Saturday, November 11, 2006

Teenage Angst at the finest

Life Actually not, I just like how that sounds So erm... the guys i like are now liking my best friends. Jeff likes Brittany, and asked her out thursday and I was PISSED. I mean T.O.M's visiting me so that made it really bad. She started liking him too, which made matters worse cause she was flirting with him during pep rally. She knew i liked him too. So she started apologizing and shit but then turned him down even though I said I didn't care what she did. She said one of her friends liked him and he figured it was me so eh now hes mad at me. Even though it was even all because of me, brittany doesnt even know half the time when she likes someone. So eh... the guy Craig I liked kept asking me and i started getting pissed cause he wouldn't leave me alone about it. So he asked what my problem was and I told him to stop asking me when he doesnt even like me. He says he kinda likes me. Then at the football game hes going to flirt with my best friend Carleigh and this girl Holly. Carleigh said she isnt going out with him or anything, I feel better. This is really getting to me, I hate having guys fuck with me. I went to mbp after the game because dad wanted the house to himself. At the end of the night Tim hugs me and shit and I asked him later on why when he was talking down to me like I was a lower being to him. He says hes been doing that lately cause hes been depressed about Sammie once he visited her. I guess we're cool, though I doubt that's the reason why he acted like a dick to me, or the excuse because I hadn't heard anything about him acting like a dick to anyone else. I had heard about him being depressed though. Dad made my day yesterday because he got me some Hipnotiq Liquior. And that stuff is delicious, if you can find anyone over 21 get it. And a strawberry daiquri sobe. Taste REALLY good mixed together. So me and one of my friends had shots of it, I heart it. I feel dumb because I'm doing better in math than in science :O. I usually have a A in science, this dumb class i got a C. And doing better in gym, i got 100 in that class, and I really hate sports heh. I wonder what I got in german... hmmm I gots a headache and im tired, peace

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Saturday, November 4, 2006

And so I've been really lazy to post and visit

Life Tim is a douche, him and I got into a fight a couple days ago. He told his parents his brother seemed like he was high at school and I bitched him out, then he wanted to talk down to me. He said I acted like I was dating his brother or something. Oh well I like his brother.. and his friend. But basically, he's a racist, close minded, biggot Brittany pissed me off halloween since she's use to getting her way so much. I started getting bad blisters on my heels because of these boots and I had asked her if she's switch socks with me because i had ankle socks on. She said first she didnt want to then once I had told her that was getting blisters she changed her excuse to "I do too" instead of just saying it the first time. And, i had asked her for a piece of gum and she said she needed her gum because she was said and if she didnt chew gum she'd loose her voice. Then told Elisabeth I didn't believe her. Lately she seems to annoy me. And I found when she's lying she stutters more than usual. I find it one sided that she can keep me awake to find a dress for homecoming and take my time up to do it but when i ask her for simple favours it cannot be done. Oh well, I don't HAVE to do anything. But ugh, its like 4th grade all over again Melissa and I are talking again, and at this moment too. Both bored... really, really bored. I've been having really bad neck probs lately and now sleep on the couch. And i felt the back of my head and i have a knot there, near my neck. The other side doesnt, I thinkI have something wrong with it.

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Sunday, October 29, 2006

Und..

Life I'm assuming inuyasha is done with, how gay. I heard there might be a movie made since they wanna piss the fans off, finally end the wonders of naraku. Halloween is soon, I'm still determining what I shall be. I was talking to lucas before i went to thomas stones football game. Told him I saw michaela at the mall and I wanted to fight her there. I love how he defends her now, tis obnoxious. Once saying she wouldn't do anything now she'd pull a knife on me, pft.. Tim makes me mad cause hes confusing. He's all i like you, but likes this girl madison. She decided to add me as her friend on myspace, which makes me feel like this is all a joke. Oh well, I'll find someone else if tim wants to be confusing. If any of you remember melissa, me and her are talking now, at the least. She was going through my xanga, and read a entry, similiar to the one on here i had. She said some stuff about it, so we're getting things settled. I guess thats good as well. yesterday i watched some of the rocky horror picture show... that movie sucked. i hate most musicals. I'ma call it the creepy version of rent, though its nothing like it. I DONT CARE! Thats all, bye byes

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Now Im starting to feel strange

Life But before i go on to that, i will talk about yesterday i got hurt a couple times yesterday and that was gay. Jeff shot me in the eye with a rubberband and this one dude pulled a chair out from under me as i was siting down cause he was switching our chairs. Tim got an attitude because of the death of Valerie. He was okay earlier then randomly got all pissy, how was i to know he was friends with her? But today... sad day, not many people where at school, they were at Val's funeral. I didnt go, i didnt really know her too well to go, and dad probably wouldnt let me miss school again. Rj's probation officer wouldnt let him go, he got to go to the viewing but thats it. They're so careless. And depression is sweeping over us all. Lately I'm starting to feel like my close friends are drifting away from me, and it hurts. I dont want to loose anymore friends. I've realized kyle and i dont talk much anymore and i dont really hang with him either, same goes for jared and a couple others. Once kyles best friend, now replaced. The people that I consider best friends dont entirely think the same as I. But I guess it's a little bit better, Kirby and I are kinda talking again, though i wasnt too close to him to begin with. Lauren is too far away, Sammies gone... and yesterday was a month since she died. Lyndseys coming back to maryland to stay for a couple months, then shes moving to north carolina, or maybe it was south, i dont know. I kinda feel like turning back time, though i wont know some of the people i know now. Maybe I'm just lonely, I havent really hung with anyone lately... maybe I just havent tried to. Its something, maybe I'll come to understand this feeling soon enough and stop feeling depressed from it. For now, I'll just sit here and decide on what I'm to do. Kinda emo sounding neh? Eh we all have our sad days

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Sunday, October 22, 2006

So Ill tell you loves about the weekend

Life Friday, dad took forever to get me to mbp I got there about 9, or close to 9. Tims brother took my camera and ran around with it, he wasted the rest of the film taking a picture of himself running and his nipple :( Then he gave it to my friend David, who stayed in the guys bathroom with it. He finally unlocked the door and i hurried and rushed in there looking for the camera. These 2 people that worked at mbp looked at me all weird. I kinda hung out with Jeff (tims bro) alot friday and I could tell it bugged Tim. He keeps saying I'm gonna go out with him and its kinda annoying. Me and jeff fight to much to do so, but its all good. So... about an hour ago we were at vampire manor, some halloween haunted house thingy. Of course we had to be jackasses and make remarks at the people there. Someone was dressed up as Freddy Krugar for it and was scary us, or attemtping to. Jeff asked if he could have his gloves and shit. Tim saw some girl named jessica he thought was hot and was gonna give her his number and said some weird prom thing, then some other guy was like "join us for dinner" so he asked if they were having grits. We went back a second time and he shouted "why arent there any grits?!" Then some werewolf thingy, i kept messin with him and sayin it was scooby doo Some girl got scared the first and grabbed onto me, she almost unhooked my bra. She kinda stretched out my shirt too. Those girls were pussies. Some guy was trying to race us as we were riding home, we lost, how gay. He had a work truck too, but me tim and jeff got a laugh outta it. Im mad at how my mom wanted me to come to virginia and never called me. No one had heard from her all weekend. Then today she goes to see my brother in jail. She appearently got money for something, which means she can pay her child support, shes 1,500$ behind, i got 75% of that as me and dad discussed. Id like to have that money. I need to get new clothes anyway. It's better she give me that money rather than what she'd spend it on... and i wont mention that. Man i seriously need to go trick or treating, halloween come soon Well i guess thats all, peace

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Saturday, October 21, 2006

sorry peoples!

Life ive been off lately and im in virginia right now so i wont be stoppin by till atleast montag or visitin cause i really hate typing on laptops

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Thursday, October 19, 2006

So..

Life Me and Tim broke up sunday Hours after i came home from his house. I'm quite puzzled about how things are so far. I thought I didn't really give a shit, just because i hadn't been dating him for even a week. A few minutes ago I was just with him because he drives me home from school a couple days a week. He still makes it seem like he and I are dating. We were getting something to eat, he still paid for me, though I continuously told him I would. I think he thinks the same as i do cause as i told him not to he kinda slipped out something like "I'm your man, i have to pay" it was something like that, I didn't hear all of it. Then he was holding me and stuff as I left, kinda strange. I don't really want him doing that if we aren't dating, he and I decided we need to become better friends first. We started dating too soon, and barely got to know one another. It doesn't make it easy, yeh. But i do feel as if I hesitated to get out the car, expecting him to say something. Oh well. Aside from that, I'M HAPPY TO SAY I AM NOT GOING TO FAIL MY PROJECT IN SCIENCE!! I can do the project in my science teachers class, rather than algebra 2. Damn teacher lied to me, meh I found out I like the show amazing nurse nanako... heh. It's funny... no the reason i like the show isnt all entirely perverted hehe... But yeh you get the idea i think No school tomorrow, not sure why and prolly never will know. But, thats good on my behalf, i hate school. Samstag im going to vampire manor with tim, fun fun. I just noticed i said samstag instead of saturday, damn germans, with their femine masculine and neuter nouns! Eh i dont get why they have them, but it seperates words from der die and das, confusing XD I love german class though, fun fun. Hmm Rj wanted me to go to his party tomorrow but i was gonna go to mbp, shit. Oh well, I had already planned to go to mbp... but rj is my boy, damn I'm done, later

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

So damn

Life Gestern war Freitag das dreizehnte hmm yes... bad day kinda People still sayin shit, its slowly getting around But it's people i dont really give a damn about so its aight i guess. Rumors suck lika bitch though. Brittany said not to say anything to kyra and kaitlyn for running their mouths though I found i might possibly have a dramatic boyfriend, which brittany had warned me about days ago. Some shit happened... he took off, very odd. Very strange You know my dad woke me up at 8 in the fucking morning to give me weed? What the hell is with that? I sleep at that time dammit But mbp was aight last night, appearently to Tom I'm god now. He seemed like he liked my friend brittany, though said no once i confronted him about it. Everyone seems to think hes gay, i find it funny cause i did too. But its all good Hmm... im suppose to call tim and chill with him, but his number is in my myspace messages and i cant get to it, how gay. It's been doing that lately, no clue why. Fcuk myspace <3 Well ima find something to do so im out, later

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Thursday, October 12, 2006

So eh

Life Me and tim go out, and i guess it's spreading kinda quick Dad likes him, he'll let me chill with him and stuff, I can ride wit Tim without dad worrying and stuff. I kinda feel like it wont last long just because he acts like my exboyfriend jared sometimes, and i kinda dont want that again, too much stress. Plus he's kinda too nice, i dont think i, a bitch, should date a guy like that. He is definately different from the guys ive dated though, which is good. Maybe i just need some adjusting. These bitches kaitlyn and kyra are already runnin their mouth about me to him and making half the shit up. Sammie fucking told shit i told her not to tell and she told him. Damn i cant trust her worth a damn thing. Well I guess thats my fault... but now it doesnt really matter, shes dead. Tim told me when I told tim to tell Kaitlyn fuck you she kinda started crying, but then i dont really care, its not the first time shes gone and done that shit. So fuck that whale and her bitch ass sister kyra im done venting

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Monday, October 9, 2006

Well yeah you know tha deal

Life I was suppose to find Tim earlier before school but i was kinda late and couldn't find him. So at the end of the day I found him, he walked with me to my dads car, calling me short on the way there -.-; I kinda brushed up on his hand on accident so he said I was trying to hold his hand, so I had to say no no no no eep. O.o.. okay then.. But, he told me he liked me and asked me if i wanted to go see a movie with him tomorrow, and he drives so it works. He's only 2 years older than me so dad shouldn't sweat it so much, besides he is definately not like the guys I usually date, which is really a good thing. He doesn't drink, smoke, doesn't get in trouble, has a job, drives, not an idiot like the guys I dated in the past. But the first thing he asked me yesterday is if I smoke, I didn't lie, that would make things bad once he found out, and he was bound to. But I guess something is going to go on even though he doesnt like the smoking thing. I almost went deaf today because of this guy name Tom. He pushed me and shouted hi really loud in my ear. Then at the end of the day before I see tim he glomps me and shouts I love you. So I tell him I know he does, cause I'm jus so lubbable. He kinda acts like he likes me, damn he picked the wrong time to. I have to work on a science project this week. I really don't want to but the papers due on the 13, I've gotten about 2 out of 6 pages done so far :( I don't wanna do it at all, the finalpage and the ones I've done are probably the easiest... research I'ma think is the hardest. Well this is getting boring, I'm out... later@!

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