucking bitch! I don't know why I'm feeling like this, but I'm in a mood for violence and being yelled at and just-- i feel like another person and it feels-- it feels, GREAT! I feel alive and like I'm on a rush of some type of high. My nerves are all wacked out and I feel like running in the night and even if I'm tired or breathless, I feel like I wouldn't stop. Like if I talked to someone at this very moment, I'd totally demolish them emotionally with rage, anger, yelling and just, cussing the hell out of them. And the trippy thing is, I wouldn't feel one bit sorry or bad, at this moment, I could hit my best friend in the face and I would laugh. I feel free, alive. Yet I also want to cuss the hell out of two ppl I know, both guys. Just cuss the Frigging hell out of them till their ears are raw and bleeding. Crank call them at all hours of the night and laugh at them none stop with pure enjoyment. God-- this is so not me. I'd never do things like that, but I so desperately want to and need to it seems like. I feel like punching a brick wall over and over again just for the hell of it and laugh during so, like slapping myself and laughing and-- god. I'm so fucked up rght now with-- Hell it I know. It's just something I've never felt before and I'm loving it and every moment of it.
:Quote on quote, someone told me this: You seem colder, not like yourself... dead inside. Where's vanessa, the real nessie?
Have you ever been at this juncture, in your life?
Oh yeah-- my mom's heart stent surgery went well yesterday and she's now on bed rest for 3 days. That's been killing me with worry for the last couple of days, and not to mention her joking around that she'd die or some shit... Gah!!!
Today's my friend Darrel's 19th birthday! Happy birthday bud, sorry things are shitty.
L8ter ppl who actually come and read this shit I write... Hi, Hi, Bye!
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