Tuesday, March 30, 2004

   Damn tired.
I'm getting f****** sick of all the damn jealousy... God! And it's over something that's... pointless (Well, I think it's pointless.. Come on. Being mad becuz a friend is more close and open with other friends? That's pretty pointless if you ask me...) -_- Sheesh, if seeing something like close friendship is painful for you becuz you believe you're not part of it or w/e(when you could have become closer friends in the future but shot that all to hell when jealousy reared its ugly head. You know its not gonna happen when the trust has been broken.), then just ignore us. Cuz no way in hell am I going to change how am I with my friends just so you (One person over many others? I don't think so.) can feel happy.

And F***! I AM NOT A FRIGGIN PRINCESS!! >_<## I don't act like one becuz I know I am not one and I never in my whole life claimed to be one!

-sighs- And I thought friendship, trust and love could withstand anything...

It's no wonder I talk more with Derek and Chris... They don't ever judge you. They get mad but they don't go behind your back and call you things... and they actually listen when you try to tell them things... not that whole "you said this so i'm gonna take it the wrong way and be mad at you" stuff.

I wonder if just closing myself off to everyone other than those that actually like me and are friends will help... I've tried everything else. Talking, running, ignoring, and even letting some people be mad at me hasn't worked... Oh well it's something to think about.

On to other things now even tho I'm still thinking about all the jealousy crap and how to fix it... Ahem...

Tomorrow's my birthday. I'll be 15. Yay! A year older... I don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow since no one's said anything yet. ¬¬ But! I don't think I'm gonna be online for it. ^^; You know you just don't want to deal with things on what's supposed to be a happy day for you. Anyways, I have this sneaking suspecion that my family is up to something... o__o; surprise party I bet... <__<; I'm gonna avoid that if it's true. n.n;; I don't like to be surprised... ehehe. You lose your excitement for surprise parties when you've had a bad experience with them. x.x;; er.. not gonna explain that one...

*O__O* Muwahaha!! Jaime (who just called)said he's gonna take me on a shopping spree!! -^___^- Wheeee~!!! We're gonna skip teh school and head for teh mall! <33 *___* Oh yea~ oh yea~! XD Tomorrow will r0><0r5 if that happens! I heard him mention some additions to meh plushiel collection. >__>; -wuffs plushiels very muchies- <3 <3 <3 X3

O.o I only see one prob with this intended shopping spreeage... Who's gonna drive us to the mall?!! O___O XD roflmao! Oh well I bet he's figured it out already...

Ahh.. I love Jaime. He always knows when to make me happy when I'm feeling down. ^_^

Ooo! I better go announce my disappearance for tomorrow... and uh something else too... e.e

Ja all! o.O;
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