Friday, February 9, 2007

I opened my email today and it said 40 new messages, right? So I'm thinking, WTF? Turns out that 35 of them are from Yahoo! Answers telling me that people answered my question about "What's your favorite breed of dog?"

I officially love Arabic rap. I downloaded this song that's 42 minutes, five songs in one, all in Arabic, and three of them are rap.

And the most played song on my iPod is "Mahiya ve Soniya" by Atif Aslam, the coolest Urdu shit in the world. I'm putting it in my profile now.

Neda and I might be getting together this afternoon. I asked her where she wanted to go and she said, "I don't know." So I said, "Dude. I'm creating a place downtown called 'I don't know' so that whenever people say that, they'll come to my place. I'd be rich in no time."

That is my plan, although I doubt I'll follow it through.

-Susan, happy to be happy
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Thursday, February 8, 2007

   Awwwwwwww!
"Alala, alala, give me three wishes. I wanna be the dirty finger, and you're such witches. Alala, alala, give me more too. I wanna be in that crazy band. You're real cool."

My iPod's battery is in the red. I fell asleep listening to this sermon from a church in London and woke up with Modest Mouse came on with "Head South" and scared the shit out of me. So, that drained my battery, and I woke up late, so I forgot to charge it while I was getting ready.

Now I don't have anything to listen to in class. I guess I'll have to listen to the teacher.

I want to watch "The Great Escape" again. Dad and I were talking about it on the way to school and I was telling Angela about it on Monday. Plus, it's such a great movie. (I got it for $9 at Great Escape last year.)

James Garner is doing old people's insurance now. It's sad, but the thing is, he looks like he did year ago, and sounds like he did years ago, he's just old... and a little chubby. It's weird.

-Susan

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Wednesday, February 7, 2007

My answer to a Yahoo! Answers question
Question: Should I get a girl a Valentine's gift if we have had one official date? We have been friends for a while...
I have liked this girl for a long time, and it is looking like we may be moving our friendship possibly forward. Our first official date is tomorrow (Thursday), which begs the question: Should I get her a gift for V-day, and if so what kind is appropriate?

Answer: Yes. Definitely. If you've liked her for a long time, especially.

I have this guy I've really liked for three years now. We had an official date planned (didn't work out. My grandfather, who I love dearly, passed that morning), but anyway, this was after I had given him a handmade valentine (I'm an artist).

So, go for it. There's no better time than now, and there's no better gift than one from the heart.

Bloody brilliant.
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   Memoirs of a Geisha Soundtrack
Yeah. I've got it on my iPod, finally. And it's weird. I know exactly what is happening in the movie at the point in the song. Does that say something about how many times I've seen it?

(My brain's reaction to "Confluence": "OMG! That's where the Chairman confessed his love for Sayuri!" *tears up "Why won't that happen to me?!")
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   Like I said....
But, Heather, that's just the problem. Yeah. He moved to Canada and we're still in touch. I know that most likely means he cares about me more than just as that girl from East... but I'm always the one emailing him when there's a looooong gap in the communication. OH! BUT! Everytime I do, he sends me back one immediately saying how sorry he is that he hasn't emailed me in for-fucking-ever. And there have been times where his email has changed and he's still checking his other email...

I don't know and I don't care. I told him I love him and I wasn't lying about it, so if he wants to go off and be a scared bastard, let him.

Yesterday, Alex came over with K.J. and we hung out in his car. I hadn't seen Alex since July when he stopped by Old Navy while I was working. K.J. is pretty cool, but I kept thinking, "This is the straight guy that makes out with Alex" the whole time. K.J. found out I was ticklish and started using that, and I didn't want him to because Alex is in love with him, AND was sitting in the backseat.

I told him he should stop buy again sometime.

Bought "GUN" (extra cool western game for PS2) at Great Escape. It's renewed my love for cowboys. I think Brokeback Mountain faded it for awhile.

Dallas rides again.

Normally, I walk to Jason's locker with him, then we go to the lockers on the other side of his to see Neda, and hang out for a few minutes, then leave. Well, yesterday, I had to go because I had stuff to do before 4th. So I got my note from Neda, hugged her shoulders and said, "I gotta go, so I'll see you later, okay?" And as I was leaving, Jason grabbed my arm and whined "But Suuuuuusan." And gave me a really long hug.

I'm officially fucked.

-Susan

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Tuesday, February 6, 2007

   I did it. I said: "I don't know. I love you."

He's never going to talk to me again.

Non-emo tear...

-Susan

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   HURRY! COMMENT BEFORE 1:00PM!
Susan: Why is it i feel i can tell you anything?
Caleb: So -- are you going to tell me what you said you were going to?

Should I? Should I?! Is this my chance?

-Susan
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Monday, February 5, 2007

   Who likes the new "Eternal Sunshine" avatar I made?
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Fuck Forever... if you don't mind. (I love Babyshambles!)
YAY! It snowed on Friday and we got out of school.

I spent the weekend at Grandma's again. It's getting to be routine. My weekends are getting shot to hell.

“You’ll come back a broken man.”
“Yeah. Back broken…from too much sex.”

I watched “Love Actually” last night, again (the quote is from the movie). It’s a good movie. I have a shirt for it that I found at the thrift store. Luck, purely and truly, is how I came about it there. I love this movie. It has a GREAT line-up of GREAT actors and actresses, including Blackadder himself, Rowan Atkinson (the world less informed may now him as Mr. Bean.)

I can’t wait until Lisa and I move to England. We’ve decided after seeing “Bedazzled” (the 1967 movie, THE ORIGNIAL ONE by comic geniuses Peter Cook and Dudley Moore, not the one from 2000, or whatever) that we’re going to England to find our own Pete and Dud in the form of attractive young English men. I think American boys aren’t what I need. I need another nationality. It’s not that I’m xenophobic, God forbid. I love America, but I need to look outside her borders for the guy I’m looking for.

Four years in Canada. Does that count as a different nationality? Am I working on false hope that maybe someday in the future, I’ll be with him? And why do I want to be with him so badly? Why do I feel that, yes, we are meant to be together, but, as my horoscope said, something is pulling us apart?

As Babyshambles says: “Yes, I’m in love with a feeling.” Or so it would seem.

Today, Jason was hugging me around the shoulders. Earlier he had put a green paint stain on the side of my favorite pair of jeans. He’d just gotten me to stop being made at me.

J: I’m sorry. I’m a guy. I don’t understand things like that.
S: Whatever.
J: Really. I mean it. I’m sorry, Susan.
S: It’s okay.
[And then a bit later, this happened.]
J: I love you, Susan.
S: No you don’t.
J: Yes. I do. I love you.
S: *unconvinced* Right.
J: I love you. I mean it in about… 13 different ways.
S: 13? What are these 13?
J: … I don’t know.
S: Then why would you say that?
J: … I don’t know.

And then he kissed my neck. It’s nice to hear someone say that, but I wish it were Caleb, and not Jason.

-Susan, the good times are killing me

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Thursday, February 1, 2007

552 hits. YAY!


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