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Sunday, December 19, 2004
Something i do not desire...
*Listening to the song Brother from FMA*
I feel so unhappy...ever since last year, in this very week, of this very month is the day i will never forget....the saddest part was that it was on Christmas time, the 25th of December. Because of it i feel different, i don't feel happiness in the same way, i don't feel eagerness the same way as well. All i feel is sadness, depression, and hatred. I hide it so much from others that no one can see it, and i truly feel alone because of it...
Because of it i neglected alot of people: friends and relatives. I would truly like to say "I'm sorry to everyone" i ignored and yelled at. I would really like to go back in time to just fix it all and repair all the damage i have done...but sadly, i cannot. Now, i only have little of friends to even trust, since the world has been unfaithful of my own existence toward whom to trust in the world.
Now, this year seems to get worse... Our grandfather is now losing his conflict with diabetes, and now he is losing his sight and it just worsens as the time passes...he may not even be able to live long enough to see me graduate. He is a father to me, although he is my grandfather, he showed me how much to care by his own kindness. *heh* I still owe him for it...
But someday i will find that happiness again, i will find my destiny, i will gain all that i have lost. But i must first accept all that i have done in affect to what happened later on after the 25th of December. That is my own ordeal i have to deal with, as the same goes to my own past that i have dealt with...
In the end to all my friends who are reading this, "I am sorry".
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