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Birthday
• 1990-02-15
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Female
Location
• Smalltown, USA
Member Since
• 2003-08-01
Occupation
• student
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Achievements
• First chair clarinet for two years in a row
Anime Fan Since
• uhh.....
Favorite Anime
• Cowboy Bebop
Goals
• To get away from my hometown. (I've only crossed the state line ONCE)
Hobbies
• reading, writing, playing the piano, organ, and clarinet
Talents
• uhmm....i can read upside down....
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Friday, March 5, 2004
Sometimes, I hate my 'friends.' One in particular has been annoying me lately. I know that I shouldn't just talk about it here; I'm well aware that I should say it to her.
What's worse: Someone that's pretending to be your friend because they're afraid of the guilt and regrets, or someone that tells you to your face that they dislike you?
I'm afraid of her hurting herself if I do something. She has threatened to hurt herself several times. Once she told me that she had gotten very upset about something an ex-boyfriend had said, so she was going to kill herself. Then, she said that she just thought of what I would have told her, and she changed her mind. She said she imagined me telling her that he was stupid, and that I shouldn't let something like that ruin her. I don't need that sort of responsibility.
Another time, she got upset at her mother and wanted to make her angry, so she sat in her room with a knife poised over her wrist waiting for her mother to find her. I don't think that her mother needed that either.
I don't think that she likes to look outside of herself to see the big picture. In my opinion, she is a complete narcissist. She thinks only of herself and her problems; she doesn't seem to care about anyone else, except for when it would benefit her.
Having a friend like this girl is comfusing, at the least. I just want some advice from someone, but no one tells me what I need to hear.
I've barely started living and I'm already unsatisfied with life.
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