Sunday, July 1, 2007

*GASP*
My father is really pissing me off. Today, my cousin came over with his girlfriend saying they needed aplace to stay. Usually my dad would say "Hellz nah!" but noo! Not today! He told them sure. Then told me, Let them use your room for the night! I just stared at him. He told me to sleep on the couch. And for those of you who have been to my house, you know my couch isn't to comfortable. (Not the futon, Birt, the couch.) Now when they leave, I have to burn my sheets and sterilize my matress. I can't wait to move out. I'm going straight to New York.
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Monday, June 25, 2007

Family Bonding

Well this past weekend (actually just saturday) the devil, my step-dad, brother, sister, and me all piled into our tiny little car. My mom said, "We don't spend enough time together! We need some 'bonding' time to get our family together." my response was, "We were just here for a freakin' week. I believe I deserve some sort of a break from this hell-hole." she gasped I walked off. After that, we got into the car (I was smooshed all the way against the left window.) and drove around. We went to look at this lake (it was a puddle I tell ya!) and then, after about 3 hours in the car we finally got to go get some chinese food. I swear that was the best chinese I have ever had! Then, we left and everybody started singing those...songs. My brother and sister started to dance and I just watched in horror. I mean...my sister and I do stuff like that all the time...but not like THAT. Well my brother struck up a sweet tooth...so theeeen we went to Dairy Queen. Yea. I just asked for a small vanilla cone. (I didn't want anything big then). After that we went driving around some more. We passed my step-grandma's house. She wasn't home...THANK YOU!! Then about 2 hours later we stopped off at a small gas station (We needed gas...hmm wonder why!?!) and I got a tall Frappuccino. It was worth that part of the trip. Then we got home and I watched 'The Devil's Rejects' That movie is amazing.

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Friday, June 22, 2007

For some odd reason I've been feeling sad. I think I might know what it is. For some reason that has me angry at myself. I hate myself for it. I was on gaia...(this is already bad) and I met this girl. Her name is Brittany (it's a popular name). She seemed to like me. We have a lot in common. We both like to take pictures of stuff. She wants to major in photography and journalism, I want to major in art and photography. Well, she asked me out. I have no spine, no guts, or a heart. I told her yes. (I'm sorry Birt but I lied to you. I thought you would say something about it. I don't want to start anything. I did't wanna make you mad. If you do get mad, I'm so sorry for lieing to you.) Now she keeps telling me she loves me and stuff like that. This must be how Charlie feels when I tell her stuff like this. Well now, for some reason, I feel like crying. I know she doesn't feel the same way for me but I can't stop thinking about Charlie. I know we have nothing special, and even if we did it would go nowhere, but I still can't get her off my mind. I don't know what I should do about Brittany, it's not right of me to have said yes. I'm a horrible person. I don't know why I do these things, but I can't still be with Brittany. I need to tell her, but I can't hurt her like that. She wrote me a poem saying, " Doubting love,
I'm so cold keep me warm,
I'm so alone,
Hold me,
I'm crying,
Wipe away my tears,
I'm dying,
Be my life-support,
I'm out of love,
Re-build my heart,
I'm walking away,
Will you follow?"
I can't stand it. She feels things for that That I don't about her...I feel so bad about this. What's wrong with me?



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Thursday, June 14, 2007

My thoughts right now...

Well..a while ago I asked Charlie to tell me her favorite song at the moment. Well she said "You will love this song" by Amber Rubarth. I'm listening to it now. I just had the urge to listen to something new. Well I like this song. It's good. Charlie has good taste. =3

I had to go through five websites for knock knock jokes. It was for Kathy(our house cleaner) she is starting, well I should say has started, and organization that sends knock knock jokes to kids who have cancer. Some of the jokes we both couldn't figure out. They we're confusing.

My dad won't let me cut my hair again. Though, what makes me mad is that the time before I just got my hair cut, he said, "Oh well it's our hair and you can have it however you want." Liar. I won't give up though. I really wanna get it cut like the lead singer of AnCafe. I will get my hair cut no matter what.

I think I come off a little too strong. No...a lot. I really do. I can't keep muy feelings to myself unless I'm upset or mad. I'm scared that I might have scared someone who is very close to me. I'm afraid I might never get a chance with her, and that she doesn't even know how much I like her. (see what I mean...) I just can't hold it in and I think that's what drives people away from me.

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Monday, June 11, 2007

I watch the Pokemon movie (the first one) a while ago. I have wanting to see that one forever! I haven't seen it in forever so I was happy. I find myself getting bored a lot lately. I was so bored last night (I was up until 4:30) I found myself painting pictures with nail-polish. Yea....pathetic. I drew and painted a picture of a muffin, a muffin and a man, a monkey with a banana, and Luminous. Well there's nothing to do at my house.
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Sunday, June 10, 2007

   cHo Ya!
I watched the Pokemon Marathon last weekend and ever since I've been wanting to dance to the theme for the first season! I danced to it after my shower about an hour ago and I still need to dance to it! I need muh buddes over so we can sing and dance to it! It's so lonely here. I HAVE ESCAPED FROM THE DEPTHS OF HELL!!!! I mean...I just got back from my mommas house. Boring as hell....I think my mom is trying to kill me. She keeps me bored so my energy level is low. She plans to kill me. Talking to Charlie right now so not much more to say. Dad wants me so i have to go anyway!
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Monday, May 28, 2007

   Oh yea! I'm a P I M P!
Well I was on Gaia and I went into the little block party thing and I was attacked by girls. It was a party for Bi, Gay, and Lesbians but the person who set up the chat thing put EMO KIDS COME HERE. i was just gonna go there to make fun of the emo kids...(xD) but no. There was this one girl who kept *kisses her* to me and this other girl who just followed me everywhere! Why do I have this effect on women? WHY!?!?! I can't help it I'm sexy! No but I did make a friend there she is from england...and all over the world. She's pretty, but my heart is set. You know who you are...and I'm prolly gonna get beat up for saying that but I MEAN IT! well...I guess this is it. I'm tired it's late, and i'm cold! oh yea...and if the person who I like doesn't know who you are, and if people reading this don't know who I'm talking about i'll just say it! CHARLIE!!! xD
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Friday, May 25, 2007

   ....Help
Well... I gauged(sp?) my ear...it hurt like hell. I'm bored as hell....I'm hungry as hell....I MUST BE IN HELL!!! I'm sad cause today was my last day of school and I won't get to see most of my buddies. Well the ones who are guys anyways. I'm mad too. I was riding the bus home and this sophmore (soon to be Junior) asked me if I had gone to any football games and those who know me know that I'm in marching band (I AM A MAJOR OTAKU!!!) and I got to just about every single one of them. Well I told him I was and I'd been to some and he said...'Well would you go to one...for me? I mean the homecoming football game." My dad keeps saying the dude asked me out. Well either way I won;t be dating him. Can anyone on this entire site tell me if this guy asked me out or not. I'm confused and scared and hungry...well maybe just confused and hungry....and scared so yea. HELP MEH PLEZ!!!
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

   AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. My head hurts and I'M ALL STICKY HOT!!!!!
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Monday, April 23, 2007

   Bleh
Eh, I was sick today, still am. My stomach hurts and I have a headache. I left school early and my dad got mad at me. He never believes I'm sick. I need to take a shower, I feel icky. Oh yea, and I fell outta my bed! Yeah...that wasn't fun at all. Ok bai for now. If you have any requests for art just pm me and tell me what you want!
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