Saturday, February 14, 2004

Lonely and depressed

I wonder what would happen if I just vanished one day. If I just fell off the face of the Earth. Somehow I doubt anyone would care. Oh, hey, check this out. I wrote it last month, and just finished tinkering with it. It doesn't matter Who is right Because I am always wrong No matter what the fight. I am a stupid teen Who yells and screams I always hurt Those close to me. They never listen But who really cares I'm never right So lets not split hairs. So full of pride And of themselves I never get heard Like a dusty book on some shelves. Treat me like dirt It'll be great fun But don't be suprised I'm already numb. I hate this life I didn't choose it I'll keep going But the fuse has been lit. I'm like a bomb Full of destructive power Let's hope I'm gone That fateful hour. Treat me like shit What's done has been done Get a few more hits in Then be prepared to run. Maybe I won't I'll be defective Shit, I don't care I wasn't elected. I chose this path I and I alone But you had a hand in This knife you did hone. You will be shocked Had no clue I had degressed this far Don't argue, it's true. So for once I am correct The only time And you can't argue Can't change the crime. I'll be gone You'll stay here Ponder my past Ponder my fear. So strange to hear That word on my lips Wasn't I made numb by you ignorent dips? What's going to happen After the bang Why do I care Why shouldn't I hang? Why shouldn't the victim Return the abuse They gain nothing, But do they lose? Or is it I Alone in my mind Who create all the insults That on my mind so grind. Unraveled strings Collect at their feet Far to gone To turn down the heat. My mind is ablase From fires within To suggest putting them out Is worthy to grin. Too late to save Already burned down Run already Get to the ground! Leave me here My last few days Already alone All but one saved. One is I I alone Don't barge in Ignore my moan. Do what you always do Don't change your pattern now Only one here Alone I do howl. The moon shines red On the dark sky Perfect for blood And air to say "hi". Don't you believe That I have the guts Arn't you aware Of old shiny cuts? Screw it I don't care Only I This choice must bear. That is false Again I am wrong Someone will notice That the bitch is gone. The people who birthed me Will notice the silence No note of rebellion No sound of defiance. Will they be releaved They who sharpened my blade Will they be saddened They did not come to my aid? Many questions But I have no answers Bet they do My humble sires. Don't care one way Don't care the other It's going to happen Sorry mother. But now I lie As I always do Fuck this shit, And fuck you too.

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