Friday, March 5, 2004

Sometimes, I hate my 'friends.' One in particular has been annoying me lately. I know that I shouldn't just talk about it here; I'm well aware that I should say it to her.

What's worse: Someone that's pretending to be your friend because they're afraid of the guilt and regrets, or someone that tells you to your face that they dislike you?

I'm afraid of her hurting herself if I do something. She has threatened to hurt herself several times. Once she told me that she had gotten very upset about something an ex-boyfriend had said, so she was going to kill herself. Then, she said that she just thought of what I would have told her, and she changed her mind. She said she imagined me telling her that he was stupid, and that I shouldn't let something like that ruin her. I don't need that sort of responsibility.

Another time, she got upset at her mother and wanted to make her angry, so she sat in her room with a knife poised over her wrist waiting for her mother to find her. I don't think that her mother needed that either.

I don't think that she likes to look outside of herself to see the big picture. In my opinion, she is a complete narcissist. She thinks only of herself and her problems; she doesn't seem to care about anyone else, except for when it would benefit her.

Having a friend like this girl is comfusing, at the least. I just want some advice from someone, but no one tells me what I need to hear.

I've barely started living and I'm already unsatisfied with life.
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Tuesday, February 24, 2004

I've had an awful week so far, and it's only Tuesday! I lost a really good friend's book, and am having trouble in math.

Has anyone else just gotten fed up with everyone around them? Most of my friends are driving me crazy! Now, I've found that I can only stand a few people. I'm just afraid to say anything for fear of making anyone feel bad. I'm pathetic, right? I don't think that I'm the only one that's had this problem..at least I hope not. Finding yourself in a situation that seems to have no correct answer is usually terrifying. It is for me, anyway.

I've heard it said many times that real friends are hard to come by. If that is so, why do we try to convince ourselves that everyone we meet has the potential to become our best friend? When I meet someone on the street, even if I've seen them before, I'm not going to stop and ask them about themselves! Other people are none of my business. I should just worry about myself and forget the rest of them.

I want to escape. Sometimes in the middle of a class, I feel like standing up and walking out the door. I never do because I am afraid of the consequences. For once, I want to act spontaneously. I want to act on the spur of the moment, and not think about what might happen, or whom I may offend.

Night, everybody.
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Wednesday, February 18, 2004

	Hello, all! How are ya'll doin'?? I'm so bored.... I haven't done anything in forever! Getting up and going to school in the morning gets annoying, doesn't it? Grrr....What I wouldn't give to sleep in on a Monday... -_-' For a final note... I HATE PRE-ALGEBRA, AND IT HATES ME!!!!!!

(Copyright 2003 Neopets, Inc. All Rights Reserved. Used with Permission.)

I don't own this. It belongs to Neopets.com. Go to that AWESOME site for one of these really cool....what-cha-ma-callits...
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Wednesday, January 21, 2004

   Hallo!!!

Here's a poem I wrote on August 8, 2003. I just recently found it! I'm so glad that i put a date on almost everything!!

I lay back in the blood stained grass,
Watching the marching soldiers pass.
You can shout and rant and scream,
Or wake up to find your life is just a dream.

But like all others,
This dream must end,
And when it does,
Can you live again?

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Saturday, January 17, 2004

   Your Text Here


Hallo! Here is a little stupid thing a friend of mine did on the Yahoo! IM.
Don't worry, it's not THAT hard to follow, I hope. It's a little story-type-thing. We really don't write our serious stories like this...so.....
M= ME
H=Her

ME: The night began as...
HER: slow and boring as ever.
M:I was just getting ready for bed, when suddenly...
H:I noticed something odd on the computer screen!
M: It was...a new e-mail from my bestest friend in the whole world...
H: Kami-chan!! I quickly sat down and read it, since she hadn't written me in a looonnggg time. It said:

Dear Hotaru,
Something is very wrong here!

M: (Speaking aloud.) What is wrong, oh bestest friend of mine?

H: (e-mail again)

Everything seemse to have been turned upside down! No one at school is talking to me! Not even Usagi, and she'll talk to anyone! What's going on? Is it me?!?!?!?

Please help!!!!!!
Kami-chan

M: Oh my! What on earth could have happened? I dashed to the phone, and

H: Hurriedly dialed her number. When she answered on the other end, I quickly said that it was me. She burst into tears. "Oh, Hotaru! Ya've gotta help me! I'm in real trouble here!" (Yes, we talk like this. We are hicks and proud of it.)

M: I spoke with wisdom and grace, and calmly said, "Huh?"

H: "Whenever I try to say hello or anything to anybody, they turn away from me! It seems like they're giving me the silent treatment, but even the teacher's are ignorin' me! What'll I do? I can't even turn in math homework! It seems good and all that, and yeah, I admit it's kinda cool not havin' ta do homework and all, but I'm failin' here! They give me a zero on tha things they won't accept!"

M: Suddenly, Hotaru lit upon an idea! "I know what the problem is! It's your awful, awful bad breath! You reek like a wet dog!"

H: "Hotaru! This is no time to be funny! I'm bein' serious, chick! And I tried the bad breath thing already! It ain't that!"

M: "Well...maybe they're put off by your bad sense of fashion? You look like one of those homeless people that sleep on street corners!"

H: "Hota, they don't know about that! I wear a uniform for chrissakes! Be serious!I honestly need your help! I know you're trying to lighten tha mood, but this has been goin' on for three and a half weeks!! If I don't get my homework turned in soon, I'm gonna fail!!!!!!!!!"

M: "I don't know what it is...but I don't feel like talking to you either." Hotaru calmly solved her problem by hanging up the phone, and prancing off to bed. Her dreams were full of Orlando Bloom, Trowa Barton, and Schuldich. She is a very twisted person.


THE END!

Wasn't that fun???
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Sunday, January 11, 2004

Hallo!
I just wanted to give everyone a little taste of the fanfiction I write. (I TRY to keep my characters as like themselves as possible, but sometimes....)Honestly, before you get upset after reading this story, I really do like Usagi, but this story is for fun!

(I don't own the characters represented here.)

Here's a Sailor Moon/Weiss Kreuz Crossover inspired by Lewis Carroll's "Alice in Wonderland."

USA-CHAN IN BISHOUNEN LAND!

**Ring, Ring, Ring!!*

"Huh....?"

Yes, before anything else is said, this is our alert, always on guard super-heroine. We are all very proud of her alertness.

**Thump**

Never mind what I just said.

~_~__~__~_~_~_~

Usagi Tsukino frowned up at her clock after she fell out of her pink, rabbit-infested bed. If that stupid piece of plastic would just shut up, she might be able to concentrate. So, she told said piece of plastic exactly what it should do.

"SHUT UP!!"

Having sufficiently made everyone in a five mile radius loose their hearing, Usagi stood with a ridiculously cheerful grin.

"You won't do that again, now will you?"

The alarm clock sat quietly by her bedside, the red numbers glowing innocently.

"That's what I thought."

Then Usagi noticed what the red numbers were, as they now gleamed sinisterly.

"I'm SOOO LATEEE!!!! Stupid alarm! Why didn't you get me up earlier?!?!?" Usagi hurriedly began to pull on her school's uniform, a blue and white sailor fuku. She yanked on her shoes, completely forgetting to grab a pair of socks, and dashed out the door. Thankfully, she had somehow managed to grab her backpack before she dashed off down the road.

She had gotten fairly close to the school (actually, it was the exact corner that she always bumped into Mamoru on), when a pale white SOMETHING caught her eye. She skidded to a halt, her curiousity taking over.

"What's this...?" She leaned down to see, and a miniscule boy who appeared to have white rabbit ears ran into her leg.

"Excuse me! I'm late, I have to go!" The white-rabbit-ears boy dashed around her, and, to her surprise, disappeared into a rabbit hole that had appeard in the sidewalk. Usagi completely forgot about being late herself and jumped in after the tiny boy. (Her curiousity really is stunning, don't you think?) The tiny rabbit hole widened to fit her, and she fell into a pure white tunnel. She flew downwards, and her freefall felt like it would never end.

"Oomph!" Usagi landed ever so gracefully on her behind.

"Owies! That hurt!" She sniffled pathetically, waiting for someone to pity her.

"What are you doing here? Wait! Never mind! I'm late!!" The white-rabbit-ears boys looked much taller than before as he flitted around what Usagi assumed was his home. It was white, but the edges were tinted gray, and the darker color was seeping further into the untouched white even while she watched it.
White-rabbit-ears dashed out of a regular sized door and out of sight.

"Wait! What are you late for?!?!?!" Usagi stood quickly, easily forgetting her sore behind. "Please wait! I want to know what you're late for!" She ran out the door and followed the rabbit boy's footprints, a trail which she soon lost.

~_~_~_~_~

Presently she came upon a giant mushroom. She looked all around it, hoping to find some sign of the rabbit boy. She found nothing, and decided to look at the top of the mushroom. (She knew that the rabbit boy probably hadn't been there, but it certainly wouldn't hurt to look.)

She climed to the top without any trouble at all, and saw a brown haired man calmly smoking a cigarette. He looked at her with jade green eyes, seemingly undisturbed by her presence.

"And just WHO might you be, Tenshi?" He spoke lazily, even though he was watching her warily.

"Who are YOU? And don't call me Tenshi." Usagi huffed and crossed her arms.

"Why should I tell you, Tenshi?"

"My name is USAGI, not Tenshi." Usagi pouted like a child denied her favourite sweet.

"Good for you, Tenshi." The brown haired man lanquidly lifted the cigarette again.

Usagi refused to speak; she decided to leave, and find the white rabbit boy.

"I know what you want to find, Tenshi. You shouldn't leave so soon."

"You know where the white rabbit boy is?" Usagi turned to stare at him with eager eyes.

"I don't think he likes to be called that; his name is Omi."

"I've got to find him! O please, tell me where he is!"

"WHY?" He lit another cigarette, and leaned forward.

"Because I want to know why he was in a hurry!"

"That's none of your business, Tenshi."

"Fine! Good day." Usagi didn't stop this time; she walked away from the brown haired man without glancing back.



Gee, wasn't that fun? I'm sorry if there are any spelling/grammar mistakes. I'm tired, and I really should be studying...

I'm actually just wasting time... -_-;;; I have my semester test in History in the morning. How fun. Can you all feel the joy?!?!?!?







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I'm a band junkie, and proud of it!!!
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Saturday, December 20, 2003

   It's about midnight, so I'm kinda tired, but I don't feel like sleeping. **sweatdrop** This one's my favourite as of now. Heheheheheh.... I think this one's cool, too...

Now I'm bored. I have semester tests in all of my classes in about two weeks. **cries** I have to study!!!!
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Friday, November 7, 2003

   More quizzes!

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Quizzes!
I got all of these on various personality quizzes! ^_^






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