Sunday, October 8, 2006

And so

Life The homecoming dance was alright... eh yeah I guess. My feet hurt really bad from it. Shit might be goin down if I see my ex best friend melissa anytime soon. She been runnin her mouf about me and told her cousin i was a pothead ho. Oh well that bitch is a he she then with her mustache and bushy ass eye brows who likes to start shit and run her mouf. Brittany told tim I liked him, he said he already knew from the way I was actin last night, well thats what he told brittany. He was trying to find me at the end of the night I think, then he found me, pulled up a chair and hugged me. He said something, i forgot. Then he told me he had to take his date home and left. So i hung with Jillian and tom afterwards, Tom was the guy I kinda like that i dont really know if i do or not. I said something about liking tim before he came over and I said I liked some other, Tom said it was him. I don't really know if he was joking or not. Then we started talking about making babies... i dont know how the fuck we got to talking about that. Maya and mira had to spend 2 hours or more working on my hair today, instead of crimping or cringing it whatever it was i was gonna do to it instead I put swirls in it... I liked it better I gotta hurry and get my shit for a science project done, damn. I gotta ask teachers stuff on monday cause I'ma try getting one of my teachers to play music while doing like a pretest or something so that i can determine what music helps to concentrate or not. And it does help appearently, something called music therapy i think I'm tired, so ima watch bleach and then sleep, later

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Saturday, October 7, 2006

A lovely night it was

Life Though mbp was boring at the beginning, I got to see someone i liked. He kept taking my disposable camera and blinding himself with the flash, then he wore my hoodie, he looked uncomfortable. Then he and i just sat with eachother for most the night. He kept tickling me and stuff. He kinda seems like he likes me but I'm not too sure. Appearently he likes this girl named Devon, but eh i dont know. I'm hoping he does, John said when he was laying with me at mbp "I think you've got a new boyfriend" I hope i do too. He's just really nice and funny, cute as well. I think my friend david got jealous cause once he saw me hangin wit Tim he got all mopey, he was better when i was hanging out with him. I dont see why though he's always hangin on my best friends. oh well I'll see him tomorrow at homecoming, thats gay I was hoping i could go with him, ah well. I like the dress i have for homecoming, whenever i decide to use the pics up on my camera ill put some up... if my scanner works i need a digital camera again I'm sleepy so Ima go, later

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Wednesday, October 4, 2006

soo uh

Life Tim has a date to the homecomming, but its all good Theres always whenever to let him know i like him I'm not gonna sweat it. But for now, I got wacky wednesday pics Brittany and I Myself Britt's Self And if you didnt know I died my hair, and its that colour... bwa i got nothin else to say, peace

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Tuesday, October 3, 2006

Argh!

Life I wanted to stop by yesterday But school work held me back Mherm, anywho We have our weird spirit thing this week, yesterday was pajama day I fucking hate that day There were guys wearing carebear pajamas, fucking shower hat things and pink robes and shit. It scared the hell out of me. Today was blast from the past... more people dressed up like hippies more than anything else Damn hippies I decided i'll dress fucked up for wacky wednesday. Brittany was suppose to come over and dress up too... but she didnt. We have homecoming saturday... i am scurred I wanna go wit someone, but I'll prolly not... Cause I like two people, but eh... no clue about them I first met them at the funeral, actually not entirely thats just when we first started talking was after it. That sentence confused the shit outta me. But I pointed out the guy tom i liked to brittany, she decides she wants to go chase after him cause of it. Jaelle said he has a girl, my friend amanda says he doesnt. The other guy I like... I dont really know I'll prolly jus end up goin with a friend, eh i dont really care. BUT i need to get a dress o.o My brother keeps calling when I try sleeping. I don't pick up anymore I dont wanna talk to him. I know the only reason why hes calling is because he wants to talk to maya and bitch at me for not calling her. Speak of teh devil- he calls! im bored... youre bored, lets screw im out, bye

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

Life I went to Sammie's viewing today, saw Amanda as I walked in. So I made her go see Sammie with me. Sammie resembled a porcelain doll, she was very pale and looked peaceful. Her hands were holding a black rose. It was hard for me and Amanda to just look at her unanimated. We started crying, then had to go. WE sat outside and talked afterwards. Earlier today i stopped by the anime club where Jillian decided she was going to squeeze the hell out of me. I had a shirt that said taste my rainbow, it caused some people to say something about it. Some girl asked what flavour my rainbow was... that confused the hell out of me I found i dont like when people go to jail, they call alot. But either way... i dont like when people call when im trying to sleep. All today, Lucas, Joe and chris has been calling me. It's not bad until they call when im asleep... then thats when it sucks. I think joes getting out of jail tomorrow... i hope he doesnt set his hopes too high though, it's not going to be a pleasant day tomorrow. I'm hoping to get the funeral over with soon, i cant stand thinking of it. I think it scares me just because the death was so unexpected... but I did find out how sammie died During science, my teacher showed us her snake(ha) but to be serious, there was this snake in a cage she showed us. While she was holding it, the snake decided it was going to crawl through her key necklace thing, I'm not to sure what its called, it just had a strap to wear around your neck and then a round thingy with all these keys on it. The snake got stuck, so me and jaelle decided we were going to poke at the snake... it felt funny. Thats a dumb snake though, i wonder if it ever got out. Speaking of jaelle, she said i had a bug butt... bwah my brothers friend said that and it creeped me out. I believe thats all i have to say, later

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Eh yeah

Life Im going to try and not make everything in this post sound depressing But jessi came by yesterday, she heard about sammie too. She started looking on sammies myspace, I saw her cry for the first time when she was reading it. Tomorrow i have to go to sammies viewing, then friday is her funeral. I was going to go to the anime club tomorrow but I think I'll jus go to the viewing at 2-4 It still pains me though but I dont want to think of that right now, so on to something else. David came into the artroom i was in at the end of the day, he snuck up on me and hugged me. Then he started talking about how my friend blew him off today, I told him it was probably because we've been trying to make a memorial poster for sammie and all the teachers want to be assholes about it now. Joe called me from jail today, of course he once again wanted to talk to his girl, that was the final time i three wayed her, i cant stand it when people want you to three way someone for them so they can talk, chris did it all the time. Joe keeps telling me I need to stop sleeping during the day and more at night. Then he said to stop watching adult swim at night and go to bed, once again no, im surprised he figured out thats what i was doing as well. Lucas called me today when i was trying to nap, he's been out of jail for about a week now. He's in north carolina now. We talked for about an hour or so, talked about the past, some weird things... very weird. I'm gonna try to relax and draw some, then try to find some Due Le Quartz songs, limewire is pissing me off because it's not finding any. bye

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Monday, September 25, 2006

Fuck

Life I can't sleep right now I havent been able to for an hour, I've been thinking about sammie And then I started crying Appearently her funeral will be friday... I have to return her things on monday... well today pretty much It's hurting so bad... I hung out with her probably more than my best friends. I cant believe she really died I wrote her a poem... i wish she'd be able to read it.. its not the best... but still Of so many tragedies this year Another one has occured As I would have feared One that wish not to believe You passed away yesterday We all miss you Sammie I remember you're mother had died on mothers day Now you two shall reunite As you've passed away And make peace from when you two would fight This has crashed down Like lightening in a storm Hurting deeply the people you were around Now our hearts have been torn We were all too scared to hear the truth I had called and found out you've passed on I can't believe so, you were still in your youth Your books are still in my locker at school I'm still hoping you'd show up and get them Thinking that makes me feel like a fool I know you can never again use them I know on monday I'll open up that locker and see them there Once again have to remember you've pass away

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

This has not been a good year

Life Aside from the issue of nick, lucas going to jail, my brother and my moms boyfriend going to jail. My friend Sammie died last night I can't believe it No one could, so I called to find out whether or not it was true. I had to call her house and find out, brittany gave me the number, she was too scared to. I still have her books for school in my locker, I guess I should give them back to her classes That's going to kill me doing it. I should keep some things she has in there as a memory... still... I cant believe it I'd say we were close in a way... we hung out alot, smoked together alot, I've known her for atleast 2 years... of course me and her fought a couple times but we made up. I remember writing her a poem trying to comfort her when her mother died on mothers day... Then making a shirt out of pajamas We had some good times, I hung out with her alot. I feel like im going to cry the day monday comes around... As soon as I open my locker I'll see her things, and begin to think of her. Last thing we were talking about is how we couldnt add eachother as friends on gaia, now we never will I gotta go. I'll prolly not update for a couple days... sorry if i dont visit you guys EDIT: and now I jus found out joe is in jail the 6th fucking person so far.. this year cannot get any worse

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Friday, September 15, 2006

Ayy

Life I'll be gone all weekend in virginia I'm going to a anniversery and crap And now I am sad cause I jus found out dir en grey will be in the family values tour, which i prolly wont be able to go to. But ima try to anyway.. thats all i gotta say peace

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

fünf vier drei zwei eins

Life We had a german number test yesterday... so eh i subjected this as 5 4 3 2 1 in german cause the teacher made me do that earlier Shit I didn't know yesterday, was september 11 until I saw on my bread wrapper thing it was to go stale sept 11. then i thought to myself, "that should be easy to remember" It was sad though when i looked at pictures of it, made me wanna cry We discussed it all today Alright no more sad memories, lets move on SO..... I watched the end of fruits basket a couple days ago I've discovered 4 things i think 1. tohru is too nice, and its obnoxious 2. I don't like when people make everyone fall in love with 1 certain person, and it pretty much is that everyone falls for tohru and shit 3. why the hell did everyone get sick so much 4. I've forgotten the fourth one, sorry I was really late for school, yay About an hour late, or more, yeah something like that so i missed english The fair is this week! Bad thing is, ima miss it. I have to go to my gma and gpa's 50th wedding anniversery... i cant spell That sucks too i was so happy to be able to go to the fair, maybe i can manage to find a way to go before i go to virginia, oh but i want to go at night time, its so much better hopefully its open thursday night, i know it is on friday cause we dont have school that day for it. And no school today, which is confusing me :) I'm go burn a cd.. byeeeeeeeeeee

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