Thursday, March 31, 2005

   HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!
Its Josh's birthday today!! he's 17, saterday were going to Applebee's, juss me, him, Matt and Josh's Mom!! its gonna be FUN!!! I still don't have A CLUE what to get him! he's SOOO hard to by for....his Mom done got him Tekken 5 and Devil May Cry 3!! I was going to get him that!!!Now I gotta come up with SOMETHING!! HELP!!!!!! I LOVE HIM BUT I HAVE NOOO IDEA WHAT TO GET HIM!!!!
Well gotta go, Erin wants to use the comp! LATERZ!!!
Illyria
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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

   I'm SOO much in love!!!
I love my Josh SOO much. I had to work last night....T-T My feet hurt SOO much. I had to walk up to the gun rack, stand there and score for the five guys there, then re-fill the trap, which had water in it that I had no knowing of, my pants were soaked. then I had to walk ALL the way down our mile long course and help make roofs for the traps, then go back up to the club house and score for MORE PEOPLE!! It was hard work!! ( I work at a gun club, its a trap shooting place) I like it there I get payed good. I made $35 last nite, now I can get Josh something for his birthday. BUBBY!!!WHAT SHOULD I GET HIM!!!???
well holla at y'all later!!
love ya!
Illyria
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

   Me and Joshua are back together!!!!!!!!!
IT FINALLY HAPPENED!!!! Josh asked me out Sunday, after chruch! I was SOO happy, I'm STILL happy.We talked FOREVER on the phone last nite. ANDMATT DYED HIS HAIR!!!!! O.O ITS BLACK and he don look like Bubby no more....but I like it!!! he looks SOOO cool. I'm juss so shocked that me and josh are back together! Its SOO cool. his my baby and I love him SOOOO much
Well I'm otta here, I'll holla at y'all later!
Love ya!
Illyria
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Thursday, March 24, 2005

   I'm happy......DON'T make me MAD!!!!!
hey people!!
I'm SOO happy that me and Josh talked last nite. he told me that he would love to get back with me, but he wants ta wait till around May 7th. (thats the day of the Prom)
I'm going with him because he promised he'd take me, and he always keeps a promise.But he also promised he'd never break my heart but he did...I forgave him and I will always love him.
Well class is gonna end, I'll write more later!
Love Y'ALL!!
Illyria
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

   I'M SOOO HAPPY!!!!
hey y'all!!
Not too much up here, juss here in the libray, I sure hope me and Josh do get back together. I love him SOOO much. he's my baby boy and I'll never give up on him. I know I should hate him, but I can't...its juss not in my nature to I guess.
well I'm excited about going to the prom with Josh,its gonna be SOOO fun!! I'm not mad at my cousin anymore. I guess I realized fighting is useless.
Well I'll holla at y'all later!!
Your demonic friend!
Illyria
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

   Hey y'all.....a lil' sad and a lil' worried
Hey, well me and Josh both cut...mine looks like lil' stracthes from a puppy but his is a long, shallow cut. I'm sad that I made him do it. I love him I never want to hurt him...but I did..I guess I'm okay with him and Samantha...but I don't see how I can get over him. he tells me to move on, yet to keep the memories close. but if I keep them close, I only fall farther behind.I don't understand it. all I can do is hold him close and tell him I love him, no matter what. Thats juss how I am.
P.S my lil' sister Kassey has seizers, so pray for her, she's going to the neurologist April 5.
Holla at me please!
Illyria
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Monday, March 21, 2005

   I"M SOO PISSED
Hey y'all, well I'm feeling a little worse. I still love Josh, evenif he is going out with Samantha. Can I hire a hit man to kill her?? no, she family better not do that....BUT I WANT TO SOO BAD!!!! I want her to know the pain in MY heart. Because she doesn't get away with hurting MY brother and THEN dating the guy I love!! NO THAT IS NOT OKAY WITH ME!!!! He has hurt me in more ways then he will ever know!! I think I WILL move in with Cody now...
Well I'll holla at y'all later
Illyria
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Sunday, March 20, 2005

   my heart is SOOO broke
Hey guys...I feel like SHIT...the one guy I love more than anything doesn't even care. he tells me he loves me but now....he going to date MY COUSIN!!!! but no matter what, I'll ALWAYS love him. when he asked if he could date her....I wanted to die. There's this song by Crossfade I love that had the perfect verse. "Sometimes I wish someone would blow me away, make it quick but let it burn, so i can feel my life fade" that sounded SO much like me.
Well holla at me if you can help
Illyria
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   hey guys
Hey y'all, well its Sunday and I was thinking about going to church, but then I remembered I ain't takeen a shower and I don't wanna stink the church up....plus Josh will be at church and I really don't wanna see him right now. when I turn 18, I'm gonna move in with my friend Cody. I can't stay in this house any longer. well holla at y'all later
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Friday, March 18, 2005

   Hey people
Hey guys, well today has been good. Josh, my ex, is acting like he wants to get back with me!! I hope we do ;)I love him SOO much!!
Well, I'll chat at y'all later
Illyria
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