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Birthday
• 1986-09-14
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Female
Location
• in myself in which no one there ever hurts me
Member Since
• 2006-05-26
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Real Name
• Jasie
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Achievements
• Surviving one day at a time.
Anime Fan Since
• The first time I ever seen one of Hayao Miyazaki's movies and other Studio Ghibli ones I fell inlove!!! I just started watching anime, movies and reading manga ever since then...
Favorite Anime
• NARUTO!!! ^^ Trinity Blood, Bleach, Gunslinger Girl, Elfen Lied, FMA, Howl's moving castle, witch hunter robin, Inuyasha, samurai 7, samurai champloo, Rurouni Kenshin, spirited away, vampire hunter D, princess Mononoke, blood: the last vampire, and many
Goals
• To Never change into something or someone I REALLY am not, to just be my self.
Hobbies
• hanging out by myself, chatting, writing stories, poems, and on occassions I read in my dark room with only a single lamp shining through it's darkness.
Talents
• playing several instruments, making people laugh, and hiding my true feeling from everyone around me with my "so called" MASK.
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Tuesday, May 30, 2006
Sorrow and the feeling of lonelyness!!!
I don't know why I feel this way! and on occassions I sort of like it, feeling empty inside, lonely, depressed, whatever you want to call it, wallowing in self-pity, but really all I want is to be lone and figure or maybe not on hoe to fix this or keep it!!! but ppl who at like friends comeout of no where and all I'm hoping is that they don't hurt me in the end or back stabs me and leave me wondering, WHAT HAPPENED! or how did it happen, what went wrong! then you get the ppl who just LOVE making ppl miserable, hurt, sad, and feel like crying! I've seen the pain and felt the pain of others in different ways and other similar situations BUT in the end I'm always the one in pain sooner or later you always feel the pain and in always comes back no matter what!!! well I have sooooooo many pains and heartbreaks that I feel like an empty vessel of hollowness and only pain which in time comforts the pain and me... I'm alone NOW and ppl i once new have gone but in a way they will come back, MAYBE! or at least I'm hoping they will!!! the pains an escape goat and it fills me with hate, sadness, tears, anger, and sometimes something else, something i'm afriad to feel! and it's not love, well maybe somewhere in me does fear that but this feeling isn't that!!! and it tares me apart inside and out until I feel numb and isolated from everyone and I'm back in my dark, empty, two way mirror wall-box. but I'm the only one who can see through it, and I see memories that will never go away for me, that will always haunt me, their my nightmares within me, that'll forever stay inside me always tormenting me!!!
I gotta go, I hope i didn't confuse you in anyway! L8ter, and maybe I'll see you around, MAYBE!!!!!!
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