Friday, August 18, 2006

   Back home....

Well, I'm back in this hell of a home again. I have made a conclusion... I HATE HOSPITALS... IF YOU LIVE IN OHIO, DO NOT, I REPEAT DO NOT GO TO MIAMI VALLEY HOSPITAL!!!!! Sorry... When my mom went there this last time, the doctors wanted to be asses. My mom kept complaining about the pain in her legs, and feet, and they wouldn't do anything for her. She has diabetes, and that could have been an effect of the diabetes. We called the hospital, after we got to my aunt's house, and they said that she had been released from the hospital. I asked the woman on the phone if she had been picked up yet, and she said that she didn't know. I asked her if she could check, and she hung up on me. We called back to speak with a man named Ronnie (my uncle, he works there) and they transferred the call to the wrong place. We called back again, and they transferred us to the wrong place again! XP Well, anyway, my aunt and uncle went up there, and they picked her up, and brought her back to their house. We stayed the night there. The next day we got back to our house, where I am now. She's not doped up anymore, but she's in a crap load of pain. She can barely sit down, or stand up, because of the urinary track infection, that the doctors didn't treat her for either. Sometimes I wander if those people got their doctor's degree or whatever out of a cereal box or somethin -_- I don't know what to do now, cuz school starts tuesday, and I really don't wanna leave my mom here alone... Sometimes I really do wander if I'll ever really be happy.... Well, I guess that I gotta look at the glass at half full, not half empty. I'll get those pictures scanned, and submitted as soon as possible. I'm just going through a lot right now, and I'm just mentally exhausted. I'm sorry that you all have to wait so long -_- I'm gonna end it here, hope that all of your days went better than mine did. Bye everybody **howls**

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

   ......... 911

Well, things just keep gettin' worse... I found out that my mom had taken a total of 10 pills, cuz she found them after I hid them. She had just gotten them about 36 hours ago. She's only supposed to take 3 a day, and she took 10 in a matter of a day and a half. Then she got really bad. She couldn't walk, she could barely stay awake, and was just acting funny. So I called my aunt to come and get us. But my uncle was at work, and she doesn't drive. So I called my mom's friend Lisa. (she's practically my aunt too) But she wasn't home either, so she called her friend sharon, who lives in front of them. I called 911, and after the ambulance left, we went over to Sharon's house. About 15 minutes later, Lisa picked us up, and I'm typing this at her house. As soon as my uncle gets home, my aunt is gonna come get us. What a life huh? Well, I guess it isn't that bad. At least I have a roof over my head, and people to go to when these things happen. It could be a lot worse I guess. All of you made me think about the posotive things, so I thank you all for that. Maybe my mom will be better after she gets out of the hospital. I'm gonna have to talk to her doctor myself and tell him not to give her those pills. They're just makin' her worse. Thank you all for listening,.... or reading, whatever. Maybe things will turn up for me.... I'll end it here, kinda long... Thanks again everyone. **howls**

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

   Why?

....Well, not too happy right now... More like severely depressed. My mom got those f**cking pills again... and she took more than she was supposed to... So she's all doped up again. Acting like an idiot. Its like I'm the adult, and she's the kid. I still just wish that my dad was still here. I'm holding all of this on my shoulders. I'm really just afraid for my brother right now. Ever since my life changed and all 4 years ago, we've only had each other. He's only 10. He doesn't need to see his own mom act like that. I'm used to it and stuff, so I can handle it better I guess. Every day he always asks me if its ever gonna get better for us.... and sometimes I can't even answer him. I haven't slept in about 2 1/2 days now. And I don't even feel very tired. Just exhausted. Not like aching exhaustion. More like that exhaustion of just everything. I lie awake about every night wandering about what we're gonna eat the next day. I don't really care about myself, I'm just worried about my bro. She took some more of those damn pills..... so I hid them from her. I know that it probably wasn't the right thing to do, but I did. Its just so scary.... seeing your own mom like that. Everyone I know says that I need pro. help for my depression, but I just don't really care anymore. I don't think that I'm ever gonna be truly happy in this hell of a world. Even though my dad is a jerk, I think that it would be better if we went and lived with him. But, I can't do that to my mom. It would kill her if she lost us. I'm always afraid, she's gonna take too many of those pills one day, and she's gonna go to sleep... and never wake up. I'm so sorry that this post is so long, I just don't have much of anyone to talk to. I'm sure that you all don't want to hear my sob story. Btw, I'll have all of the requests up soon. I'm just going through a lot right now, and I don't know when they'll be done. **howls goodbye**

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

   Wallpapers

Ggrrrrrr..... I want to upload my wallpaper that I made, but it won't let me. I submit it, and it says that it will be up in approximately 48 hours, but it never shows up! I've tried 5 times. Could someone plz help me out? Or give me some tips? **growls at wallpaper uploader**

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Tuesday, August 8, 2006

   Requests!!!!!

YES! I finally got them up. Thank god. I don't think that they're up yet, but they will be soon. For DemonHeart, Dark Wolf 14, And Dark Wolf Toboe, I worked really hard on yours, cuz I think that you had to wait the longest. Well, I'm gonna go PM everyone. Bye **howls**

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Monday, August 7, 2006

   Requests

Hey, everyone, I am happy to say that the requests should be up by tomorrow. A TimeWarnerCable guy is gonna come over tomorrow and turn our internet back on. It'll be a huge relief to get them up. I'm sorry that you all had to wait so long -_- I couldn't find anyone who had a scanner. And I'm still taking requests. Anywho, we should be getting a check tomorrow from my worthless dad. Jerk finally started paying his child support right. My mom's been doing pretty good too. She's just been worried about paying the rent and getting food and stuff. She's really paranoid. Our landlord is an old guy, and he doesn't care for kids much. He gives us nothing to do in this trailer park, he took away our basketball hoops, our football field, and he doesn't let us go in the woods, even though we do anyway. We all got in huge trouble a while ago. We went in the back of the trailer park, and messed up this treehouse. We broke out the window, burned the curtains, broke out one of the walls, burned the mattress that was in there. And we broke the table. Though the landlord never found out that my brother, my friend cristian, my friend derek, and me did it. He just punished everyone. Well I'm gonna end the post here. Talk to everyone later. **howls**

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Sunday, August 6, 2006

   Hello....

I saw this on a lot of people's sites so I thought that I would put it on mine... 1. WHO ARE YOU?(user name) 2. ARE WE FRIENDS ALREADY? 3. DO YOU LIKE MY SITE? 4. DO YOU LIKE MY WALLPAPERS? 5. WHAT ANIME ON MY LIST DO YOU AGREE WITH?(which one do you like... that I like) 6. GIVE ME A NICKNAME AND EXPLAIN WHY YOU PICKED IT. 7. DESCRIBE ME IN ONE WORD. 8. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST IMPRESSION OF ME? 9. DO YOU STILL THINK THAT WAY OF ME NOW? 10. AM I A GOOD FRIEND? 11. IF YOU COULD GIVE ME ANYTHING, WHAT WOULD IT BE? 12. HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME? 13. WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? 14. DO YOU THINK IM NICE? 15. DO YOU THINK IM JUDGEMENTAL? 16. ARE YOU GOING TO PUT THIS ON YOUR SITE AND SEE WHAT I SAY ABOUT YOU?

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Saturday, August 5, 2006

   Sorry everyone......

I am so sorry everyone about the requests and such. I have them all done, but my internet is down, cuz we couldn't pay the bill. T__T I'm over at my friend's house now, making this post, and he doesn't have a scanner -__- Well, what's going on with me lately? My dad still hadn't payed any of his child support. But then one day, I brought it up to him, and he said he had payed it. (which I knew that he was lying) But doesn't it seem funny that there seemed to be over $400 on the card the very next day? Looks like he hurried his ass up to pay it, cuz my mom was gonna file a lawsuit against him. So that's going good. But one other thing. I've been a bit more depressed than usual lately, because I found out that my boyfriend was screwing around on me with my best friend. So I broke up with him. Guess what? Now they're going out. Guess its hard to find really good friends nowadays. Well, I'm gonna end it here... kinda long post. Talk to you all later. **howls**

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Monday, July 31, 2006

   Requests and my life

Well, there are a lot of things I have to do. So all of the pictures may be a little late. Sorry. I have to do pictures for Dark wolf 14, demonheart, dark wolf toboe. If you have any requests or anything of that matter, please tell me in your comment. Plus, I've been really busy around the house. My dad isn't paying his child support once again. We got one check, and I thought that he would be a man, and stand up to his responsibilities, but apparantly not. Our rent is due tomorrow, and I don't know how we're going to pay it. I think my mom's gonna go down to the pawn shop and pawn our PS2, and our camera. If that isn't enough, we might even have to pawn the laptop, so if I'm not on for a while please forgive me. My mom thinks that I need counciling, cuz she thinks that I'm severely depressed. I try to be happy sometimes, but deep down, I guess I'm just not a happy person. I'm sorry for cryin the blues to you everyone, if you all ever need someone to talk to, you know that I'm there for ya. I've sure talked to all enough. Well, I'm gonna end it here, this is kind of long, sorry. Bye eveyone. **howls**

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Saturday, July 22, 2006

   Better

Well, my Mom's feeling A LOT better now. She's back to her old self ^_^ And I'm glad. We got our first child support check today for about $400. My mom went out and bought us lunch, and bought my brother and I a cd. I got an evanescance cd. Anyway, when she went to the hospital they said that they thought that she may have had a heart attack, but they did some tests and they said that she didn't. But she has diabetes and now they said that she has a disease in her legs and feet (diabetic disease) that will eventually make them go numb. She eventually won't be able to walk, and when she heard she started crying. But I told her that I would be there for her no matter what. That I would always help her. I mean she gave birth to me. I think that things are finally turning up for me, my mom and my brother. Thanks everyone for being there, if you ever need me you know I'll be there if you need someone to talk to. ^_^ **howls**

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