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Eternal Hiatus...
Hy! How about a strawberry? But first... Lory left forever... Only I stand here alone, guarding this place as she asked me to. But luckly she will still submit, her work here, on The Otaku! Please visit her portofolio, I promise you won't be dissapointed!
And Lory asked me to say "Thank you!" to all the wonderfull people she met here during this lovely years!
Where am I now?
May, 9th 2008 17:55 PM
Currently working on: Some new wallpapers. Latest great movie seen: Might not be my latest, but it's worth mentioning "The comunist raid" ( translation from: "Marele jaf comunist"). Conclusion: romanian directors rock! Latest album downloaded: Maria Rita ~ Maria Rita (genre: brazilian jazz) Latest books bought: "Written on the body" by Jeanette Winterson & "Yours sincerely, Surik" by Ludmila Ulitkaia Latest book read: "Time traveler's wife" ~ Audrey Niffenegger. Conclusion: dought at first I tought I made a wrong choice, it turn out to be a really great book. Latest great events: My life is boring at the time, no great events for now. Latest mundane events: This week's tests, furture predictions indicate low marks. Future plans: Comment more on posts, I know you all hate my laziness!
Current mood: Just fine. Music Mood: David Bisbal ~ "Quiero perderme en tu cuerpo" Current time: 9:04 Am (Romanian time) Current date: 4th February 2007
Hy everybody! I missed you all... But school has kept me away as always. Lucky, this week my little break starts. It's only one week without school, but I'm happy.
Not much to say about me, I managed to get really good grades, only A's and B's.
I have finished a new part of my story, it's what you all been waiting for, Kary's confession.
Please, enjoy it!
For a moment it felt like time had stopped for Kary for Brian.
You can choose to follow many ways in life. Sometimes you have to make it alone and sometimes you are lucky to find people that share the same dreams as you. But are they the same? No. Every dream is unique. Is it bad to be a dreamer? Are dreamers happy? When you do meet such a person, what reaction and what feelings do you have towards them?
Brian felt fascinated by Kary. In a strance way he felt atracted to her, even dough she was very different from the women he had met before.
Brian: - Who are you? Kary: - I am... a dreamer... Yes... I am a dreamer...
Said Kary looking into Brian's eyes. At least that's what Brian taught. But Kary's taughts along with her look were not in that room, with Brian. Slowly Brian approached Kary and kissed her.
Kary: - No...
But Kary couldn't fight her feelings. Inside her a deep and strong desire was slowly taking over her heart.
Brian's lips... so soft. It was only a kiss, but to her it was so much more. She felt like along with her lips she was giving away her own soul.
Tears fell from her eyes. Brian looked at her trying to find some answers.
Kary: - You shouldn't have done that...
Brian gently dryed Kary's tears.
Brian: - I don't regret it... In fact, I've never done this before. It's strange. I don't know if it's because of you or me... I really don't know... Kary: - Brian, listen to me... This is all illusion and we should stop now, before it's too late... I want you to stop. Brian: - Ok, I promise I won't try to kiss you again. (Said Brian taking his place on the sofa.) Still I want to hear your story. I believe we all have one. So, please... Kary: - Ok, I don't know where to start, but fine, if that's what you want.
Kary left her chair and looked outside the window. It stopped snowing a long time ago and the street covered with the wonderfull white snow seemed so lovely.
Kary: - Since I was 2 year old I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up. A singer. I wanted to sing and make people happy. But as I grew up I had to face obstacles which I never taught that existed.
It all began with my first day of school. After 4 years I ended up hating it. All dough I had good grades, I hated my classmates and they never liked me. In highschool it was the same. I always was the one rejected... I guess I couldn't fit in. Still I was able to meet two of my best friends. I really miss them. One of them, Diane, really believed in my talent and supported me. But it was hard to fight the mean jockes of others. They ended up destroying my self-confidence and my self-respect. I started hating me and sometimes even questioning my own talent.
Before my highschool graduation, many taughts were haunting me. My parents wanted me to become a lawyer, but I wanted to pursuit my one true dream. My parents couldn't understand what I was going throught. I tried to talk to them, but they never believed in my talent. They always jocked about it. And I felt really humiliated. I lost so many tears along the way.
I remember the day I saw your first movie. I fell in love with your energy and your eyes. I can't explain how, but you gave me confidence. After I graduated college, I applyed for a scholar ship at a university here in London. And I was so surprised to see that they had accepted me. But it was the same. I ended up alone again. And this time without my family by my side.
Of course I tried to make it as a singer, but I was turned down every time. I know why. I'm not really beautifull and my talent... I don't know if I have talent anymore... I feel like I've been living in a lie all these years. But I can't give up music. It would mean to give up my own life and I can't.
The one person that stood by my side for the last three years is Connie. I met her the day I applied for a job as a lawyer at the company I'm currently working for.
That's my story. I chose loneliness and dreams as a way of life. But to accept loneliness as a way of life has a price. With every day that goes by I feel more weaker and lost in my dreams.
So now, all I can do is cry.
I had to stand up so many times, I had to start all over again with no one by my side. I'm too tired to fight. I'm sure there are many people out there more talented than I am, and they deserve a chance. I know you might think that I'm a coward and maybe it's true, but for once in my life I want somebody to give me a hand and say: "It's alright. I believe in you and I'll protect you. I promise I won't let them hurt you anymore, because you do deserve all the beautiful things you've been denied."
Kary was crying in silence and Brian listened carefully to every word that she said.
Kary: - I'm pathetic, aren't I? And after you will go, I'll take my loneliness and my dreams and I'll hide them away in a corner of my heart and I'll live forever in the memory of this moment.
That day I met you, now it seems that it was just a beautiful dream. We don't live in the same world. We both know it.
Brian stood behind Kary, but he hadn't the courage to touch her. Kary could see his reflection... She slowly turned around and looked into Brian's eyes. Hers were full of tears.
Kary: - Brian, before you go, I want to ask you something. Brian: - Sure... Kary: - Would you hold me in your arms, just once?
Brian wrapped his arms around Kary. His strong embrace... Brian felt so many different emotions at the same time.
Brain: - Kary, sing me something... Kary: - What? Brian: - Yes, I want you to sing to me... Kary: - Ok...
End of Chapter VI
That's it. I hope you guys like it! Have a great week-end and thank you for the kind comments!
