Thursday, May 19, 2005

   what do i do? What do I do?? WHAT DO I DO???
i came back, after nearly 2 months of bein gone i came back, i missed u ppl sooo much while i was gone.
yeah, i changed my video from minority by green day to behind blue eyes by limp bizkit. ash loves that song, but she thinks it suits me waay more since my eyes really are blue, her's r hazel. but i bet dat new kelly clarkson song that's out would suit her, since one of the lines is, 'you'll never get to see the tears i cry behind these hazel eyes'. hee, funny.
srry 4 gettin off topic, but i had 2 bring that up...
well, nate's no longer a worry @ al 2 me, ash told me 2 move on. plz plz plz don't tell her i said this, but y would she tell me that when she can't move on herself? i mean, i really really h8 2 sound like this, but she honestly can't stop frettin over brentley, even though she says she moved on. truth is, it's made her even worse. a lot of stuff happened to her this year, and on top of it all, brentley dumped her, then kept askin 4 her back to mess w/ her head. it's really wrong if u ask me.
srry 4 rattin her out like dat, but she cant let him go, he really damaged her mind or somethin, bcuz it really changed her-4 betta + worse.
i heard today they got back 2gewther, she told me its true
he toyed w/ her head, how can she 4give him, it's so unlikne her. i know dat if i waz in her shoez, and if nate had messed w/ my head + heart as bad as he did her's, i'd drop him like a fly like i figured she'd normally do, but this had a HUGE impact on her, so she sorta, uhhhhhh, screwed ^, i guess.
but..........i shouldn't b so complainin. honestly, when i saw her 2day, when she told me, she had the same look on her face i bet cinderella had when prince charming proposed 2 her. i really haf no heart 2 tell her that he might be fakin again, but i dont know wat 2 do, i cant stand by and watch her get hurt, but i cant tell her and diminish her happiness NEwayz.
*sigh*...if only Mandy hadn't left, she'd kno exactly wat 2 do...
she's gonna h8 me 4 tellin u guyz, tho.....
T.T

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"Amber, today is the best day of my life-seriously. Brentley's really sorry, he asked me out again, things are back to normal after this past month of hell-at last!"
-Ashley, today




~Amber~
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Thursday, March 24, 2005

   let the vacation begin...?
like, ppl, our spring break starts 2day, but we have nearly a foot of snow outside....so wtf is up w/ that?
srry 4 starting out so rude...everything else is good....leia dumped nate, just as ash predicted she would. that set her off again, just as bad as when she found out they waz goin out 2 begin w/.
when we saw leia walk down the hall, ALL OVER nate's BEST friend, RIGHT after dumping him, i guess ash decided she had it, and pulled leia off him and started shouting stuff in her face. she called the stuff 'common sense and dignity'.
so leia gets mad @ ash for pulling her away from her ex's bff, and smacks her across the face and yells, "DON'T TOUCH ME!"
i laugh @ that now. kno y?
'cause anyone who tells ash what to do when they are a year younger than her, or anyone who dares to harm her, gets their @$$ kicked BIG time. which is perdy much wat happened. she got so PO'd @ leia dat she freakiong screamed her head off @ her, and shoved her right in2 a locker. there waz no actual fight, just leia getting pushed into an open locker and hurting her side a bit, is all.
soooooooooo,,,,nething else is perdy much normal around here...igor and i rn't exactly just friends nemore....im startin 2 like him myself. ash thinks hes ok, so it ain't a problem w/ her.
sooooo....hat's it, spring break started, yesterday was freaking boring beach day @ skool, blah,. blah, blah blah blah, and nuttin much else. >>;;
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"Oh the weather outside is frightening, my cat got struck by lightning, run for your life, you h*, run and hide, run and hide, run and hide!!!"
-J.R. (one of my other friend's bf), 1-3-05

~Amber~
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

   used 2 believe in love/glad we tried/new beginning...maybe :'(
IT'S NOT FAIR!
IT;S NOT FAIR!
THAT SLUT-LEIA-IS GOIN OUT W/ NATE AGAIN!
HE DUMPED ME!!!!! /O\
HOW COULD HE???
HE WAS EVERYTHING 2 ME!
I WAZ EVERYTHING 2 HIM!
IT'S NOT FAIR!
-_- srry, but it really hurt whe i found out he waz goin out with that...that BITCH behind my back for the 2nd time!
i wish i NEVER met Nathaniel St.Clair!
ash iz on my side. she started yelling QUITE a few things @ him in the hall whe she saw him after hearing the news. stuff like, "SOME PEOPLE IN THIS SCHOOL ARE ASYLUM ESCAPEES, LEIA! BE CAREFUL!" or "YOU F*CKER! YOU AIN'T WORTH AMBER'S TEARS ANYWAY!" and even "LOOK, HERE COMES THE 2-TIMER AND HIS CRACK SMOKING WH*RE!"
she waz FURIOUS when she found out. she snapped at him.
but @ the same time, i cant help but b glad we tried and all....we tried, but apparently to him, it wasn't goin 2 work. @ ALL. <(
i get a weird pain in my stomach everytime he comes 2 mind now. ash said she felt the same about brentley. i only met him once, and he didn't seem like the kind of guy 2 do that 2 her...
igor supported me 2day, tho.
igor voytko is a friend of mine from 3rd grade. he's foreign, but also really cool. he and ash are always tryin 2 top each other with jokes and stuff.
he....actually HUGGED me 2day when i told him bout nate. he said he should have done something...
igor makes his thoughts dead clear in his actions and words. right now, he is making it clear that he likes me, but i could b wrong. i have 2 get off now. more l8er...maybe.
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"He ain't worth your time, your tears, your toil, or.....whatever else starts with a 't'."
-Ashley, 3-15-05

~Amber~
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Wednesday, March 9, 2005

   omw, i posted!
wow............srry 4 not posting, ppl.......grounding takes its toll again......well wat happened this time waz that i waz out w/ nate and my dad didnt tell me i wasnt allowed out NEWHERE...
speaking of nathaniel, things are not goin 2 well....4 some reason, he has started accusing me of a liar and that i cant b trusted.
wtf??? i would never lie 2 someone that i will most likely end up marrying!
i dunno if ash is doin 2 good, either.....she didn't speak 2 neone yesterday. we have a 2 hour delay right now, so im writing while getting ready 4 skool. (i KNO i spelled that wrong, but i do NOT care!)
and if neone noticed that i started posting in ash's chatterbox thingy as Fallyn Angel, it is for a reason:well, some groups of friends, have clubs, some their own nicknames, some their own wayz of doin thingz. we have nicknames, and we thought it would be kewl if all of ourz started w/ Fallyn or sumthin like that.....mine iz Fallyn Angel, ash's is Fallyn Starr, blackangel55's is Fallyn Rayne.....yeah, stuff like that. ash HATED the idea, but stuck w/ it newayz...as 4 me, i love it. i waz almost gonna change my username to Fallyn Angel, but i'd hafta delete this old account 2 do that, but i like my syte as it iz...
i g2g now, my bus is comin &m i hear it. Bye!
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"Tis better to have loved and lost to have never loved at all...unless your filthy stinkin' rich!"
-Beverly, 1-16-05

~Amber~
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