Friday, December 22, 2006

   Hisa Hiei Kurayami, Nami at Ami...
It means: long lasting flying darkness, waves at friend!!!

Time: 8 or 9am
listening to: trapt-someone in control
mood: sad and gloomy just like nature is right over here!!! it's raining, and I feel like doning the same...


well last night I stayed up drawing a comic for a contest that cant escapes will judge on her site!!! I kinda just did if for fun too... I stayed up till 3am and got introuble by my so called dad... then I woke up around 6 or 7 to help my mom and sis get ready to go to town... and now I'm all alone yet again... on a stormy, rainy, cloudy, beautiful day!!! I just LOVE!!! this kind's of days!!! :)'s
well I told you I would post my story today and here it is!!! the second chapter!!! I hope you like and sorry about the longness of it!!! enjoy!!! and don't judge to harshly!!!




As night faded and the orange blood stained moon fell below the tree's and the beautiful green mountains... I gazed out there and wondered if what all happened was all a dream or reality... I still couldn't believe it, what had all happened, the scenario of tonight kept replaying in her mind... the blood and the cold stiff body lying dead on the ground... her running with that strange man... and the mysterious stranger that helped her flee and hind from the... well lets just call them wolf people... she tried to push all that had happened and any other non-scene of things that happened tonight out of her mind...the wind still blew and the temperatures were dropping...
Her I'm freezing!!! [rubs shoulders with her hands and then rubs hands together while blowing her warm hot breath on them]
Her Why is it so cold?!?
Her mind ached and she was having a terrible head ache!!! images kept flashing in her mind but she didn't know who they were or what it meant... people screaming, calling for help... yelling for someone to help them and for loved ones to run... fire and flames in golfed houses and burned people alive... the cries and screams they gave off where to much to bear, overbearing and THEY JUST WOULDN'T STOP...
she put her hands on her head and tried to push the screams, cries, and images away while rocking back and forth...
Owen- Are you Okay?!? what's wrong?!?
she froze and slowly dropped her hands and looked at him... his eyes were caring and filled with mystery and wonder... along with a sadness far off in them...
Owen- did you hear me?!?
she snapped out of it and shook her head a bit...
Her- I'm fine... I'm just not feeling quite well that's all...
he looked at her suspicious and wondered what she was hiding...
Owen- Are you sure?!?
Her- Yeah, I'm fine... don't worry about me... I'm just feeling under the weather right now... not to mention I'm freezing cold...
she looked away... away from his eyes... that were pleading for answers and filling with doubt and worry...
Owen- well let me get you down from their and we'll can get going... By the way what's your name?!?
Her- aren't you going to tell me yours first!!!
Owen- Oh, I get it... trust issues... alright, I suppose I can go first...
he looks at her more suspiciously... and wonders why she asked him to go first... He paused for a moment before saying his name...
Owen-... just call me Owen... [he reaches out his hand when he says it]
she looks down at it and then back at him...
Her- ...... [she opens her mouth to say her name and... she can't even remember ever having a name]
the look on her face gave Owen doubt and he wondered why she was stalling in giving him her name... like as if she didn't quite or wasn't sure it was alright in giving him it ... then Owen looks at her once more and then remembers what Aaron said...We heard their were two lost humans in the forest and stared tracking them and then we found out it was a female and an older male... but we had smelled a faint scent of blood... we just assumed it was her that was injured and we thought it might be coming from her... and that she was injured in some type of way and... he looked back at her and she was confused and concentrating really hard...
Owen- You don't remember do you?!?
Her- What's wrong with me?!? I have a name... everyone does!!! why can't I JUST, remember it?!?
Owen- What do you remember last?!? I mean what's the last thing you remember?!?
Her- Running in the woods with some guy and then meeting you...
Owen- Thats it?!? are you sure!!!
Her- Yeah... I've been thinking, wondering, remembering and asking myself if what just happened was real and I keep having these images pop into my head!!!
Owen- Images of what?!?
Her- It doesn't matter and I don't really trust you at the moment... SORRY, but It's the truth!!!
their was a look of disappointment in his eyes and then he stretched out his hands to grab her to help her down...
Owen- Come on... we have to move... find a place to stay out of reach and smelling distance of...
He looked at her... her eyes gave off an Ora of mixed intentions and meanings... and caution as to WHAT. he was implying to...
Owen- I'm NOT, going to hurt you... I promise!!! you can trust me!!!
Her- I trust you... I'm just sort of suspicious of your motives and I'm cautious of how you think...
Owen- What are you implying here?!?
Her- I'm saying I'm here alone and a woma...
Owen- I would NEVER... never take advantage of a woman!!!
His eyes flared up with anger and disappointment of her accusing him of something despicable like that... he looked away and dropped his hands suddenly... he faced her but his head was dropped and he faced the ground...
Her- ...I...I...
Her- I'm sorry... I didn't mean to...
Owen- You made yourself perfectly clear that I'm like them... savages with only one thing in mind... to take a woman to ravage, have fun with, and then dispose of her when I'm done...
Her- I... I...
Owen- You what!!! your sorry and didn't mean for it to come out that way!!! what!!! tell me!!!
Her- What am I suppose to think OWEN... after what all happened and you wanting to help me... I don't get it!!! WHY, why would you do something stupid and dangerous in simply helping me!!! I'm not even your kind!!! WHY?!? Tell me...
Her- What do you see in me that's worth saving and risking yourself to help!!! I'm a nobody who can't even remember her own name!!! I'm not worth the aggravation and risk in helping!!! Just leave me be and go on your own way!!! I'm nothing to you but a killing machine that kills your kind!!! so leave me and go!!! GO!!!!!!!!
He looked at her... he just looked at her and wondered why she felt that way and no matter what she said he couldn't, he wouldn't just leave her...
Owen- Why do you say such things like that?!? you matter, your alive and living aren't you?!? and never mind that I might be risking something!!! it's mine to risk not yours!!! so if I want to risk it all in saving you then you better try your ASS off in making sure you survive this ordeal!!!
he's eyes glowed as he yelled at her and they were beautiful!!! she was staring at them the whole time... A beautiful lavender-purple with a hint of dark green in them...
she looked away and bam like if a rock hit her in the head... A memory came to her in a loving womans voice and of a small young girl... [Sweetie, why are you crying?!? you risk so much for me momma and you never let that stop or prevent that reason from stopping you... Why momma, what makes me so important to risk you life in making sure we have food, clothes, and a roof over are heads!!! it's not worth it momma!!! I'm not worth it!!! Hush, hush now sweetie... you know it's only you and me now sweet heart and we have to make it through and survive!!! For your papa and little brother's sake!!! But why, momma?!? They risked their lives too... and there dead now, because of us, because we couldn't save them and live a normal life without hardship and labor!!! It's not fare... *sobs and weeps* It's not fare... I know sweet heart but we owe it to both of them to try and make it throughout the tough times... there'll always be hardship for us sweet heart but we have to look at it as a blessing that hope and salvation will soon be on it's way to us!!! you'll see sweetie, you'll see!!! *the voices drift away from her*] Tears swiftly fall from her eyes and cheek as they land on Owen's outstretched hand... she places her hands over her eyes and weep for them... the mother and the young girl sitting alone in a alleyway full of rotten food and broken shattered glass on the ground beside them... their only shelter from the rain above them was a huge wooden box that they barely fitted in...
she didn't hear Owen climb up the tree and sit next to her... he slowly pulled her hands away from her hidden face and began wiping the tears away...
Owen- I'm sorry!!! I didn't mean to make you cry...
he noticed her eyes, the color of them... and just stared at them... they were a blue-ish green with gray in the outlining of them... he looked in the depth of them trying to look for answers but found only pain and sadness within them... she looked away and closed her eyes shut...
Owen- Why are you hiding from me?!? both your eyes and your emotions?!? YOU?!?
Her- Because their mine to hold... my burden and pain to keep!!!
He slowly began turning her face towards his...
Owen- Their NOT meant to hurt you... and cause so much pain, anguish, and sorrow to you!!!
Her- How do you know?!? how do you know that their not suppose to cause that?!? huh?!? You don't even know how or what I feel!!! you just sense pain and sorrow... and you think you can wipe it away!!! You don't feel it, my pain... it'll still be their no matter who many tears you wipe away!!! it'll never leave me or go away... It's my burden and feeling to bare... and I'll face it with open arms if and when I have to!!!
she stared to climb down and he stopped her by grabbing her arm!!!
Owen- Do you think it'll go away!!! do you honestly think you can fight and believe the pain will fade!!!
Her- Why do you care?!?
Owen- It won't... I know!!! the pain... it'll eat at you and eat at you till you want to escape that feeling and run or end it... end it by taking that last and final plunge and when your at the end of your rope...
Her- What are you saying?!?
Owen- Killing yourself... commit suicide as a last act of trying to escape the pain...
she pried her arm free and got down...she turned her back to him and that's when he saw the blood... he froze inside and rushed down in a jump to see the gash on the back of her head...
Her- OUCH!!! what are you doing?!?
Owen- Your bleeding and I'm checking out the wound to see if it'll need stitches or just a bandage on it!!!
Her- What wound?!?
he touched her gash and images and memories rushed into her mind... it was to much for her to take and she fell to her knees applying pressure to her forehead with her hand... all the while her head pulsed and throbbed made her move her head side to side and back and forth... she grabbed the earth with the other hand...
Owen- What's wrong?!? what's the matter?!?
the only answer or sound he got from her was inhaling and exhaling heavily with sharp and quick breathing... along with moaning and grunts from occasions...
she reached out with her other hand and he grabbed it...
Owen- Talk to me!!! say something!!! COME ON...
Her- No mommy, no... their coming!!! I'll distract them... don't leave me!!!
she started weeping... and calling out for her mother... Owen without thinking knelled beside her grabbed her and held her in his arms calling out to her to come back... she started shaking rapidly and violently... like someone was shaking her and scaring her half to death... he shook her and tried his best to get her back, but she just kept on talking to herself, shaking, and grabbing at her head as if something was eating the insides of it and she couldn't get it out... he didn't want to do this but he slapped her... twice in the face and everything stopped... the shaking, talking, and the weeping sounds... her hand slowly fell to her side but her eyes reminded closed... tears rapidly fell from her eyes and cheek... they fell to the ground with a thump... he knelled their in shock and stared at her... she got up, her eyes still closed and walked a few spaces and screamed!!!
Her- WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she fell once more to the ground but got in the fetal position and cried... she held herself and cried!!!
Owen got up picked her up and carried her away!!! she still held, her eyes shut and her face stung from where he had hit her twice... he didn't touch her other then carrying her... she cradled herself into his arms and chest while she weeped on his shirt... she brushed her face against his t-shirt then opened her eyes and said two word to him before she drifted asleep...
Her- Thank you...
he looked down upon her face with tear strikes on her cheek and felt a pull at his heart... he had smacked her, yelled at her and her reply was thank you!!! and she now finally trusted him, felt safe with him and took comfort from him... and he wanted to wipe all her tears away and shield her from every pain and feeling she would ever feel again... Owen then realized as he gazed at her... he was falling in love with her and he looked away... and he hated himself for that, but he knew in his heart that he couldn't love her and give her a life of love... he was a lone wolf who could never love and be loved for what he truly was and is inside... a monster awakened by the call of the moon... a man shadowed inside and loved only by the light of the forsaken moon......... and he too, would be forsaken... to all who came across him and ever known him...

end of chapter 2
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