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• In the darkness of the world, trying to find the light of paradise....
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• 2006-04-14
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• Trying to survive living in this dark cold world........
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myOtaku.com: Inferno Wolf
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Why?
....Well, not too happy right now...
More like severely depressed.
My mom got those f**cking pills again... and she took more than she was supposed to...
So she's all doped up again. Acting like an idiot. Its like I'm the adult, and she's the kid.
I still just wish that my dad was still here. I'm holding all of this on my shoulders. I'm really just afraid for my brother right now. Ever since my life changed and all 4 years ago, we've only had each other. He's only 10. He doesn't need to see his own mom act like that. I'm used to it and stuff, so I can handle it better I guess. Every day he always asks me if its ever gonna get better for us.... and sometimes I can't even answer him.
I haven't slept in about 2 1/2 days now. And I don't even feel very tired. Just exhausted. Not like aching exhaustion. More like that exhaustion of just everything. I lie awake about every night wandering about what we're gonna eat the next day. I don't really care about myself, I'm just worried about my bro.
She took some more of those damn pills..... so I hid them from her. I know that it probably wasn't the right thing to do, but I did.
Its just so scary.... seeing your own mom like that. Everyone I know says that I need pro. help for my depression, but I just don't really care anymore. I don't think that I'm ever gonna be truly happy in this hell of a world.
Even though my dad is a jerk, I think that it would be better if we went and lived with him. But, I can't do that to my mom. It would kill her if she lost us.
I'm always afraid, she's gonna take too many of those pills one day, and she's gonna go to sleep... and never wake up.
I'm so sorry that this post is so long, I just don't have much of anyone to talk to. I'm sure that you all don't want to hear my sob story.
Btw, I'll have all of the requests up soon. I'm just going through a lot right now, and I don't know when they'll be done.
**howls goodbye**
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