Friday, March 9, 2007

   gone...

he's gone...he's livin with my sister. i think my parents drove him out....i'm lyin to myself sayin i dun care. i miss my brother! i'll see him again though...whenever i visit my sister. i dun like nor hate my sister, i never hang out with her enough to get my own opinion on her. we're far apart now, and since my brother is gone, me and him will too. at first me and my brother got along, but now our bond is broken! we'll be driven apart now, so it doesn't matter anymore. i'll laugh, i'll cry, i'll have my emotions, but i'll still feel empty inside. i can't help it, i should never have gotten closer to my brother, cause now i miss him to death. i duno wut i'll do...i guess i'll just go on with my life....

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Sunday, January 7, 2007

puttin up posters= pain
i finished puttin up 4 new posters. i had to take 5 old ones down, and now my right thumb is sore >___< and i have a cold, again. once every month i'll probably end up with a cold, but last month was the worst....oh yah, i had to bite thumb tacks off my wall xD and moved a few picturs to a different wall. did all my homework this weekend...for once xD instead of the day before like always. neh, i'm lookin at my wall with 3 posters on it right now...and i think i need to buy one more poster....it's so...empty 0o...lol night all! *talks to alyssa on the phone*
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Sunday, December 31, 2006

   yey....birthday...
ugh, every mornin i must be awaken by my mother singin happy birthday >> all it is is just a day, nothin different. but...i'm older than u sakai! xD hahahah! and i get to see her and caitlyn later on today hehe! anyways, happy new years!
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Thursday, December 21, 2006

freakin soap opera...
i swear, i think my family is a freakin soap opera! a few hours ago, my brother in-law was goin to kill himself! then he went missin, and now he's in the house! which, by the way, my sister changed ALL the locks while he went to work. so my mom got pissed, and we went to my sisters work; some womans house where they do daycare. my mom went up to her, and i was expectin a slap! but my mom just scolded her and i think she disowned her 0o she said "I'm done with you!" twice, and she also got $40 from my sister. i didn't kno my sis owed her money. but, yah. first my brother, now my sister. *sighs* yep, i must live in a soap opera...oh yah, my bro is startin to get happy so i'm glad....but i'm afraid of one thing; not bein able to see my niece and nephew (gabby and julian, aka juju) ever again. and my mom might have to return a few things >> oh yah, if ur gonna ask me how my brother in law got into the house, i can't help you there...but all i kno is that my mom told his mom to call the cops....and my mom told my sister that she needs physchiatric (dun care if i spelt it wrong) help! my sister put my parents through alot of grief in her teenage years, and it looks like she's at it again. yep..typical day...*mumbles* if u live in a soap opera >___< anyways, bye and wish you all a merry christmas! so far, mine is lookin pretty bleak....oh well ^^ Happy Holidays everybody!
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006

disturbed....
well i learned sumthin disturbin last night. apparently my brother isn't a virgin...and neither is his ex. my god, none of my siblings are role models! my mom complained that none of her children (besides me) are virgins! that they should be married first before that. sadly, i agreed. the only person who i said would be a good person for me to learn from, was myra's oldest niece...it's sad. and my mom told my oldest sis what i said, and she told her to tell me to set my own example...but still...NONE OF THEM ARE VIRGINS!!! WTF?!?! were they born with the same personality? it ranges from oldest-youngest. and trust me, i will not (or at least try if i remember any of this) to remain a virgin till i get married. then me and my mom went into a conversation about church 0o and my mom doesn't like the way how catholic churches are now. sumthin about modern...they can't help it tho! oh well...still...i'm the only virgin between me and my siblings left....those fools! my brother will get punishment! or at least his ex will wahahaha! (ahh how evil i can sometimes be...and trust me, i'm insane! i even yelled at my parents which i feel bad for considerin my mom said "Please don't yell at me" *sigh* how cruel will i become i wonder?) anyways, bye! ^^ and you didn't have to read this really......you can stop anytime now...any time....ok stop now, ur freakin me out....alright i'll just stop talkin altogether! bye!
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Monday, December 18, 2006

Weekend
well my weekend was fine. got a new manga (after about....hmm months after not gettin any new ones 0o;) and a new book. manga: Model. Book: The dream thief. my brother called 'her' (*points to bottom posts*) this mornin. but i'm hopin he'll get better. my friend wants me to hug him for her...and she has no clue wut he looks like...actually, i dun think even sakai has a clue wut he looks like 00 i need to get some pictures of him...if he tosses out the book 'she' made, i'll cut a few pics of him out to show them. but as for now, i'll leave him be. let him have a good christmas with his mind off her. anyways, doin a story oddly enough, and i might stick to it. i got to chapter 2, but chapter 1 is very short xD and no one, not even sakai has read it yet. only sakai knows the title, and sakai...do not say the title in a post or comment at all. anyways, i wish you all a merry christmas! (or any other holiday you may celeberate and if any at all this month) and happy birthdays to those born in december! (sakai...u will not tell mrs. aldridge that mine passed, got me?!)
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Reasons
regarding to wut i wrote, yes i kno it happens o every guy. but this is the first time i've ever heard my brother cry. it just hurt my heart more than it usually does. i never cared for my brother as much, we just started to get along, but now after what happened today, i dun ever want to see her face again. i only hope that my brother will be fine in a few days, and his normal self again. who knows how he'll react in the mornin, but me and my friend alyssa are hopin for a book burnin ceremony since she did give him a photo album MONTHS ago of her and him together. i can still hear him snifflin, and it hurts me so. he'll heal though, he'll find someone else.
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How my evening ended; with my brother's tears.
she broke his heart. she left him in tears. she never gave reason, she just did what she did. her heart is cold and now i'm wishin for her, pain! i don't hate her, nor do i like her! but my anger speaks out for itself! if she goes into another relationship, i hope it to be a relationship in hell! i hope that she feels the same pain that he feels! she's a heartless witch who deserves no love! she left him with no reason. what went wrong? one weekend they're happy, the next they fall apart. at first they were meant to be, but now they aren't. he will move on, his heart will heal. but the scar that she leaves on his heart, will never fade away. he will forget about her eventually, and the images of her, will fade away forever in his mind.
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Alright, what i typed up there wasn't about anyone on gaia. it's about my brother. he came home cryin, but my mom made me go in my room before he came. i don't know what happened, but all i kno is that right now, i am wishin her pain! his girlfriend dumped him, that's all i got. i am sorry if this offends anyone, but if i get to angry, i don't want to lash out at anythin. so i just calm down by lettin it out in writin. so all that was started out with those first two sentences, then i built on it all. so there you go, how my evening ended; with my brother's tears.
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Thursday, November 30, 2006

oh my god!
my sister's in the hospital! i'm goin with my mom to watch the kids. i hope she's ok! and juju, he's sick to....i can only hope that they'll all be fine..
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Monday, November 27, 2006

   SORRY SAKAI!!!
i was going to come, but i guess my mom thought i had a fever considerin my bed was hot >__< and then, by refelx from my cold, i made a sniffle sound to clear my nose to breathe...SORRY!!! so here i am, at home....technically not alone since my brother is asleep -_-; my dad left a little while ago and then i took my albuterol (with the machine).....i am so so so sorry sakai! i will most definitly come tomorrow! and that evil sortin hat still hasn't put u in a house yet! GRR!!! (note it;s 10:52 am) plus side, i will come tomorrow cause i am startin to feel better! it;s just the cough >> oh well....i need to upload more pictures 0o...
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