Wednesday, July 19, 2006

   Back to the hospital

Well, my mom hasn't been taking the pills anymore, lately. But now she feels even worse. She fell into the tv and almost broke it. And the one computer that has photoshop on it, she fell on and the screen cracked. Well, I guess this is a little better, because of the fact that she acually knows that she is messed up right now. She's about to call the hospital to come out to get her now. She called my aunt and uncle to come over, but they couldn't, because my uncle has to work tomorrow. Which I don't see why he couldn't miss one day, but anyway, my brother's best friend Tyler's family is gonna check up on us later. So I guess that my brother and I will be alone tonight *sigh* I hope that they don't keep her too long. I don't know how long I can last with my brother without busting his face lol jk. My doggy is here though, and she's one of my best friends, She'll keep us company. Here's a picture of her (her name is Burl) Sorry, they're hard to see... I had to take them with a crappy camera. Anyway, I'm kinda glad that my mom is going to the hospital, that way, she'll be safe for the night. Well, I'm gonna go now. My bubby wants to get on the computer. Talk to you all later. **howls**

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

   Its always just one blow after another......

Well, I thought things were going good for me. And everytime I do get some happiness into my life, it gets taken away from me. Sorry, guys I haven't been on for the weekend. THis is why. First of all, my mother has to take a very addicting medicine called Zanax. A couple of weeks ago, she ran out of her perscription, and had to go without them. Then on friday, she got her refill, but she hadn't taken them for a while, so I knew that they would effect her worse than usual. She's supposed to take 1 pill at a time, 3 times a day. I think that she read the bottle wrong and she took 3 pills at once. She instantly fell alsleep 15 minutes later. My aunt and uncle were there, so they gave me their number just incase I needed them. The next morning, my mom was acting abnormal from the pills. She could barely walk and she was slurring her words so bad, that I could barely understand her. She wasn't in her right mind and she was acting crazy. I threatened her that I would have to call 911 if she wasn't better by the morning. And I told her not to take any more of the pills. She finally fell asleep around 4:30 am, and my brother and I went to bed. Then she woke up around 5:00 am, and she fell down and my brother and I had to help her up. Then out of nowhere, she took 4 of her pills(which is more than a whole days dose) Me and my brother were in tears, scared to death. (my brother is only 10) I called 911. When the paramedics got there, they told me that I did the right thing even though my mom was yelling and cussing at me for calling them. Then a police officer stayed with us, until my aunt sheila showed up and picked us up. We stayed the night there. I also had to talk to a counceler about if I thought that my mom was suicidal. I said that she wasn't, that when she took the 4 pills, she didn't know what she was doing. Well, I'm back home with her, and she is still kind of drowsy, but better. Sometimes I wish that my mom and dad were still together. If my dad were here, I wouldn't have to carry all of this on my shoulders. Sometimes I get scared, that my mom is going to go to sleep and never wake up. But my brother and I are pretty much all we got, so we've bonded eversince my mom got sick. Sometimes, I think that god doesn't hear me, but then I think that he is just testing my faith. I just wish that I could be a kid again. I mean, I'm only 12 and I had to grow up at the age of nearly 9. Well, I'm gonna end it here, this is a long post. I don't blame you all if you don't want to read it. Well bye.

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

   happier

Hey, if anybody's wandering why I haven't been using photoshop lately, is because, we have two computers. And the computer that photoshop is on messed up and now I can't use it. Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know that I'm feeling a little better. My Aunt sherry called my mom and convinced her to talk to my grandpa. They made up and last weekend, we went up to their cabin in northern ohio. My mom made up with all of our relatives and I got to meet some of my cousin's that I never met before. We let off fireworks (this was considered a late 4th of july celebration) and we got to ride on some ATV's with my uncle scott and cousin Brett. My dad is now visiting me and my brother, and is paying his child support. I'm not feeling as depressed, but I'm still a little sad that I don't have a mom and dad anymore. I have a mom living here and a dad there. Thanks everyone for visiting my site and for being there. I wish you all luck on the contest coming up. ^_^

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Monday, July 10, 2006

   Depressed on the 4th of July

Excuse me everyone if I'm in kind of a depressed mood... 4 years ago, my mom had a surgery called a historectimy (can't spell) and she got sick from it. She's been in and out of the hospital ever since. Then June of last year, my grandmother died and my life fell apart. My grandfather was our landlord and he kicked us out of our house. Then we stayed in a motel. My mom got in a fight with all of her family and I wasn't able to see them. Then we moved to a trailer park. (which sucks) Now, my parents are getting divorced and my dad abandoned us. He isn't paying his child support, and they cancelled my mom's social security. Now we have no income, and I don't know how we are going to pay our rent. Anyway, I don't think that anyone is going to read this anyway. So I don't know why I even typed it. Well I hope that everyone had a good 4th of july. **howls**

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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

   artwork

I submitted some new artwork today. I don't know if it is up yet though. I did 3 of them. One, I did in photoshop and is Inuyasha. It shows Inuyasha protecting Kagome from danger. The second one is Fullmetal Alchemist and has the Chimera (from episode 6, night of the chimera's cry)standing and Ed's face in the background, crying. I cry everytime I see that episode. The third fanart is Eureka 7 and has Eureka and Renton sitting together. They make such a cute couple! Anyway, i hope that you will enjoy them.

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

The all american rejects- move along

Awesome song MySpace Codes The All-American Rejects Myspace Layouts CrushSpace.com - You Got Crush On Someone? The All-American Rejects Lyrics The All-American Rejects Music Video Codes Music Video Codes By VideoRoll

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Saturday, May 6, 2006

Maes Hughes

For those people out there who love Maes Hughes from FMA I'm going to do some fan art of him. I feel sorry for all of the people who saw the episode where he dies, when I saw that episode I cried for like an hour. Maes Hughes is my favorite character, so my heart broke.(Sorry, I really get caught up in the anime) Anyway, I hope that you'll like it!

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Thursday, May 4, 2006

   Fan Art.....Again

Well, I've beem working with photoshop and I really haven't gotten any better..., but I'm working at it. I gonna be posting new fanarts of wolves of course, but I'm also going to do some fanart of Fullmetal Alchemist and Inuyasha soon. I hope you're looking forward to it!

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Sunday, April 30, 2006

   Fanart

Just for anybody who likes my artwork, I have a new pic on my site. It's called The Song of the Moon. It has Inferno in it and it was my first attempt in photoshop, so don't laugh at it please. I can't find the retarded line tool......

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