Monday, June 11, 2007

   Might be my last post for awhile...

What the subject says. This may be my last post for quit awhile. My mom and my stepdad got in a HUGE fight today, and he got so mad that he cancelled the credit card he gave us. So now we have vurtually no money. The motel for tomorrow is paid for though. On Tuesday, I guess we'll be sleeping in the car. For how long, I have no idea. I just worry about food, and all that junk. My dad shorted us $100 last week on child support, and he hasn't even paid it this week. They were supposed to be taking is straight out of his check, but I don't know. I'm sorry, but my dad's an inconsiderate asshole. He has no idea how hard we have it, he can't even pick up the phone to call us anymore. We always have to call him. And half the time we call him, he doesn't answer. *sigh* It seems like whenever things start to turn up, they just fall right back down. I think that these are the worst times we've had in the past five years. I'm pretty confident that we'll get through this, how though, I have no freakin' idea. XD I always tell myself that the glass is half full, not half empty. :) Or at least, I try to. I guess that I'm not spending my life the way that I should if I'm just hating it all of the time, so I just try to enjoy things, you know? On another note, sorry I haven't been able to get to most of your sites. The past couple of days I've been busy trying to get all of this crap packed up for tomorrow. My uncle Mark had our car towed to his house, so he and his brother can work on fixing the brakes tomorrow. He's going to pick us up tomorrow around check-out time and load up our stuff and take it to his house, where we'll try to fit it in the car. Ugh, why is my life so complicated? Lol. The thing that bothers me most is that, I've had to mature so quickly. At least I think that I've matured quickly. I think that I'm way too experienced with life for thirteen,... I guess... If I could go get a job, or anything to help out more than I already do, I would, but I'm too young. V__V I just try to help out with what I can, help my mom with anything she needs, call the hospital when she's deathly sick, remind her to take her medicine, rub her when she feels sick, but I just don't feel like I do enough, like I'm selfish or something,... But then again, I don't have the highest self-esteem. x3 But, everything will work out the way that God intended it to. :) Sorry for the rant... XD On a lighter note, I'm gonna upload a picture right after I get done typing. I don't know if it'll be up by the time that anyone reads this though. Comments are luffed, if you feel like it. :3 Oh, and the police haven't tracked me down yet, so maybe they'll call my mom and rescedule. XD I'm hoping. Well, I'll end here, you're probably tired of my long posts. XD I'll try to get on as often as I can, like going to the library and getting on. Sorry to everyone who's holding contests that I might not have the time to participate in. I feel terrible about that. -____- Well, I'll talk to everyone later, take care. :)

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Saturday, June 9, 2007

   Oh my god....

Ok... So.. You know how I was supposed to go to court today?(well, yesterday, it's like 3 A.M. where I am) Well, I was so nervous, that I didn't sleep at all. Somehow I KNEW that something was going to happen. As soon as we get out to our car to leave the motel, my mom get's in the car, we back out, and when she gets to the stoplight, her brakes don't work. And we almost smashed into another car. So she called the court and said that we couldn't make it, but they didn't answer. I'm just debating on the fact of whether they put another warrent out for my arrest, or if they've resceduled. I REALLY don't want to go back to juvy. I was in tears when I found out that we couldn't make it, and my mom was a nervous damn wreck. I have no idea how we're even going to get to the next motel on sunday, we're in this one 'till tomorrow. God, it sucks living in a motel. After monday, we'll have no money left, so I guess we'll be staying the car a couple of days. My stepdad said that we could live with him in Chicago, but I really don't wanna go there. And my mom wants to move to Indiana (a good spot between Ohio and Illinois) but I REALLY don't want to move... Not yet. But, I guess that we'll make it... We always do somehow. I'm just worried about my dog, most cheap motels don't let dogs in, and she's nearly 15 years old, I'm not letting her go. I don't care if I have to live on the steet with her. She's practically my sister, I've had her since I was born. Even if we stay in our car, I'll just be thankful that I wouldn't be alone I guess. :) I don't know if I'll be able to get on the internet often after tomorrow... so I'm sorry if I can't update for awhile. -_- Just.. not on the best of times right now, but I'll try to keep my head up. You could laugh or cry... and I guess that I choose to laugh. :3 Most of the time. :l So, how's everyone else doing? Better than me I hope. XD Well, wish me luck on not gettin' arrested. XD Talk to everyone later, feel free to pm me, or anything if you want to talk. ^___^

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Thursday, June 7, 2007

   Helllooooooo :3

Howdy thur everyone. :3 I uploaded a picture earlier, if anyone's interested in looking. I'm pretty proud of it. ^_____^ Not too happy though, because I have to go back to court tomorrow. :l My truency charges are still pending. -____- Hopefully they won't sentence me with anything too bad. They'll probably assign me community service. I think that the judge feels bad though, for when they sent me to juvy and I had to spend the night there, for really no reason at all. -___- God, juvy sucks. Just be good, you DO NOT want to go there. It sucks ass. The schools food is like red lobster compared to juvy food. You have NO IDEA how valuable your freedom is until you've lost it. -____- But whatever, I'm not gonna worry, or I'm gonna try not to, but I probably will. :l Gah... I might do some more art later, I was doing a Kiba picture in oekaki, but the oekaki ate it, and I didn't save a screenshot. :P Ah, well. Nothing really else to talk about. -_- DemonHeart's amv request is below this post in the quiz results section. :3 Well, buy-byes everyone. ^_^

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Wednesday, June 6, 2007

   rreeequessst dooneeeee :3333

Mood:Fine Listening to:Gravity-Yoko Kanno Helloooo everyone. :l How is ya? Good? Bad? Feel free to tell me. :3 I'm currently working on a picture on oekaki of Kiba. :33 I'm having like withdrawls, because I haven't really drawn him lately. XDD Nothing to do around hereeeee. XP I can't go outside, because... well, we're in a motel, so yeah. :l I've been on the computer ALL FREAKIN' DAY. XP But, Youtube is nature's cure for boredom!! >:D X3 Requests for AMVs are still open, and so are trades for art. XD Got request done for DemonHeart. :3 Hope you like it! Well, I'll talk to everyone laterz, buh-bye, I'm off to visit yur sites. :3 Anime:Wolf's Rain Song:Breath Artist:Breaking Benjamin

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Monday, June 4, 2007

   SCAAANNNNNEEERRR ART DUMP!! :DDD

Yep, yep, went over to my dad's house, and my aunt finally got a scanner, so I got to upload some of my art. Not all of it though, I left some of it at the motel. :P Comments are luffed. :333 If you want to. Not really much else to talk about. My mom and my stepdad are fighting over the internet, and over the phone, so I might go sit outside later. :P She's mad because he went all the way back to Chicago just to see a baseball game. XP But whatever. Most of the time, Me and my brother are more mature than both of them put together lol. XD How's everyone doin'? Good I hope. :33 Oohh, I made another AMV earlier, took about 3-4 hours, I guess, because WMM, wanted to be a little bizatch, and I had to restart the computer many a times. o.O If anyone has a request for an AMV with Wolf's Rain, (because that's all I have at the moment XD) request away. If you watch, I will luff you forever. :33 And yes... with Thrice again. :P Anime:Wolf's Rain Song:Of Dust and Nations Artist:Thrice

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Sunday, June 3, 2007

   :333

Mood:Content Listening to:Of Dust and Nations-Thrice Hello everyone, how are you doing? I finally uploaded some art earlier. :3 I uploaded my part of the trade with Blacky, and a couple of others. Somethin' special is in there for Blue. X333 Tis a gift. :) Anywho, still at the motel alone with my brother. My aunt Shiela came by earlier to give my brother and I money, so we could go get some food. My mom said that she might be out of the hospital by tomorrow. ^_^ I'll be happy when I see her, I miss her so much. :3 It's so much harder to deal with it, when my dad will hardly even come see me anymore. :/ Oh, and we FINALLY started getting child support. They contacted his supervisor, and forced it out of his check. But, they said that he owes so much, he's going to have to pay extra for nearly two years to pay it off. But, ah well, at least we've got some sort of income now, neh? ^_^ I might make an AMV later... I don't know. I downloaded a trial of oc (Open Canvas) But it's acting all funky, and so is my tablet. :/ So I may or may not draw some more later. I want my digital camera to wooorrrrkkkkk. X( **kicks camera**... **kicks space where scanner would sit if I had one** XDD Oh, I changed my music, sorry Ace, I know that you liked my other song. XDDD Anybody like Thrice? That's like, my favorite band in the world... You ever listen to music so moving, that it gives you goosebumps? God, I love their music. ^.^ Maybe I'm wierd, well, I KNOW that I'm wierd. Being normal is overrated. XDD Well, I'll stop blabbering now, bye guys. ;D

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Thursday, May 31, 2007

   LAAASSSTTT DAAYYY OFFF SCCHOOOOLLLL!!! :DDD

Mood:Content Listening to:Set Fire to the Third Bar-Snow Patrol Hiya, everyone, guess what day it is? THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! XDDD Well, for me that is... I'm really happy, but sad at the same time, it's like in the middle of the year, you can't wait for the end, but once you get to the end, you realize that you're going to miss it more than you thought that you would. :/ My last year of Junior High, so I'm going to High School next year, really nervous. ^^' Time just passes so DAMN fast, doesn't it? I feel like yesterday was the first day of 8th grade. :( I'm not going to fret about High School though, I'll cross that bridge when I get over it. :/ I prefer just to live in the present, not the future. People tell you to, look to the future, but, if you're always doing that your entire life, then when do you get to be happy where you are? I don't believe that you should be focused on the future so much that it ruins the present... Sorry for the random deepness. O.o Just WOW, I really can't believe that the year's already over. T_T I'm gonna miss my friends, half of them are moving away. -_- But anyways, not much of the happiest camper right now. My mom's been feeling really sick lately, and since she's diabetic, her blood sugar went up, to about 600. O.O That's really high. About 11:30 last night, she almost threw up, (and when she starts she can't stop, due to her stomach disease, Gastro Peresice) so I told her to call an ambulance, but she said that she didn't want to, because she didn't know where we were gonna go. She called my stepdad, and he drove all the way from Chicago to get us to school the next morning. So, when she went into the hospital, they decided to keep her, and now she's on insolin drip. That's how uncontrollable her blood sugar is, she has to be insolin constantly. :/ But, I guess I should be lucky it's not worse than that. I'll call and talk to her later, right now she probably needs to rest. I'm at the motel right now, with my little brother, and my stepdad. I feel like this summer is going to be another long ass, boring one. -_- Oh, and that person never messaged me back... bastard. I guess you guys were right, some retard just trying to piss me off. -_- But, thanks for your support, I really appreciate it. :) Oh, and Blacky, hopefully I'll have your pic up by today. :3 I had to start from scratch, because the oekaki I was working on and froze up, probably because my tablet was acting all funky. O.o I redid it on paint.net, and I'm about halfway through the base coloring, so I should be done soon.(considering I have no real curfue tonight XD) ;) Thanks again for your end of the trade, it was great. ^_^ How is everyone doing? Feel free to tell me. :) Talk to ya laters, I'm off to visit sites! **dramatic music**

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Tuesday, May 29, 2007

   O.o......

Yeah, hello everybodies. First, I really want to get this off of my chest. There has been this bastard messaging me lately, saying that everything I type in my post is a lie, and that I'm just feeling sorry for myself. O.o They're also saying that they see me everyday and know who I am. I asked them what school I go to, but I haven't heard back from them yet. Their name is Cherokee5662. Their profile is turned off though, so the only way I can tell their dumbass off, is through private message. -_- Who the hell would waste their damn time, typing some bogus story up on the internet? Do they really think that I'm so attention depraved that I need to lie to get attention? That pisses me off, I so wish that I knew who that person is, because I really wanna kick their ass. I wish to God, that they could come live in my shoes for one damn day, they wouldn't know how the fuck to handle it. T_T That just makes me mad. And I don't feel sorry for myself, I try to look at the posotive things in my life, like the fact that I do have a roof over my head and food on the table, I know that there are MANY people who don't even have that, and I'm thankful. There are people out there starving to death, and people who live in boxes, and then there are those people who don't have the boxes... The only reason that I really rant on here, is because I really have noone else to talk to. I don't really have that many friends, and my family doesn't want to listen to it. But, I know that things will eventually get better, I don't feel sorry for myself in any way, shape or form. **smacks person in face** Sorry for the long-ass rant, guys. -_- I just... it helps for me to get things out, and I guess it's sad that the only people I can really talk to are people I've never really met, lol. But, I'm glad that you all support me, and stuff, thank you. :) Soon I really want to draw a thank you pic for everyone who supports me and stuff. ^_^ But for now, I really just need to get off of my lazy ass, and do something productive, like gettin' my trade with BT done. XD Well, take care everyone, and thank you for taking the time to read my post. :)

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

   **kills subject bar**

Mood:Bored Listening to:Atreyu-Ex's and Oh's Hello everyone, how y'all doin'? :B I'm feeling a little bit better today, I guess. My mom and my stepdad are fighting over the phone right now though. -_- My mom's gonna try to go get Green Met. tomorrow, (a welfare service to help pay for a home) I don't know if they'll give it to her though, even though we really need it. They wouldn't even let her get cash assistance, because the amount of child support we get is too high, even though my dumbass dad doesn't even pay it anyway. Go figure. Oh, I saw him yesterday, but I think he was mad, because I wouldn't really talk to him, not like I ever did anyway, but feh. If they don't give her the Green Met., I don't know where the hell we're gonna go after we can't pay for the motel anymore. V_V But, I guess we'll survive. We always do somehow. My mom's family is fighting and crap right now, so they don't want us to stay with them. That night we stayed at my uncle Scott's house, my Grandpa got pissed, because he wants us out on the streets. My family is just so nice isn't it? T_T Well, anyway, almost done with the trade I'm doin'. Got it saved on oekaki, and I think I'll start back on it in a little while. Oh, I made an AMV. :3 It took about,.. maybe 4 -5 hours. O.o And it took forever to download all of the damn episodes. Please watch it, and tell me what if you think, if you want to. ^_^ Talk to everyone later. Anime: Wolf's Rain Music: Thrice-Music Box

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Saturday, May 26, 2007

   :/

Mood:So, so. Listening to:City of Devils-Yellowcard Hi, everybody, sorry I haven't updated in a couple of days. I was gonna go over to my friend, Natalie's house, but I don't know if my dad's picking me up today or not. The bastard probably won't knowing him. I haven't seen him in three weeks, and I highly doubt that I'll even see him next week at all. T_T There's nothing to do here, my stepdad went back to Chicago today, which I'm kinda glad, he's kind of clingy. :/ But, he'll be back in a few weeks. He treats my mom good, in fact, if he hadn't come along, I don't know where the hell we'd be, seeing presently we have virtually no home, he paid for the motel we're staying in. Sometimes I wonder when all of this shit will stop. What did I do? Heh, sometimes I just wonder. But I guess that I'm kind of happy about going through all of this crap, part of it anyway. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, neh? Hmm, sorry for my complaining, and such. I've really noone to talk to here, most of my friends aren't really good friends at all. I guess I'm a loser, or a freak or something. XP I gotta start on my trade with Blacky soon. I'm probably going to do it on oekaki, if that's ok with her, I'd use GIMP but, I'm not in the mood to, so I guess I'm off to NeonDragonArt. :3 Well, I'll talk to ya laters. ^_~

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