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Birthday
• 1986-09-14
Gender
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Female
Location
• in myself in which no one there ever hurts me
Member Since
• 2006-05-26
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Real Name
• Jasie
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Achievements
• Surviving one day at a time.
Anime Fan Since
• The first time I ever seen one of Hayao Miyazaki's movies and other Studio Ghibli ones I fell inlove!!! I just started watching anime, movies and reading manga ever since then...
Favorite Anime
• NARUTO!!! ^^ Trinity Blood, Bleach, Gunslinger Girl, Elfen Lied, FMA, Howl's moving castle, witch hunter robin, Inuyasha, samurai 7, samurai champloo, Rurouni Kenshin, spirited away, vampire hunter D, princess Mononoke, blood: the last vampire, and many
Goals
• To Never change into something or someone I REALLY am not, to just be my self.
Hobbies
• hanging out by myself, chatting, writing stories, poems, and on occassions I read in my dark room with only a single lamp shining through it's darkness.
Talents
• playing several instruments, making people laugh, and hiding my true feeling from everyone around me with my "so called" MASK.
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006
a feeling that comes and goes when it so choose's to harm me..........
Hey guys!!! i feel kinda bad today and like the heavy piece of my past/otherside of me has returned!!! I'm just not good company right now!!! at the moment.... well I THANK YOU ALL, SOOOOOOOOooooooo much for commenting and being here for me when other would not!!! you have no idea how mush you guys mean to me!!! I'm lost though and sadden but grief and problems of my past and emotions that I haven't been able to write my story!!! and I'm SOOOOOOOOooooo sorry for that!!!I don't know what's come over me!!!!!! like I'm someone else and I hate myself and want to be in the dark alone away from everyone else!!! seeing through eyes clouded by hate, sorrow, pain, memories, things that won't JUST go away!!! bad times and sad times!!! I hate it all and that you guys can't really help me!!! I have to face it on my own someone once said to me!!! but I can't and I can't have people fighting it for me either!!!
How can you fight something that you are and what's inside you something that hides inside you and strikes with anger and hate a monster that you can't even see but feel and know that it's always their, their to harm you, their to hurt you, and their to strike fear into you a monster within you that you might be one day and might strike the pains you feel into others... others you love deeply and can't hurt EVER, EVER, EVER Never in your life!!! b/c you love them TOOOOOoooooooooo mush to see or make them feel as you do
I feel that way and fear I'll be that way someday!!! alone with only hate of the past and fear in me to make my cause pain to others!!! and that's mainly why I drive friends and others away from me!!! b/c I COULD, hurt them...
I g2g go right now!!! shit....
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