Thursday, June 19, 2008

too close for C O M F O R T
I keep getting hit on.

My past week (very awesome). I dropped
a very heavy object on my toe and
my dad and a few people think I might
have broken it (doubt it). I get to
take my driving test tomorrow. [/spaz]

Tori and I finally got to hang out.
'Twas fun. We watched Eddie Izzard
and Katt Williams videos. We also
watched Kill Bill vol. 1 & 2.

I just made rice for dinner. =o

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

@-@
I feel like a douche 'cause no one ever
comments my page. Didn't I used to be
semi-cool?
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Monday, June 9, 2008

umbrella...ella ella ella ay ay ay.
So, Cota was supposed to post
about how I killed his brain via
Sailor Moon. Well, I hate him now
because he had to go and listen to the
freakin' theme, so that's stuck in my
head. Thanks Cota [/pokemon thumbs up].

So since I'm already on the subject
of Sailor Moon, I might as well
talk about my rekindled love of
Sailor Jupitor. The sad thing is,
she's (like) the only 'not-gay' one
on that show. It's kinda sad
how the only reason I liked her
was 'cause when I was younger I
thought she looked like me.

I feel shallow.


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Sunday, June 8, 2008

fear is the heart of love
I'm home from my mum's. I don't
think I'm gonnago back. Well at
least for a couple weeks when
I HAVE to go.

My pool's open. I'm feeling pretty
lazy because I don't want to go
swim. It's true what my dad says
about me, I only swim when my
friends are over. What can I say
they're more fun than my brother.

My iPod has breathed his last breath.
I'm not sure exactly what it's name
is as of now. It was the Thing
and then I changed it to Harold Crick
(yes from Stanger Than Fiction). But
as of last thursday, it is no more.
Oh and I just noticed I made my
iPod a man. =o

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Monday, May 26, 2008

This is for keeps
Tori stayed the night last night.
We played RockBand and watched Silent
Hill (up untils Pyramid Head enters
and the nurses)and played our Nintendo
DS's like the nerds we are.

I just bought that book The Host. It's
pretty confusing at the moment. But
I've just started, so. Yea. I smell
something burning.

Tomorrow is the last day of school.
I am a walking contradiction. I want
school to be over, but I don't want to
leave school.

Can music be an addiction?


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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

My Life; The Soap Opera
The only thing I'm missing is the
Latin boyfriend that's my babies daddy
and a mother who drinks constantly.

Everyone in my house is going crazy
in the literal sense.

There's cheating, groping, beatings
with baseball bats, pregnancy. Just
name it, we have it. Well, the poeple
who come to my house that is. Need a
porn addicted asian? Well come on
down, we've got a good one for ya.
Only 20 years old and in the Navy.
He's a pussy and a thug.
Perfect for the whole family.

I want some coffee. Maybe some popcorn.

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Friday, May 9, 2008

speak slow
I want to play Rock Band. I've had the
song Maps stuck in my head all day.

11 days of Sophmore year left. Then, two
short months to Junior year. Is it bad
to wish I wouldn't grow any older? I
have a Peter Pan complex. Yay.

I wish the clouds would go away so I
could see the stars. I'm feeling a bit
chlostraphobic, though they're comforting.
Contradictions are my specialty.

I notice my posts have begun to sound
more and more emo as the days progress.
I don't meant to, it's just nothing
really amazing has happened.
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Sunday, April 27, 2008

We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
It's raining again.

I'm supposed to get my nose peirced.
My sister talked my dad into it. It'll
just be a little one. I'm pretty happy.
I wish I could be a little happier though.

I'm feeling pretty useless. And I sound
so emo right now. I hope my music is working.
Can you hear it? It should be Everything
by Alanis Morissette. I'm in an Alanis mood.

I'm allergic to my cat so I have to get
rid of her. Then my cousin/brother figure
is taking my other cat. I'll be stuck
with our big lug of a dog. He's cool.
I can deal with it. It'll be easier though,
my throat got really swollen when I came
home from mum's.

I really like the song Brand New Colony by
the Postal Service. I have to sing it
for Char, so I've listening to it a lot.
It's really cute.
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Monday, April 21, 2008

paper bags and plastic hearts
I'm hoping that a lightening bolt will come and hit me.
I feel so useless right now.

I've been doing fine lately, but today I just got down. I should be happy. Saturday was Tori's party and I had fun. A.C, Tori and I rarely get to hang out these days. We were always conjoined at the hip, but now it all seems so, long ago.

I keep changing my mind. Today I want to do one thing but tomorrow I want to do the other. I want to stay with someone but I wonder if being away from them will be better. I also wonder if I leave her, I'd just become the one thing I was afraid of becoming.

I'm 16, shouldn't I be worrying about my license, or who is going to take me to Prom? Isn't that what happens in 'real' life?
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Strange calls...
Ok, so most of you know that I got into a fight on my school bus. The kid (DJ) was beating my brothers ass, so I got up and started to beat him with my cell phone. I didn't knwo I had it in my hand, or else I would have dropped it. But anyway, I got 3 days of OSS (out of school suspension). I can't make up any homework or anything, nada, zip, NOTHING! Well my dad is now writing a letter to the school board to get them to do something about it. He wants the bus driver off the route.

ANYWAY! Today I was sitting in my living room chilling( enjoying my last day of OSS....alone and bored) when my dad calls me. Well I go in there and he asks me if I know a Brooke Laiben. I have no clue who this 'Brooke Laiben' is. He tells me she was asking for me on the phone. Apparently he knew it wasn't a friend of mine because the woman sounded liek she was in her fifties. He told me that he told her that I didn't know Brooke. Well, She says that she's a friend from school and she's just worried about me. My dad gets kinda pissed and says that he's gonna call the cops....she goes, OOOOKKKKAAAAYYY! She didn't eyl it she just said it all...rapist like. Well My dad asks for her name again and she says Brooke Polite. Brooke Polite is the younger sister of the kid I beat the shit out of. My dad tels her that and she's like, I know.... So my dad tells her she's lyinh and that Brooke is 12 years old, and she's just like, Okay... and hangs up.

Well My dad had called me in after the call so I couldn't talk to this woman. My dad was wondering why she would be asking for me. i told him, "Dad I'm the one who beat DJ up, don't you think his family is a little pissed about that?"

So reallly right now, I'm freaking out. I put my car in the garage and locked up, but I'm worried about school tomorrow. I'm really scared for Ryan (my brother) too. He goes to school with that little fucked up kid, DJ. Fuck, I'm so scared...
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