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Welcome to my site archives. 10 posts are listed per page.
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Sunday, June 17, 2007
AHHH I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!! i always wanna cry or throw something to get my anger out or scream or do something....somethimes i even wanna cut myelf it hurts so bad...and right now most of it is comeing from my mom.....i hate her.....i hate my life and im so confused which makes me cry even more.....i hate my mom and want her to die.....but i dont kno watd id do without her.....she had a boyfriend and hes ok but first off hes an idiot and i hate him only because helives with us and my life is completely out of wack b/c of him......i cant blast my music while my mom is at work b/c hes always sleeping.....he stay in my moms room all day and when my mom gets home she goes strait to her room.....the other day i made dinner for my mom....and him though mostly my mom....she kne i was making it too.....her bf was working outside that day....i had also cleaned all day the house was all clean...well my mom came home and was talking to him and put her purse down about to go over to him...and b/f she started talking to him i had told her dinner was done.....she didnt say anything...anyway when she went to go over to him i slammed the screen door and went in and layed on the living room floor.....she came in and asked "wat" i said nothing and she didnt buy it of course.....i kept saying nothing and she said no come on i came to u first.....and after she said that i wanted to cry and in my head was saying u only came to me first b/c i slammed the door other wise u wouldve completely forgotten about me once again......then id eat dinner by myslef again....oh and then later...and my mom still kne about dinner.....we went in town(cause we live in the country) and at about 8 go mcyd's(my mom gets home at 6:30) so eddie(my moms boyfriend) wins again and i did all i could not to cry while we were in the car on the way to town and my mom....she said the living room looks good...but i had wanted to show her all of it i was gonna show her my room cause shes always mad when i dont keep it clean and i had cleaned it and she didnt even notice till later when we got home.....god i hate my life i just......AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...i dont kno wat i want......i just want the pain to all go away.....but it wont.....ever
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Wednesday, June 6, 2007
in about a month im moving...yet im not moving far enough to go to a diff school....damn.....oh well.....a new house...and this time its ours(my mom bought the house) and shes gonna be paying it off the rest of her life......hope she lives long.....i wont be around then though.....cause as soon as i hit 18 im leaving....well as sonn as i hit 18 and graduate that is......but yea im moving....and for hollow eyes...the reason i am so dawon is cause i have 3 sites.....and no1 commets on anything.....i say im gonna delete all my sites and then myslef....noe says anything.....well put this on ur mind......wat if b/c no1 ever cpmmentsl......i actually do it one day.......i actually kill myself....wat will that do to u...probably nothing....no1 on here would probably ever notice...hollow eyes wat i just said doesnt apply to u b/c u r a great friend ur always there when im feeling like i just wanna die...the only problem is u always put urself down.....but u shouldnt....ur a great friend and im glad to call u my SIS!!!:) so none of this applies to u....well except for wat i just said about u of course......so anyway thats why im so down all the time.....even though schools out and the jerks r gone.......
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Tuesday, June 5, 2007
im to scared to do it...can someone please come to my house....blindfold me.....and shoot me...right in the head....please....please....yea i wish it was that easy
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Sunday, June 3, 2007
alright all my sites r gone and as soon as they r gone.....so am i!!!!!!!!!!! just try and stop me...u cant
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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
ok im bored and beomcing more loved...on the internet...that doesnt count....it helps.....but doesnt count....seriously though why is it the best of friends r the ones on the computer...i mean i have a best friend name lindsay who isnt only on the internet...i get to see her and she stays the night.....but other than her it all comoputer ppl...why is that??? anyone kno
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Sunday, May 20, 2007
 YAY
IM BACK.....WHO ACTUALLY CARES!!! WELL I MISSEDED U ALL NONE-THE-LESS!!!
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Wednesday, May 16, 2007
 i wont get to see u guys...........
well the ones who care anyway.....its 5 in the morning and im getting ready for this class trip thingy to dc(washington dc of ocurse) yea we had to pay for but.....im really nervous man...well anyway the reason im telling u is b/c i wont get to see u guys till late saturday or early sunday.....the ppl who care about me i wont get to see anyway...well im real excited and have to get ready so bye...i love u all who have been my friends:)
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007
heres the deal...
the thing below is a song not a poem.....superchick is a band.....
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Monday, May 14, 2007
suprechick- BEAUTY FROM PAIN
this is my favorite part from this song because its true in my life....its how i feel.....here it is
"The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know I'm alive
But I feel like I've died"
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Saturday, May 12, 2007
*sigh* why do i try anymore
ok.....so.........
*picks up a gun*
for those of u who r my friends.....im sry....but its kill the pain now or let it eat away at me till im dead inside.....so
*points the gun at my head*
for those of u who dont care....as in the ones who wont be reading this....i will just be one more loser who went mad because of the pain and commited suicide.........
*puts finger on the trigger*
so for all of u who r my friends whether u read this or not.........im so sry.....but the pain inside is too much.........so.........goodbye
.............*takes a deep breath and.........*
BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*the ringing ecoes as i hit the ground sprawled in a pool of my own blood....leaving all my friends behind and leaving the pain behind as well.....at last im free of pain and guilt and sorrow and suffering.......dont let this get to u.....dont let it interrupt ur lives.....forget about my pain........and about my face.....forget me and move on*
i wish getting away from the pain were as easy as doing wat i just said i did.....wat i wish i could do....but cant for fear of pain....and for fear of leaving the ones who truely care....even though the ones who dont care out number the ones who do.......by 10 to 1.....but still actually i dont kno why i dont do this....is it only because i have no gun???
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