Thursday, February 24, 2005

To remember something that makes your heart whole again...
This was a song i remember i had to dance for a quince for a girl that i use to know way past years ago... I truly enjoyed that quince. It brings back so many memories. The jokes, the laughter, the many conversations we had, alcohol (I almost got wasted X_X), and my 1st crush. But i can't tell you whom though. *laughs* All i can say is that she was a person that words could not describe at all. =3 I wish i could contact them all though. I bet we would all have a great time again. =D

I wonder if i remember the waltz of it...*tries to dance it* I wish i could show you how i danced there. Believe me i can really dance. I just don't usually want to. *laughs*

Anywho, hopefully i will link the song here so you can all listen to it. =3 This song describes the never ending passion of love throughout time. It's strange, but i bet you ladies think of it as romantic. =D

Anywho here are the lyrics. It is orginally in Spanish, but there is an English version of it. Enjoy.


TIEMPO DE VALS

Tiempo de vals es el tiempo hacia atras
donde hascer lo de siempre es volver a empezar
donde el mundo se para y te observa girar
es tiempo para amar

Tiempo de vals tiempo pare sentir
y decir sin hablar y escuchar sin oir
un silencio que rompe en el aire un violin
es tiempo de vivir

Besame en tiempo de vals
un dos tres un dos tres
sin parar de bailar
haz que este tiempo de vals
un dos tres un dos tres
no termine jamas

Tiempo de vals tiempo para viajar
por encima del sol por debajo del mar
sin saber si te llevo o me dejo llevar
no es tiempo de verdad

Tiempo de vals tiempo para abrazar
la pasion que prefieres y hacerla girar
y elevarse violenta como un huracan
es tiempo en espiral
Besame en tiempo de vals

Tiempo de vals que empleamos los dos
dibujando en el suelo de un viejo salon
con tres pasos de baile una historia de amor
es tiempo y es en fin
mi tiempo para ti.


TIME OF WALTZ

Time of waltz is the time backwards
Where the performance is always to return to begin
Where you watch the world spin
It is time to love

Time of waltz time to feel
And to say without speaking and listen without hearing
A silence that breaks in the air a violin
It is time to live

Kiss me in time of waltz
One two three one two three
Without stopping to dance
Face this time of waltz
One two three one two three
It never finishes

Time of waltz time to travel
Over the sun below the sea
Without knowing if I take you or let myself be taken
It is really not time

Time of waltz time to embrace
The passion that you prefer and to rotate
And to rise like a violent hurricane
It is time to spiral
Kiss me in time of waltz

Time of waltz that we both used
Drawing in the ground of an old hall
With three passages of dance a history of love
It is time and it is in end
My time for you
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

XP
;_; Man some ppl at school seem to be on there "dark side". I have noticed that alot. With the usage of (insert the things that can ruin a teenagers life here) and everyone's bad attitude for some ppl at school as well.... It kind of makes me worry. Because i realized alot and more at school. I am now worried about those i care about, since i now have to worry about what will happen to them as well as myself. Bummer...

Well i guess i will just move on and do some fun things for the next 2 months of my High School year that i have left until we all say goodbye for our Senior year. Though i know only this: I am NOT in the mood for any MAMA DRAMA or anything that will risk my own life. I just hope for the best for those that choose that way. Anywho, i will find my own ways of fun and excitement than rather going to the "dark side". -_-

Note: Well for those that refuse to listen to my own and other ppl's advice then they can live with that eternal doubt of what the "what if's" concept, other than that i could care less.

Anyways, i am looking forward to a good and prosperous year for me. (Hopefully i will get my gift for my B-day Vankala) =3

Vankala = <3

I gtg, adios everyone.
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Today is break day!! ^_^
Ahhh! I feel alot better today. The reason why is because we have nothing much to do anymore for our 5-6th period class, so instead we were watching Aladdin (Man, i haven't seen that movie in years) Hopefully after school i will get some rest for tomorrow. o_-

*Feels sad* Oh, Friday is the last day that we all see each other again for our 5th and 6th period. ;_; I am going to miss everyone badly.

Well i gtg, adieu everyone.
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It's time for a change in pace or should i say.... siggy? =3
I was getting tired of my old FMA avvy, so i decided to bring in some of my hip, new sig.'s. (Which are now 100% shexy) *laughs*

Anywho, i am totally bored today, there was nothing much TO do on my 4 day weekend. It was TRULY BORING!! I really want to do something or go somewhere today. *whines and mopes* Oh guess what?! I got to drive in my neighborhood!! I now love driving!! Driving = <3. It is truly fun to drive, especially when you have alot of property and land that you drive around in without anyone yelling at you. (Since there are only a little bit of houses in my street) Hopefully i will get to drive some more tomorrow. Anywho, I gtg. Hopefully you all will like my new sig.
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Naruto + Licensed in the U.S. = NOOOOOOOOO!!!!
Look here if you think i am crazy.
http://www.animenewsnetwork.com/pressrelease.php?id=851

Now everyone sob with me. *tear*
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Monday, February 14, 2005

My pain... (All My Otaku ppl here please read)
:I lived my life in vain, and that for me is the most painful thing in my life...:

I feel so.....so hurt. Valentine's Day...a day that will always hurt me...

Everyone wants to feel that same emotion, that desire to hold someone close and say "I love you". But it hurts you the most when that person is not there....only just a blank space in your life that you may never have. That is the ultimate pain of them all... And i felt that pain. It eats you alive. *sighs* I then realized something... I feel like i lived my life in vain.

:Mixed Emotions:

I see everyone and i see all these things that i was so idiotic to ignore. I feel worse when it comes to what i did here at Townview. I feel like a moron because of what i could not do earlier in my life, i feel so moronic to ignore and be misunderstanding of my own faults. Do you all know how that feels? .........Painful.........Like as if you want to just go back in time and fix all the wrong and make it all right, but you can't. I want to change for myself physically and mentally and i couldn't even do that. I COULDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING AT ALL!! DO YOU ALL KNOW WHAT KIND OF HATE I FEEL FOR ALL THIS!!!!??? The hate that makes you want to throw everything around and hit the wall repeatedly. The hate that hurts your heart and makes you want to cry endless amounts of tears. I really want to cry just once, i don't care where and what, i just want to..... But i can't even do that.

I wish i could walk up to those i hurt and say i am sorry and i care for them as well, i want to yell at those that i have hate for, i want to run away from this place and everyone....i want forgiveness for my own foolishness and ignorance.

I want a better future for myself...but i may not have what i want. Everyone else will, i will only stay here to wither and suffer of my own madness that i created myself. I want to be stronger...but i can't even walk without someone or something pushing me back from what i want. I want to have my own happiness...but sadness is the only haven for me. I want my own chapter in history, but that chapter was already torn away. I want freedom, but all i have is losses of it. I want to enjoy life...but i can't even do anything at all in this hell hole. I want love...but i always leave it be. I want to try harder...but even if i do, it is not good enough.

What is wrong with me? Why am i like this? Why can't i fix these wounds of the past and move on? Why does this bother me so? What can i do to heal what is occuring now?

Life is so unfair...

It feels like no one can hear you at all. You try to speak to someone, but they won't hear you at all. You try to show your view of things and it all gets demolished by another's.

My question is... What can I do now?

Please My Otaku ppl here. What is your advise here. I would love for some people here to express your own feelings for what i am experiencing at this time. Because silence is worse than hurting someone...

Here is a pic of me in photoshop.

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Monday, January 31, 2005

When you realize that i am here...i am then gone
Hey ya everyone, it me again. I am doing the usual, waiting for time to pass by. Though the funny part is that i am almost graduating. I feel odd though, like as if i still feel like i am a freshman in HS, you know? But although i feel that way about it, i will miss alot of the ppl i care about the most. *looks around*

Well gtg, adios.
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Tired....bored...bored of existence
I am tired today. I joined the Drama Club this year. It seems fun, but as usual it will later on be only "work" by emotional force. *lol* *sighs* Bummer...

Anyways, i'm wondering what the hell is up with the image gallery here? I am truly worried about what the heck is going on. Since i truly want all of you to see my art. ;_; *tear*

Hypnosis: The cure for boredom? *ponders*

I always wondered if it really does work... I really would like to be hypnotized to see if it really works. XP Because i am that kind of guy that needs to see it or do it to believe it. You know? =3

Anyways, i gtg, adios.
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Monday, January 17, 2005

My nerd quiz results


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I just don't feel right today...
Being in the same old place...wondering...what when wrong? What happened? Why?...All of this confusion surrounds my head as i ask myself these questions...

I guess i just choose so many wrong turns...So many awkward paths in my life...And now i just don't feel like being here anymore...I just don't feel like sitting in this chair. This place of years past that i can recall were good times just doesn't feel right anymore... Maybe i am just confused.... I will continue wondering it while i sleep, and that will be a very interrupted night for me...
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