Sunday, June 13, 2004

punk'd from someone's myO
Basics
Name:: Kathryn
Age:: 14
Height:: 5'4"
Hair Color:: Dirty blonde
Eye Color:: Grey Blue

School Life
What's your school's mascot?: Bulldog
School color(s)?: Blue and gold
G.P.A.?: 3. somthin.
Who is your favorite teacher?: Mr. Kollias
What do they teach?: music
Is this your favorite class?: yes
Academic-wise: Science
Overall: music

Internet
Do you use any instant messengers?: yes
If so, which ones?: AIM.
About how many hours a day do you spend online?: too many
Do you have a digital camera?: used too. My old one got stolen out of my dad's car in san diego
If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?: i look *horrible* in pictures

Music
Do you play any instruments?: yes
If so, what one(s)?: Violin, piano and several chords on the guitar
3 Favorite Genres Of Music: Eh... I hate the whole genre thing because everyone judges you on what genre you listen to. But anyways, punk, classical, just rock in general i guess
3 Favorite Bands:: Atreyu, AFI and Brand New
Do you go to concerts and/or shows?: No, I wish. My parents think im too young. (i probably am for some of the concerts I want to go to)
What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?: 0
What is the least you've ever spent?: 0
Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?: I dunno. Does it matter?
Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?: kinda...
Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29?: grammar?

Word Association
Blue:: funk
Camera:: film
Boy:: girl
Pretty:: hair
Pants:: fancy
Music:: cd
God:: wha?
Sweater:: ichy
Live Journal:: cassie claire
MTV:: TRL

Labels:
Do you think labels are dumb?: Kinda, let people be who they want to be, dot go around saying theyre this or that.
Why or why not?:see above
What do people label you as?: I dunno what they think.
How/Why did you get this label?: :shrugs:

Which Is Worse?
Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: emotional. Physical pain is easier to deal with. Emotional pain can come back and haunt you
Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: i dunno
Being Deaf/Being Blind?: bieng deaf. I don't function properly unless I have music pumped into my ears.
Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?: Rushing around. I have too much stress as it is. >.>
Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?: Arm, I need that arm to play the violin
Love
Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?: i dunno
Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?: I'm not sure. Both have their pros and cons
Are you romantic?: I dont know. I've never really had an oppertunity to.
Are you in a relationship now?: no
If not, how long have you been single?: 14 fucking years
What song describes your love life right now?: >.>

Ranomosity
War - Good or Bad?: bad
What do you think of designer labels?: big effin deal
Who's skankier - Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: Equally skanky
What is it with guys and cars?: i dunno?
Do you sing?: yes and I suck.
If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?: I have no clue
Kiss or hug?: It depends on how I feel
What color is your room?: White.
How old is your mom?: 50
Black and white or color photos?: it depends. I tend to perfer b+w nature photos (think Ansel Adams and Yosemite) And color portraits. But even then it depends
Who cuts your hair?: Gina at Studio 17
What color is your toothbrush?: pink and white
What color is your hair brush?: purple
What kind of hair products do you use?: shampoo, conditioner and de-tangling spray
Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?: I have no clue
Are you sexy?: no.
What color to people tells you looks nice on you?: Blue.
What color do you think looks nice on you?: blue.
Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?: clothes
Who do you sit with at lunch?: people
Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: not really. I think I sound like a freak.
Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: I know? ... Summer
What is the website for one of your favorite bands?: www.arteyurock.com
Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: Similar age/older
Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: Yes, all the time
Who was the last person you hung out with?: i can't remember
What did you and that person do?: I can't remember
Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?: not really, i perfer to type things out.
Are you a people-pleaser?: No.
Do you dye your hair regularly?: No, but if I could, I'd put blue or green or black or purple streaks in my hair
What about your eyebrows?: no. o.O
Do you wear makeup?: yeah
If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female?: yes >.>
Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?: unedited
Can you beatbox?: nope
Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast?: I have no clue
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Saturday, June 12, 2004

Meow.
Music: Atreyu- Lip Gloss and Black

The party last night was okay. The theme was “Pirates of the Caribbean.” Personally, I think its stupid to theme a dance after a movie. It’s not fair to assume that everyone has seen the movie and like it. Not saying that I didn’t see it or like it, in fact, I loved Pirates of the Caribbean. But I think it would be bad to go to the dance and see that the theme was a movie that you had never seen. It would be kinda annoying.

The decorations were very good. They had this big ship thing on the stage with this skeleton dude on it. They had a lot of glow-in-the dark stuff. Black lights and glow paint everywhere. They gave us glow in the dark bracelets and necklaces. There was that metallic-curtain stuff hanging from wires dividing the dance floor area from the food area. They had a lot of pirate stuff around. Cannons, treasure chests, pictures of mermaids, the whole nine yards. Outside they had a foosball table, 2 air-hockey tables and two ping-pong tables.

They played really bad music though. All rap and hip hop. >.>

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My riding lesson today was pretty good. Jumped two courses, and he didn’t refuse once! I had to wrap him because he did all that hard work.

Unfortunately, his owner is moving on July first to Pasa Robles. So he’s going to be leaving. :tear: But since I’m helping my trainer with her horses, I’ll have a horse to ride.

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I got a kitty!!! She’s black and white. I think I’m going to name her Emily. She’s so cute. My sister got a cat too. It’s got Siamese colors. She’s calling it Jasmine. Now we have four cats. If I can get a camera to work, I’ll take pictures. ^-^
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Friday, June 11, 2004

Arg.
Music: AFI- This Celluloid Dream

I'm feeling all shitty and depressed and I have no clue why.

Yesterday the 8th grade class went to Knott's Berry Farm. I hung out with some people I never really talk to and some good friends. It was fun-ish. I went on two rides, Montezooma's Revenge and Big Foot Rapids. I was just drained yesterday and I didn't feel like going on anything else.

Today was kinda cool though. The band went to an elementary school in our district to play for them, so more than half of my class was gone. We got to do two labs by ourselves. It was quite fun. Then was social studies. We had to correct tests, so we had to do two each (since the band-o's were still gone). Then we got to hang out for the rest of the class.

After that, we had practice for the promotion on next Tuesday. We were out in the sun for four hours. So now I have a headache and a sunburn. >.> Just in time for the *promotion party* tonight. It’s going to be kinda fun. I’m probably going to spend the whole time by myself though. And my mother is chaperoning the damn thing too. <.< They kept the theme secret from us, so we’re going to find out tonight. I hope they play decent music too. All the ever play is Chingy, Nelly, and “Err-sher�E(usher >.<)

Well anyways, there was a band in our cafeteria at lunch. A real band. Guitar, bass, drums, singer ect. They were playing in the quad. They were okay. I liked their music but their singer could have been better. The music its self was kinda un-balanced. The drums overpowered everything. Next was the first guitar and then the singer. You could barely hear the second guitar and you couldn’t hear the bass at all. Anyways, after they played, they said that they had a mailing list you could sign up for and they were going to give away free stuff. So my friend and I went up. And then a bunch of other kids came and pushed us around, like a big ocean of kids. So our vice principal got all pissed and said that they weren’t going to give away any free stuff. >.<

After school, I went to tower records to buy some cd’s. I got Atreyu’s Suicide notes and Butterfly Kisses. Good CD. I also got AFI’s Sing The Sorrow. Good cd too. I need more money for more cd’s.
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Wednesday, June 9, 2004

Hey everyone! Check this out!! [insert cheezy smile here]
Deja Entendu- Brand New
Sic Transit Gloria- Glory Fades

This is a totally kick-ass band and a totally kick-ass song. It's kinda hard to find, but its well worth the effort.

Sic Transit gloria-

Keep the noise low, she doesn't wanna blow it.
She stripped from head to toe and then left him with his shoulder out.
Go get your heartbeat.
It beats me straight into the ground.

You don't recover from a night like this.
Our victim, still lying in bed, completely motionless.
A hand moves in the dark to her zipper.
And a boy best in tourniquet sheets barely whispers,

"This is so messed up."

Upon arrival the guests had all stared.
Dripping wet and clearly depressed, he'd headed straight for the stairs.
No longer cool, but a boy in a stitch,
unprepared for a life filled with lies and failing relationships.
(Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing up.)
He keeps his hands low, he doesn't wanna blow it.
He's wet from head to toe and his eyes give her the up and the down.
His stomach turns and he thinks of throwing up.
Get the body on the bed like it's flowered and he starts going down.

The people, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to settle.

Die young and save yourself.

They take all the taste out.
It used to be the reason that we're even, now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

She hits the lights.
This doesn't seem quite fair.
Despite everything he learned from his friends,
he doesn't feel so prepared.
She's breathing quiet and smooth, he's gasping for air.
"This is the first and last time", he said.
She fakes a smile and presses her hips into his.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He's holding back from telling her exactly what it really feels like.

He is the lamb, she is the slaughter.
She's moving way too fast
and all he wanted was to hold her.
Nothing that he touches is really having an effect.
He whispers that he loves her, but she's probably only looking for...
(Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing old.)
So much more than he could ever give.
A life full of lies and failing relationships.
He keeps his hands pinned down at his sides.
He waits for it to end and for the aching in his guts to subside.
The people, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to settle.

Die young and save yourself.
They take all the taste out.
It used to be the reason that we're even,
now it's choking me up.
Die young and save yourself.

Up the stairs, the station where the act becomes the art of growing old.
The people, the focus.
The reasons that I had to believe you weren't too hard to settle.
Die young and save yourself.
They take all the taste out.
It used to be the reason that we're even,
now it's choking me up.

Die young and save yourself.


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Look into stalker refrences in the following...
Music: The Darkness- I Believe in a Thing Called Love

I’m going to Knott’s tomorrow with the 8th grade class. It's going to be so much fun. Even though I’m probably going to spend the whole time wandering around by myself, like last time. I think I might get a henna tattoo done. On my back or something. But it cant be any where visible because I don’t know if I’m allowed to have them at school. Not like it matters though. There’s only 5 school days left. And nobody noticed the last time I had one. So maybe I’ll just take my chances.

Well anyways, I got my dress checked for promotion. Its black with bright pink flowers on it and its made out of this light fabric. It has spaghetti straps and it goes down to my knees. I might post a picture if I get a good one. It almost didn’t pass because the vice principal forgot that we were aloud to have spaghetti straps. Goddamn clothes nazi. >.> But she checked the paper, and it passed. So I’m happy. I don’t have a date though. No surprise though. So I’ll just go by myself and chill with my friends.

Today I took three tests. The first one was math, then science and finally social studies. On the math test I got a C, a rather low C at that. On the science test I got 100%. But science is my best subject, so I expected an A. The social studies test hasn’t been graded yet, but I know I got a bad grade because I didn’t study at all. I think its because it’s the end of the year and I just don’t care anymore.

Today was the last “real�Eday of school. Because tomorrow were going to Knott’s, Friday were doing promotion rehearsals, Monday is the yearbook signing party, Tuesday is just a short day and Wednesday is the last day.
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Tuesday, June 8, 2004

...
He rushed up the stairs after the girl. "Suicide," he thought, "She said she was going to commit suicide..."

He turned a corner in the stairwell to just see her slam open the door to the roof. He ran faster. He came to the door just as the girl was about to step up to the ledge.
"WAIT!" he shouted.
She stopped, he hair loose from her usual bun flying around her.
"What do you want?" she demanded, looking out at the horizon, away from the boy.
"I don't want you to kill yourself," he said simply.
"Why do you care if I kill myself? No one else cares about me," she said, with her voice full of malice.
"You're wrong!" he found himself shouting, "People care, I care. Nothing can be bad enough for you to kill yourself."
"How do you know," she said bitterly, turning to him slowly, "you're not me. You dont feel the same things as me. So how can you even say that?"

She looked straight into his eyes. Hers like a swirling hurricane, a mix of sadness and anger, his wide in shock and surprise.

"You were always so happy in class. Always smiling and.. and making jokes, nobody had any idea that you were so... depressed" he stammerd.
"This.." she paused taking a deep breath and then continued, "this is the side of me I never show anyone. But I feel like this all the time. Bieng alive is painful, so death is the only way out."
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So, what do you all think? Should I write a story to go with that little thing? I know it sucks. I need to work with it a bit. And run it through a spell checker. >.>
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Monday, June 7, 2004

Someone died of a brain aneurism today while taking a standardized test. The last thing anyone saw him do was stand up, pull all his hair out and yell, “ABACADABA!! ABACADABA!!!!�E
Student me:

My spanish final sucked. It was really weird. I don't think I did very well. Mabey I had alot of lucky guesses and I somehow get an A. But i'm willing to be that i'm going to get a B or C. That might bring my grade down from an A. >.< I hate school.

I'm not doing very well in math. I have a C- (70.87%) But thats without my extra credit. So it will move into a nice solid C. Oh boy. There's a test tomrrow. If I don't get an A, my grade is probably going to go down a few points. I so do not need that. We're turning in some homework tomrrow for extra points. Our math grade so far is solely based on test scores. So you can see, I don't do very well on math tests.

In social studies i'm pulling a B- a lovely 80% There is a test on wednesday so if I get an A on that, i'll get a higher B. I really haven't been trying in social studies though. I just never read the textbook.

I look back on the year and I see how lazy and stupid I have been. If I had read the materials, came after school more often, studied more... If only I was a better student. Now its down to the wire and I have shitty grades, just because I was a procrastinator and was lazy.

I hope I remember this lovely lesson next year. I'm going to really need to start bieng more motivated next year. High school is when grades really start to count. And i'm taking all honors classes-
English H
Geometry H
Earth Science H
and
MUN (model united nations)
MUN is going so much fun but it is going to be alot of work. >.<

I don't know how i'm going to manage next year. But we'll just wait and see.

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Morbid me:

Watching the news is kinda weird, its all Regan this and Regan that. And they have all of this little interview short program things on the news. One thing you have to think is, how long have they had these things in waiting? I mean, come on, he's had on foot in the grave for a while. So they must have had these in the making.

People are crying, not just family and friends, but just american citizens. It was great what he did for the country and helping put an end to communism, but come on. Everyone is going to die so why waste your energy getting sad over someone you didn't even know? I wasn't surprised when I heard he died. I just thought "someone else dies, big deal." Sure he was a great man but now he's dead. Can we please move on? They're going to beat the crap out of this for the next week.

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Musical me:

I had a lovely violin lesson today, eventhough I didn't practice all week due to a lack of a violin to play. So she is going to let me use her violin untill I get violins to try out and eventually buy. I can't wait. ^^

9 days till school is out!!
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Sunday, June 6, 2004

I know I know, another survey...

Layer.one
Name:	Kathryn
Birthdate:	2/14/90
Birthplace:	Orange, Ca
Current location:	Tustin, Ca
Eyes:	Smokey blue like kinda grey-ish
Hair:	Dirty blonde
Height:	5'4"
Righty or Lefty:	Righty
Zodiac Sign:	Aquarius
Layer.two
Your heritage:	Scandinavian, German, Irish, English, French ect.
Your weakness:	music
Your shoes you wore today:	Riding boots, Paddock and Tall
Your fears:	dead bodies
Your perfect pizza:	hawaiian
Goal you'd like to achieve:	Become concertmistress in the high school orchestra
Layer.three
Your thoughts first waking up:	no... more sleep
Your best physical feature:	eyes or legs
Your bedtime:	i don't have a bedtime, but usually i'm in bed by 10
Your most missed memory:	Just bieng carefree and young
Layer.four
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
McDonald's or Burger King:	McDonald's, but Chick-fil-a owns both of them
Single or group dates:	single
Adidas or Nike:	adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton, they put too much shit in nestea
Chocolate or vanilla:	chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee:	neither coffe is gross
Layer.five
Smoke:	no
Cuss:	yes
Sing:	yes, but not very well
Take showers daily:	yes
Have a crush:	...yes...
Think you've been in love:	i don't know, people use the word too lightly these days
Want to go college:	yes
Want to get married:	it depends
Believe in yourself:	no
Get motion sickness:	no
Think you're attractive:	no
Think you're a health freak:	no
Get along with your parents:	no
Like thunderstorms:	yes
Play an instrument:	yes
Layer.six - in the past months
Gone to the mall:	yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos:	no
Eaten sushi:	yes
Been on stage:	yes
Gone skating:	yes
Made homemade cookies:	no
Gone skinny dipping:	no
Dyed your hair:	no
Stolen anything:	no
Label.seven - ever..
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated:	no
Been called a tease:	no
Got beaten up:	no
Layer.eight
Age you hoped to be married:	:shrug: 28-ish?
Number and name of children:	i dont really want kids... mabey one
Dream wedding:	Small ceremony, think like no people just go to the courthouse and get that goddamn liscence filled in
How do you want to die:	big explosion.
Where do you want to attend college:	I dont care
Dream job:	Violinist or astronomer or secret service agent
Country you want to visit:	Japan
Layer.nine - In a guy/girl...
Best eye color:	I dont care
Best hair color:	I dont care
Short or long hair:	How long is long exactly?
Height:	taller than 5'6"
Best weight:	dosent matter
Best clothing:	just clothes...
Best first date location:	Movies
Best first kiss location:	somewhere secluded park bench mabey
Layer.ten
Number of drugs taken illegally:	0
Number of people I could trust with my life:	none
Number of CDs that I own:	a few
Number of piercings:	0
Number of tattoos:	0
Number of times my name's been in the news:	several, at least once mabey twice
Number of scars on my body:	4, all of them were accidents
Number of things in my past that I regret.:	not many

Layers brought to you by BZOINK!
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If at first you do succeed, try not to look astonished.
Music: Foo Fighters- Monkey Wrench

Last night was great, I went to see the final performance of the Pacific Symphony for the season. It was really nice. They had some of the principal musicians play solos. I really liked the principal cellist's piece Variations on a Rococo Theme by Tchaikovsky. They had John Williams, the man who brought you the music for many movies such as Jaws, Harry Potter, Star Wars, Indiana Jones, E.T., Saving Private Ryan and many many other movies, as a guest concuctor for the night. So naturally they had to play a whole ass-load of his music. They played Call of the Champions (olympics theme, I belive), stuff from Schindlers List, a tuba concerto of his, Sound of the Bells, Tributes and Exultate justi with the all-american boys chorus. Little boys in red coats singing. raow Haha.

The best part of the evening was seeing my friend from camp, Maddie. It was kinda surprising. I was coming out of the bathroom and in the line that stretched 50feet into the lobby was my friend. We met up and talked for a while. Its really nice to meet up with people you thought were gone forever.

This morning I had a riding lesson. I almost overslept. But I got up just in time to get ready and go to my lesson. Jack behaved very well and didnt refuse once. I bathed him with a linament bath and wrapped him. As soon as summer starts, i'm going to go to the stable on wednesdays to help my trainer exercise her horses. Its going to help me improve alot.

Tomrrow is my spanish final and I haven't studied one friggin bit. I am so screwed. Goddamn verbs!!! Atleast its a multiple choice test. So I have a small chance of passing it.

10 days till the end of school.
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Saturday, June 5, 2004

About me
Name: Kathryn
Nicknames: Kat, Ramkat, Katie, Chicken Kath
Sex: Female
Hetero/homo/bi: Hetero
Location: Tustin, Ca
Siblings: 1
Their age & sex: 12, female
Birth place: Orange, Ca
Birth date: February 14th
Height: 5'4"
Eye color: Blue-grey
Hair color: Dirty blonde
Sign: Aquarius
Word/Phrase: Meh, bleh, meep, bwheee
Going to get married: I dunno
How old: I dunno
How many kids: I dont really want kids
Boy name (s): dunno
Girl name (s): dunno

What’s Your…
Color: purple
Symbol: I have no clue, mabey somthing like a celtic knot
Animal: Cat
Website: www.albinoblacksheep.com
Song: Alot of different songs

Places you have lived:
Tustin, Ca

Places you want to live:
1. England
2. Japan
3. Catalina

Where you see yourself in a year:
At school

Last year you were:
At school
Where you see yourself in five years:
In school

With $1,000,000 I would...
1. Buy a horse
2. Buy a violin
3. Buy anime

What do you…
Want out of life: I dunno
Want from humanity: Intelligence
Want in opposite sex: I dont know
Want in a friend: Someone to lean on
Just want: stuff

What’s your biggest…
Fear: Dead bodies. :shiver:
Dream: I dont really have any drea,s
Expectation: I dont have any
Pet-peeve: People who label other people. They have no right
Bad habit: Procrastination
Good habit: Good habit?

Favorite…
Food: I like too many foods to mention
Name: Summer
Color: Purple, red, blue, green and black
Animal: Cat
Person: I dont really like people
Crayon: crayolas
Thing: My laptop
Website: albinoblacksheep.com
Saying/Phrase from a song: "I haven't been this scared in a long time, and i'm so unprepared so heres your valentine, a bouquet of clumsy words, a simple melody a simple melody, this worlds an ugly place but youre so beautiful..." - Blink-182 Going away to college
Saying/Phrase from a movie: I dont watch very many movies
Letter: K.
Number: 14
Candy: Reces
Soda: I hate soda
Drink: I don't drink
Magazine: Newtype
Article of clothing: The black skirt with the red trim I made
Type of movie: I dont watch many movies
Movie: Haiku Tunnel, LotR
Type of Music: Punk, Rock watever I can get.
Store: Simply Kids
Weapon: gun
Restaurant: Does Chick-fil-a count?
Season: Winter.
Holiday: Christmas
Comic: Full Metal Panic!

What are you…
Wearing: My grey shirt and cut-off denim shorts
Thinking: Tired...
Listening to: The Offspring
Wondering about: My mind is blank-ish

Last thing you…
Read: Horse Illustrated
Thought: Why in the hell am I doing this?
Felt: Tired
Wore: Clothes
Read (book): Jane Eyre
Did: Take a shower
Listened to: The Offspring
Watched: WWII programs
Ate: Turkey Sandwich
Bought: A turkey sandwich (different sandwich from before)
Drank: Water
Said: What are you doing here?
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