Tuesday, December 25, 2007

ok so first off i want to tell everyone what i got: a wacom intuos tablet Wii 4 Wii Games and a Printer/scanner 50 dollar card for circuit city 90 bucks all together O_O red velvet cake and a cross pendant i'm happy with my christmas ^_^ so yeah this is my first drawing with my tablet... well my first drawing was a man eating dog/dragon thing and theres no way i'm posting it O_O gotta give me credit, i did pretty good for a first time though: A Mermaid? Hosted By theOtaku.com.

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Monday, December 24, 2007

i know i've already posted today, but some stuff happened tonight that kinda leave me amazed O_O over a year and half ago i broke up with my boyfriend who i was with for 2 years. during that time he told me that we should exchange something of value, to show we really loved each other. and what i gave him didn't cost much. less than 10 bucks, but it meant alot to me b/c it was given to me by my sister. it was little cross pendant. i'm not religious, it was just that my sister and i have always been distant, and it just meant alot. i gave it to him, and never got anything in return. after we broke up, i never heard from him again, and i never got it back. no one ever knew about it. tonight, my niece gave me a present (her grandmother picked it out, not my sister, shes only 3) and i opened it up, and it was an exact copy of the cross pendant i gave to anthony. i'm not taking it to mean anything religious, i'm taking it to mean that its a new start, my life has changed so much since anthony and i dunno, i kept looking at the necklace and i was just couldn't help thinking that it meant that i should live my life without him always bearing down on my thoughts or actions. like i'm free ^_^. sorry but yeah it was a great night, i'm going to bed, so merry christmas everyone, again.

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! my gift to you is a picture ^_^ Christmas Special Hosted By theOtaku.com.

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ok so earlier this morning i read randomized05's post and i don't know why, its strange, but it really spoke to me. it makes me appreciate... christmas? or maybe life alot more. She is a really awesome person, and she never lets it get to her that christmas always sucks, and i salute to you, r05! ^_^ and well yeah it puts me in the christmas spirit! but yeah, merry christmas everyone! ^_^ i hope yours will be great!

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Sunday, December 23, 2007

Point/Nonpoint - Streetlight Manifesto I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock My finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock and even if I could I would never give up. With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung. And if and when I die won't you bury me alone? 'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song. If there was something wrong would you be oh so strong? Would you do what it takes to move this hollow life along? I'd like to think I would, you know I'd like to think I would but I can guarantee that what you see is not reality and every time she makes a point, I make a counterpoint She said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice and you know that's only just the way that it goes You said it right man, That is just the way that it goes And the days, and the days they seem like forever And the days, and the days they seem like forever But forever isn't ever enough!! I'd like to sing a song Promise you won't be long! I'll try not to be long but I don't want to get this story wrong There was a kid who never cared about the little things Don't even bother because I'm tired and I'm sick of it And every time she makes a point, I'll make a counterpoint! She said It's easy but in the end you'll have no choice And you know that's only just the way that it goes You said it right man, that is just the way that it goes I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock and even if I could I would never give up. With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung. And if and when I die won't you bury me alone? 'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song. Oh, you don't know where I've been! Oh, you don't know what I've seen! If I did something right Would you give up this fight? Would you say you were wrong and maybe someone else was kind of right I'd like to think you would You know I'd like to think you would but I can't guarantee that what you get is an apology Jump back to the day we met I never thought that it would end this way If ever I let you down I want to ask of you To take it down a notch and we can talk it on through And the days, and the days they seem like forever And the days, and the days they seem like forever But forever isn't ever enough!! I'd like to sing a song Promise you won't be long! I'll try not to be long but I don't want to get this story wrong There was a chick who never cared about the little things Don't bother 'cause I still don't give a shit And every time she makes a point, I'll make a counterpoint! She said it's easy but in the end you'll have no choice And you know that's only just the way that it goes You said it right man, that is just the way that it goes I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock and even if I could I would never give up. With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung. And if and when I die won't you bury me alone? 'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song. Oh, you don't know where I've been! Oh, you don't know what I've seen! So tell me friend, how's it going to end? When the shit goes down and there's no one left around to get your back You'll crack You'll smile and agree with everything they say They'll try to tell you that it's all okay But it's not and you're shot and you're bleeding pretty bad And you can't stop thinking about the things you never had Like a wife and a kid and the things you never did You're running around You're living a life that's empty in the end, my friend No, you'll take back all you've said Oh, when the regrets fill your head Trust me I've been there before I would not wish it upon my greatest enemy What irony! Once friends, but I find You'll have to learn this lesson on your own So I waited by the phone but that phone never rang and I sang so loud so I wouldn't hear the bang When the bang never came and I never got the call Fuck It! Thank You! I Love You All! Some are going to say that we're doomed to repeat all our past mistakes Great! But that's not me and even if it was I would always disagree Because in the end I always get the better of me I've got a gun in my hand but that gun won't cock And my finger's on the trigger but that trigger seems locked and I can't stop staring at the tick tock clock and even if I could I would never give up. With a vest on my chest, a bullet in my lung I can't believe I'm dying with my song unsung. And if and when I die won't you bury me alone? 'Cause I'll never get to heaven if I'm singing this song. Oh, I'll take you where I've been! Oh, I'll show you what I've seen!

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so yesterday i went to the movie store because i wanted to rend rocky horror picture show and they didnt have it O_O but i got the simpsons movie, spiderman 3, and superbad. so far i have only watched the simpsons movie. its so much fun to listen to little kids gasp and giggle everytime theres a cuss word ^_^. but anyways more art: Turmoil Hosted By theOtaku.com.

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Saturday, December 22, 2007

ok here the picture i mentioned ealier this morning.... i dunno... its something different *shrugs* Mumbo Hosted By theOtaku.com.

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Porcelain like an infant's eyes Glowing like a face on fire Singing this lullaby Painting a fatal goodbye And we're bleeding colors of grey Hear the screaming fade away Burn these stains away No memory, No memory of this This pain these stains portray, A memory, A memory from this A canvas, your to beautify Painting a peaceful goodbye And we're bleeding colors of grey Hear the screaming fade away Burn these stains away No memory, No memory of this This pain these stains portray, A memory, A memory of this You'll hear the screaming fade away White in place of black I pray Burn these stains away No memory, No memory of this This pain these stains portray, A memory, A memory of this Burnt Memories - Stutterfly - the past few days i've had memories dredged up from the past. Memories that should have stayed buried. Not only memories but thoughts in general, and i've realized things about some of my friends, which make me incredibly sad. I hate knowing things that could possibly destroy your friends feelings, yet if you leave it alone, it destroys your own mind b/c your continuously thinking about it. I've realized how shallow my friendship is to some people, and i guess i try too hard? i expect to receive as much as i give? i dunno, i guess i have no confidence in myself, and to make people like me i try too hard to gain their affection? then when i don't get it all back in return, i feel let down? i miss greg, beyond belief, its so hard not being able to talk to him everyday or to be there with him. i just feel blah. I'm also getting tired of myotaku. i am kinda just getting tired of the internet period. on a happier note, i posted a new picture, dunno when it'll show up though. i am kinda tired of writing my story >_< i think i may take a break, i am sorry to all who read it, but i appreciate it much! i am just in a slump. *sigh* christmas will be great, i know it, i love getting free stuff ^-^ but i hate the christmas crowd, and i kinda hate it when my family members get together. sorry about the depressing post.

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Friday, December 21, 2007

i have been at home for the past two days with absolutely nothing to do >_< I AM BORED OUT OF MY FRICKIN MIND! but its not like i got any money to do anything else *sigh* i was gonna go see Sweeney Todd either today or tomorrow, but again with the whole i aint got no money thing. it really sucks. and i still haven't cleaning my room up like i was supposed to a day or two ago >_< gosh i'm lazy. anyways i dont really got anything else to say, just that i'll post another chapter to my story later tonight.

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

so i was listening to this song and being the perv i am b/c of my friends i really liked this certain part. anyways the song was called Situations by Escape the Fate and this is the part i liked the most: I touched her ooh, she touched my ahhh, it was the craziest thing. I love the girls who hate to love because they're just like me. A certain girl she took my hand and ran it up her thigh. She licked her lips and pulled my hair, I fall in love for a night so besides that i also fell in love with song called Believe by The Bravery. >_< i love music. and another thing, i don't really care who dislikes what music i like ^_^, i mean i don't judge a song on other songs by that person. i just like the music in general. and like sure, britney spears is a whore, but i actually like some of her songs. *shrugs* who cares what she chooses to do in her spare time? kinda like judas preist, everyone hates his stuff, but i like it ^_^ i just like what i like. deal with it.

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