Saturday, February 5, 2005

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Hey the link you sent to me doesnt work....my browser apparently doesnt like any kinds of music uplinks...grr..my stupid computer...
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Thursday, January 20, 2005

lol hi ppl
hey ppl..i dont know if the song will work for ya'll or not..it says on my thing your browser doesnt support this file or some crap like that ^_^
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Monday, January 17, 2005

omg..i love my back ground...^_^
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(n/a)
bleh..yay silver bullet...i love it..hmm..i fixed my site page..i need a different one though that one doesnt suit me..or my site ^_^ send some choices..i would love it if anyone would...
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Chapter 2
3 years later.....A young woman about 19 years old was in a quiet room used meditating with a ring of soldiers around around her some praying others meditating as well. A man walked in about 23 years old with sharp green eyes and a strong jaw with wide shoulders with otherwise lean features, his hair was tied back in the old fashion with a leather throng. He walked up to the circle and nodded his head towards the door for the soldiers to take their leave of the room. They did leaving their commander alone in the middle of the room. "Hey time to see how 3 years of research have paid off the armors for your new team await you, your new soldiers will be brought in two days time at the least but you should see the armor and see if it fits you, the color sure does as dark as your history and as dark as the night without a moon." his voice after three years was still calm and full of curiosity. "Virtrey you will not be recognized by your soldiers we made sure of that you have read the chart of who your team consists of now lets see if that armor fits you." his hand was held out and I took it and he pulled me up and we walked to the other building which held all the new armor and weapons. He left me at the fitting room and gave me a very uncomfortable suit,"it is for you to wear under the armor you cant wear normal clothes in this new armor" with that he left and I just shrugged and walked into the room and undressed down to my underwear and bra, the suit was a little loose but not quite that tight, as a woman now my hair was down to my butt and my eyes still hazelflecked with gold and skin tanned and scarred from many battles fought and won, I wasnt considered top heavy so I could fit into most old type armor if I chose to, my body though scarred was also lean with hard muscles by the training and fights that I encountered, I was known for looking like a demon as some of the soldiers came to call me but they knew that I was different from the moment I stepped into the facility and began my training that I held so much grief and sadness that they could understand why I acted like I did. As soon as I got the outfit on and walked out Kuyo was standing there and we then proceeded towards the armory as we soon became to call it. The lights came on automatically and in the middle of the hanger were seven armor suits, black, red, green, yellow, blue, gold, and purple. I walked towards them and then looked pointedly at Kuyo to tell me which one was mine, he gestured to the one in the front middle, the black one, I stepped up to it and it ejected so that I could climb into it as I did it closed and the helmet was beside it I put it on as well and the staff released the restraints, the armor felt light so I did a quick high kick and low spin kick then a backflip along with a few punches. "It is the newest type of armor that we came up with, the only thing is it is keyed into the wearers spiritual power, if the wearer has a strong will or a strong reason to live then the armor's special features will be activated to unleash the powers that we built into it." the comm on the inside of the helmet had Kuyo's voice on the sender end, I smiled " I am glad that I practiced meditating now, feel free to bring in the recruits ahead a day of schedule," I turned off the comm and then got out of the armor and went bck to my room and undressed there into some black sweats and a black muscle top, I then proceeded to look at the names on the chart and didnt betray my thoughts outwardly, the names were very familiar to me I still remember each person that I knew, Collin my old lover, Alexa my best friend, Dave my older brother, Kendra one of my friends, Chris and his brother Talon also my friends, the names brought faces to mind and I dreaded the day that we would meet each other again but would they truely recognize me or would they think that I just looked like my former self, no, I am not that weak excuse for a girl anymore I have become a warrior trained in the art of fighting, I wont change because of them, I wont cry because of them, and tomorrow, "tomorrow I will meet them as a different person, with a different name, with a different goal in life." I sighed and leaned back against my bed and closed my eyes drifting off to sleep and dreaming about the day my life change, the day my family died, I woke up hours later to see the clock reading 8:00a.m. I groaned and streched out the kinks in my body and rotated my neck to loosen the muscles then I undressed and got some spare clothes and went into the shower and washed myself of the rest of the dregs of sleep from my body and then got the special suit but it back on my bed and put on some black cargo pants and some black shoes then put on a white muscle top ad left the room to go to the hanger where the suits and the recruits would be waiting for me. Kuyo as usual walked besde me then went into the viewing area of the hanger and that left me to get changed in the dressing room into the cursed suit, as I walked back into the hanger the doors of the hanger opened up and I got my first look at the recruits, after all these years my they certainly have changed, I hardly recognize them. I walked up beside my armor and just leaned there casually until all of them were assembled and looking at me, yes some of them are looking at me as if they know me, thats not good but they will soon learn that I am not that little child anymore. "Welcome to the base Arrkanian, I will be your commander if you dont want to serve under me then please feel free to tell me right out, I wont have someone on my team that cant handle my orders" my voice was normal but command rang through my words to let the others know that I was serious, no one raised any objections, " good, now my name is Virtrey, I already know all of your names and your background, you all share one thing in common but I wont tell you what it is, Alexa come here beside me, " my voice was soft this time and she looked nervous but did what I said ,I might as well tell her the instructions, a voice got inserted into my mind and I heard Kuyo," Virtrey whatever you do dont tell her who you are," " I am not telling her that I am assigning her, her armor now be at ease or you can find someone else to lead them" the threat of not commanding them was no lie and he knew that" fine have it your way". I gave her, her suit and pointed to the girls dressing room, " get dressed in there keep your underclothes on though" she nodded and went to dress I turned back to the rest " Kendra step up please, " she did the same " go into the dressing room next to Alexa's same advice applies to you" she nodded and left ,now for the guys man this is going to suck. " Talon come here please" he just stood there and looked at me, it started to get annoying then he walked up to me and waited for instructions" yes, commander?" his voice was deeper now that he too was 19. I held up his uniform, it was different than the girls but only where the gender was concern," go to the left and yu will find the mens dressing room get there and suit up then report back here" he just nodded and took the suit then left to go dress out. "Chris your next" he just walked up to me and took the suit" its on your left second room"he waved a hand in acknoledgment,now for the last two, I sighed and picked up the second to last one but none the less kept on my blank expression and held up the suit" Dave you can take the third room on the left." "and Collin the fourth on the left" I waited until he took the suit and then I climbed back into the armor and waited for them to come back out before putting on my helmet,but first I have to give them their armors. " Collin, you color is the red one, Chris the green is yours, Alexa the bule is free, Kendra yellow, Talon you take the purple, and finally Dave you can take gold, now everyone suit up just step up behind them and they will eject and then you step into them, your helmets are on the stands beside your armors." I put on my helmet and let the workers release the restraints holding my armor in place. The others followed suit and then put their helmets on and waited to released from the hanger, as soon as all of them were finished being released and getting used to the armor looking heavy yet being very light to suit their body sizes, "okay soldiers cause that is what you are now, you are under my command and you will obey my orders, I will be instructing you in your training so that you can be known as deadly warriors, and if you fail to comprehend why you have to under go training now that you have your suits, well your armor cant function without someone in them so you have to be in top shape as well as capable to move quickly and do impossible manuvers, so now that you know which armor is yours I want you to get out of them and then follow me." my voice was as always calm but firm with the instructions, some of them could get out of their armors easy but Alexa and Talon were having some problems so as soon as I got out of my armor I went over to Alexa as I beckoned a worker to help Talon out of his. "Okay now that you are all out of your armor if you would so kind as to follow me, we shall go through the facility so that you can get familiar with it, we will do this later though right now you will go to the lunchroom so that you can pick out your food and I will meet up with you later" I beckoned to one of my old soldiers," Jordan here will show you the way, goodbye for now," to Jordan I whispered" if they give you any trouble report it later to me alone, goodluck" he just nodded with a trace of a smile at what I said. He gestured for them to follow him out of the hanger, I watched some of them look back at me as if they knew me from some where, I just looked at them and jerked my head so that they would follow the others out the hanger leaving me standing alone, Kayjan, another of my old soldiers, came towards me with a hugh grin of his face,"man they are in for a hugh surprise once they get in the training room, with you being their leader I dont doubt it, I could even feel sorry for the poor bastards" I laughed, Kay, as I had come to call him, always hated when we got into the training room because I would work them until they looked exhausted, but he always came up to me in the morning and tell me that he felt as if he had never been in the training room. " I will make it a living hell for them if they keep looking at me like that, and you should remember the type of hell I made for you and the others." I smiled at that, Kay just stood there and took a moment to remember then he shuddered as if he was still there. I laughed and slung an arm around his shoulders and pulled him to the weapons training, "say Kay, will you have a few practice rounds with me before I have to see if the newbies in the 'hell relm'?(the training room was dubbed that for the intense training done by those under my command)" he laughed and grabbed a quarterstaff and got into a defensive position," ready when you are leader", I smiled sweetly and picked up my favorite weapon a pair of twin swords that kinda look like a cross between a rapier and broad sword, I took up my fighting stance and smiled" ready". The fighting must of been heard all over the facility cause everyone was in the weapon practice room and picking which one would win and how, but Kay and I just kept up the fight without any notice of the others so lost in the fight that even the newbies came to watch cause they had been left alone in the lunchroom, but when they had seen others racing off towards one direction their curiousity got the better of all of them and they came to see what was going on. " Wow, now I know why they call her the bringer of death", " man she is quick, I wish I could be in her team", " she's only 19 yet she fights like a skilled fighter, amazing not many could fight with the twin blades", "what's the history on her?" , "well to tell you the truth, I heard from some higher ranks that she came here 3 years ago after some tragic accident", " shhh...!!! keep your voice down, and dont talk about that, its history that she would prefer left buried", all of the whispers were whispers but nonetheless, only one of the newbies heard the bit about Virtrey's history, hmm...I wonder if it could be Rayna, even though 3 years have past it might be her, God why did I have to be the one to hear this piece of news?

wow omg..here is the second one...i am working on the third a bit..lol please post..i would love it..
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hmm...
blah i will just post a poem on here

Lost Souls



Demons may cry and angels may kill
love may vanish and hatred may prevail
worlds are lost and souls are claimed
but God in heaven and Satan in hell
still remain.



So cry, cry for these lost souls
cry so that every tear drops like a life thread
scream, scream with all your might
and maybe the lost souls will fight.



Fear, fear for the world as you know it
cause when heaven or helll wins
there will be no ending, no beginnning
there will be just one, one heaven and one hell
the fact is everything is the same.




Don't be afraid, it's not like you will vanish
you will still be here, don't give up on salvation
all you have to do is defy the laws of man
and you shall rise up, as the sword of justice
and prevail, you are the one who can save us all
from this insanity, please break the bonds,
and free us from this nightmare turned into reality.
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Sunday, January 16, 2005

   fweee..omg..here is a little of the 3rd chapter
Chapter 3

As I walked down the starting line, while some of the trainees ran up and down the building, I kept thinking of how much the team, my team had come, none of them were tired or panting at all, their bodies were shaped up now to endure anything, I smiled a little then lifted my head to look over my team, " okay thats enough, relax and get some rest, I will stay behind for a little while longer." They left and then the doors of the training room closed and silence closed in on me, I had been thinking of what to do now. Walking over to pick up the equipment, I sighed and got to work, I am so tired of trying to hide my true self, if the higher ups dont stop telling me to not be so obvisous then they will know right off the bat, I sighed then grunted as I bent to pick up a discarded chest plate. " It has been almost 4 years since I came here and yet I forgot about everything except this place..I forced myself to forget everything that I knew, I forced myself to forget everyone I cared about, even him...at least I can't remenis about ancient history, what is done is done, it is all in the past where it should stay." I put everything onthe storage rack then went into the hanger where I kept my armor, I still had the suit on underneth my clothes so I just slipped off my clothes and got into the armor, " I need to go field test the special abilities so open the hanger, I won't be gone long, I will be back when I am through." The worker nodded and the hanger opened up and I grabbed the helmet and put it on then walked out of the hanger and put the boosters into working mode so that I could get to the practice field quicker, as soon as I got there I calmed myself down and focused all of my energy into the armor. Armor, I have not given you a name yet, I have decided that your name is Dark Knight, for all of my pain and other emotions, you feel them too. I didn't realise that the special ability of the armor had woken up until I felt the spirit of it running through me, I aimed the spiritual energy at a huge boulder and I opened up my mind and soul and the armor seemed to take it and force it into a form, I gasped as I saw it take the form of a long, black sword, that had the skull of a miniture dragon on the hilt along with small wings to protect the wielders hands. "Oh my god, is this what my special ability turns into?, its amazing." "Hey miss Virtrey, you need to come back here, there has been a problem and your team seems to refuse to move away from the hanger's control room, they say that they won't move until you come back," I frowned and then I got serious and said in a clam voice," Tell them this, if they don't move from that door this instant, then they will be serving one week in the gravitational training room, and to top that, I will restrict them from using their armors or any of their weapons, they will be grounded, do I make myself clear?" I waited for the answer, it didnt come, "sir respond, whats going on?" the comm beeped and Alexa came onto the speaker," fine have it your way commander". The hanger opened and I ran in, I didnt get out of my suit, but I walked to the middle of the room and waited, "Well come out and tell me why you did this, are you all fools?", I was calm and I put every ounce of authority into my voice. Chris walked up with that cold, calm look that he had come to use whenever I was around, " I know" that was all he said before he left, the others stared blankly at his retreating back, then they turned to me with confused looks in their eyes, like they wanted to ask me something but not what they wanted to ask. " Get back to your rooms, tomorrow you are going to be training very hard, until you can't move, I promise you that", I walked off after Chris, could he possibly know who I am?, I shook my head and put on a blank expression and ran to catch up with Chris, when I did he was lening against the wall beside my room, he turned and looked at me and then smiled, I taped in the code for my room and beckoned him in, as he sat down on the sofa I sat down on the ground and stared at him," what do you know Chris?" the question was simple enough to ask he stared at me and then sighed, " I know that your real name is Rayna Davidson, you were wanted for the supposed murder of your family, and that you suddenly disappeared, I have been working for Kuyo for some time now, and I am sure that I am the only one who knows who you really are." His words brought back all of my memories that I had forgotten," I am not Rayna anymore, she is dead, I am Virtrey with no family background or any ties with anyone, I have been a soldier for 3 years now,"he got up off of the couch and sat down beside me" And you expet me to be able to turn back into my former self, the weak me?, how dare you try those antics on me, I am trained in the art...." I couldn't get anymore words out because his mouth was on mine, our lips locked in a deep kiss, he pull away and muttered an apology "And that is another thing, I don't have a love relationship with any of my comrades, we are strictly working togerther that is all, I don't consider you or any of the others that I used to know as friends, my friends are the ones I have at my side as I fight an enemy, you and the rest are so green that you couldn't possibly understand what it means to work as a team, I have seen all of your records, ya'll all work by yourselves, on individual assignments and that ya'll barely tolerate anyone working with you, goodnight recruit, tomorrow the punishment will be assigned." He got up and left.
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   omg...here is the first chapter of my book...!O.o
Chapter1
The morning sunlight peeked through the forest green blinds that hung over my window, I groaned and turned over so that my back was to the window, but still the light came in and I slowly got up and brushed my hair and put on a tight black sleeveless shirt and then I got a pair of brand new black cargo pants then I proceeded to put on ankle socks and a pair of black shoes, as I opened the door to my room and went into the living room an awful sight came to my eyes, blood smeared the walls and the floor, it stained the curtains and couch, as I ran into the kitchen to dial for help the same view as the living room filled my sight, blood everywhere, I sank down to my knees with the cordless phone in hand, I held back a sick thought and i got up and ran outside with the phone, the dogs and cats where not there, I dialed the number and told them what had occured and what I saw I then hung up the phone and sat down on the rock fence surrounding my home and tried to forget the awful sinking feeling of being alone, entirely alone. As I kept on waiting and then in anger at feeling of self pity they died and you feel sorry for yourself? I threw the phone as hard as I could then I heard sirens and cars coming across the cattleguard and head towards my house I just sat there and waited, someone came running up to me and made me look up at them, it was one of the foster child managers who took in kids who were still not of legal age to live alone "It's okay now we will see that you get adopted" the lady had horned-rimmed glasses and smell of stale perfume I shook her away from me "No I am not going anywhere until I know what happened to my family, and besides I refuse to go with you, I have other blood relatives or have you been greedy enough to forget about them, that I would be just another foster child to take care of or where you thinking on the lines of me being an orphan?" my voice held no sadness, it held only controled anger. She started to say something but a lady in a black suit took one look at the foster manager and clicked her tongue then she turned to me and seemed to be thinking of something to say, I just shrugged my shoulders and walked past both of the ladies and opened the door to my sister's red ford contour and looked for the keys and I found them hanging on the window wiper switch, I took them off and put the key into the ignition and turned on the car, the lady in black came running up with a puzzled look on her face or was it pity?, I didnt care but I lowered the window anyways and she came up and said plainly "where are you going, you cant leave the scene of a crime and the news reporters want to get your picture and story about what happened here". Anger rose in my chest and I said coldly,"they can go to hell for all I care, this is nothing more than a stunt so they can say 'did she kill her family?' or 'is there something behind the killings?' no you can tell them they can shove their publicity stunts where the sun dont shine, I am leaving I will contact the police when it is over with" with that I put the window back up and put the car into drive and left a very stunned lady and news team behind, I drove and as I did I sighed and headed towards town , a little town not far from Austin, and I drove towards my best friends house and pulled up in front of her house and got out of the car and ran up to her door and knocked three times and then I waited, as soon as she opened the door I just stood there and asked her "did you hear yet?" she kinda just looked at me and then nodded and smiled " I cant believe you actually left the scene the people I saw on tv looked pissed off and then they started talking crap about you and I turned it off," I smiled too. She led the way to her room and we sat down on the bed and just sat there not talking for awhile then she said" Rayna, where will you go and why?" the question didnt catch me completely off guard, I just shrugged and said in a tight voice " I might drop in on my aunt and uncle then I will leave and go to Huntsville and visit Collin and tell him the truth of the matter, I cant let him believe that I killed my own family." she nodded and then hugged me in a tight embrace " I know you would never do such a thing, you hate fights and always try to find a peaceful solution" I returned her hug and said softly "We know that, but I must convince the rest of the world of that, some foster lady actually had the nerve to tell me to go with her when everyone arrived, I was so pissed off, but now oh God Alexa I dont know how to clear my name and I wont live with anyone, I wont risk someone else dying and me the prime suspect" my voice failed and I tried to choke back the lump that formed in my throat. "I have to go now, I decided I will go to Collin I wont go to my aunt's house at all, goodbye Alexa I dont know when we will see each other again" I hugged her one last time and then got back into the car, my car and heaed towards Huntsville, towards Collin. I was driving through a quiet little town when two cars drove up on either side of me and pinched my car between theirs, I tried to break loose but to no avail they had my car stopped in the middle of a deserted parking lot and got out of their cars and looked to me like government workers. "Wow, girl your sure do know how to make the media angry and to top that of you made the fostercare people angry too..." the speaker was a guy about 20 years old and he spoke with laughter and curiousity in his vioce..I just looked at him with cold eyes and didnt say anything, he just shrugged and a lady with a briefcase came forward and set the brief case on the hood of the car and motioned for two of the others to remove me from my car as they opened the door I slammed my fist into one's grion and kicked the other in the stomache making him double over. I turned and saw that the lady was getting out a syringe and filling it with a clear liquid, "Like hell if you think I am going to be sedated, I will come but only if you dont stick me with any kind of drug, got that!" my voice held a deadly calm edge to it that I never thought possible at that moment, but the woman just pusred her lips and glared at me then turned to the learder and waited for his instructions. H e just looked at me as if I was a beautiful woman who knew how to kill, he shrugged then laughed" dont worry she wont sedate you or drug you, you will make a fine example for others of your special abilities though, but more of that later, will agree to come with us then, we promise no restraints and no harm to you at all you make your decisions and we will help if we can but for now come with us," he held out his hand to me and I glanced at the lady, she was seething with fury, that is one lady I need to watch my back for, she might go against all commands not to harm me. "and you will find out all the answers you are looking for, along with some comrades in the process, but here is one thing you must remember, never search out your friends to them you are dead, you will come to understand what we mean, but another thing Collin, the one you were going to see thinks your dead he is stunned into silence and wont say anything to anyone anymore, his grief is sad but he will come to sooner or later." his words hit me with a strong force,me, dead?how is that possible, unless someone said that I commited suicide then it would be legit butif this man wants me to go with him then I have no other choice. I just nodded fighting to keep my emotions hidden for the time being until I got alone somewhere then I would release those emotions with a vengence too. The man took my hand and led me to his navy blue government car and left with me sitting beside him lost in my own grief and thinking that if others thought I was dead then I was no longer Rayna Davidson but someone without a name, without a family, without any blood ties to anyone, it suddenly dawned on me that now I was free of blood ties that meant that Iserved no one but these people and myself, I had truely gotten what I wanted after all freedom and isolation from family and friends. As the sun set and we were heading away from the towns I turned to the guy "whats your name?" the question was simple enough and he smiled of course and said in a kind voice" I am called Giokuyo, but you can call me simple Kuyo, and what should I call you, Rayna?" his smile was replaced with curiosity and he waited I shrugged and could reply in the only way that I could at the moment "I am searching for one, until then lets stick with Rain," he smiled angain and mumbled the name and then said to me in what seemed like a thoughtful tone"as soon as you find a name will I be able to call you by it,and also if you do find a name what will it represent about you?" I dint say anything only thoughtful, he shrugged "dont answer me right away but tell me when you are ready." The rest of the trip went in silence. I looked up from the floor of the car and looked at Kuyo and I said in a low voice"from now on I wish to be called Virtrey, no last name shall be attached for I belong to no one by blood anymore." he smiled and took my hand and kissed it softly"Virtrey it is then, I take it means virtue am I right?" his words wanted to know, his eyes wanted to know. I just nodded and we entered a building and the doors closed out the world annd everyone in it.


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Thursday, January 13, 2005

   blah
*shrugs* i didnt know what type of title to put so..anyways yay this is my first post here in my journal i guess ^_^', omg my dad is driving me insane...and i am fixing to tell him to shut up...bleh..gaia is a pain so i gave it up...hmm..i got one of my favorite cds back from a friend and i was freaking out earlier in the car because i missed the cd sooo much but yeah <3 i am glad i got it back....hmmm...i miss my friend in houston.. and i am a little worried about him...:( bleh i hate gossip but these are my thoughts so live with it..i am not normally like this i am usually nice and quiet with a i dont care attitude..but i am hyper and happy so yeah my thoughts are very random, i am writing 2 books now..omg i need to focus on one at a time..but i have crasy ideas and i need to put them down before i forget them...well i guess that is all for now..sign my guest book....
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