Monday, August 23, 2004

   bored
Heya. I'm in Florida. I think I mentioned that. O well. Ha. Man, things have not changed and my grandparents. They don't change at all. Okay except my grandma. Her behavior improved. She used 2 b sick and tired all the times but now she's all better.

I miss my boyfriend. He and I had an agruement 2 days ago and yesterday. Don't ask. But but it was pretty messed up. It was not cool. A lot of people looks @ us like we r perfect 2 each other. I hate the feeling when they're not really meant that as they look @ us. But it happens and calimed they meant it. *sigh*

Sam n I haven't spoken yesterday the whole day until last night. I had 2 confront him and talk 2 him. I thought it was ridiculous. So I decided to break up with him b/cuz he put me through hell. Which I meant for depression. Until he asked me..."why do u want to go that road?" I couldn't understand him. He didn't really say that but I could feel it even when we r apart. He asked again. I understood wat he meant. That road is full of pain, and depression. He was asking me why do I want all of that now? Having the pain and all. I told him I do not want it. It's him that already put me in that road. He couldn't believe what he heard. He begged me and pleaded that he won't do it again. Then, there's something that I just read. I felt like he's right there and would yell @ my ear. He said, "I LOVE YOU!!" He stopped begging n pleading. I looked at the keyboard. I kept thinking..."type, you fool. Type!! Say something before you break his heart even worse." I typed and told him, "I love you too. Please don't do it again." He sighed and was relieved. He paused for a moment then he started typing, "I'm sorry. I won't do it again. Please 4give me...4give me, Kristi...*hugs*" and I forgave him and gave him a hug online. We were enjoying, laughing just like old times. Being together once again.

We felt funny @ the same time, I think. But we knew it happens 2 be in tough love. Even tho, we r apart like miles n miles away. I guess the agruement was hard on us. But now everything's cool. I'm glad I'm with him because if I am not with him, I don't know what to do and feeling lost at the same time. *sigh* at least I'm with him because I still loves him no matter wat...Love is not blinding me. I see it in front of me but I appears to make that go away and let our love lives enjoying it then.

I think this is good enuff. I better go. It's 8:04am. Bye.
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