Friday, June 23, 2006

Dramatic? You tell me, this is whats been going on lately

Life I censored anything of his and mine you dont need to know... and censored my screenname Note that when he calls me kike and shit he aint bein offensives or nothin, i got that as a nickname a couple months ago I dont feel like sayin whats been going on.... eh shits been weird as hell lately JW (3:08:37 AM): hey kike! drizzle (3:08:44 AM): hewo JW (3:08:50 AM): whats good drizzle (3:08:55 AM): jus chillin you? JW (3:09:16 AM): just got back from southeast drizzle (3:09:24 AM): oooo thats where you was yesterday? JW (3:09:30 AM): yup drizzle (3:09:37 AM): cause me sarah and jessi walked to ya house but you wasnt home JW (3:10:08 AM): no shit i was in s.e. drizzle (3:10:15 AM): well dur i know that now drizzle (3:10:21 AM): i aint know that 2 days ago though JW (3:10:37 AM): e pills, dippers, lsd, pcp, weed, coke and mad alcohol JW (3:10:45 AM): i had all my drugs there JW (3:11:05 AM): can u have fone calls? drizzle (3:11:07 AM): yea drizzle (3:11:15 AM): ill jus pick up dads prolly knocked out JW (3:11:17 AM): bet cuz i need 2 roll a blunt drizzle (3:11:30 AM): aight drizzle (3:11:32 AM): call den JW (3:12:06 AM): give me amin drizzle (3:12:13 AM): kay drizzle (3:14:10 AM): hurry up boy Shit goes bad again here JW (6:36:09 PM): kike ho drizzle (6:36:17 PM): hey JW (6:36:45 PM): so ur bro is gettin into the shit or not? drizzle (6:37:14 PM): he goin to now cause appearently you is runnin your mouth again from what he been hearing JW (6:37:24 PM): i ian't been sayin shit JW (6:37:36 PM): god damn motha fuckas want me dead! JW (6:38:02 PM): y do ppl hate me so fuckin much!? drizzle (6:38:02 PM): well jessi said that you said they was gonna face the grim reaper or some shit JW (6:38:10 PM): what the fuck did i do 2 them!? JW (6:38:18 PM): no drizzle (6:38:22 PM): i dont know i was asleep drizzle (6:38:24 PM): what? JW (6:38:24 PM): ducey's dad said that shit drizzle (6:38:32 PM): how he say that? JW (6:38:40 PM): after his dad saw all of it on his back he flipped drizzle (6:38:53 PM): you know they punkd you guys JW (6:38:54 PM): and sum1 prolly told her that JW (6:38:59 PM): she was talkin 2 joker last night drizzle (6:39:08 PM): tha guy that whooped duceys ass can not fight worth shit drizzle (6:39:15 PM): chris already fought him and fucked him up before JW (6:39:41 PM): w/e idc i dn't want anymore probs in my house JW (6:39:53 PM): this is supposed 2 b my place where evrything is safe drizzle (6:40:03 PM): already told chris ducey wasnt bein racist drizzle (6:40:18 PM): he still thinks since he white he shouldnt have regardless of anythin else JW (6:40:39 PM): but evr since i started hangin with u its been a haven 4 cops and ur bro and his boys JW (6:41:01 PM): i am not takin this shit no more JW (6:41:14 PM): ur makin me want 2 put landmines and flood lights on my house now drizzle (6:41:19 PM): no not entirely, ever since you helped my get out tha house it started JW (6:41:26 PM): yeah JW (6:41:48 PM): this shit is whack i dn JW (6:41:52 PM): 't need this anymore JW (6:42:00 PM): this is where my family stays drizzle (6:42:01 PM): i aint even do all this shit chris jus dont like you fakin shit and playin wit people he dont like that junk JW (6:42:12 PM): what could u do 2 help me if it was my family they were after JW (6:42:20 PM): and they hurt either my mom or my sis drizzle (6:42:28 PM): they aint gonna go after them JW (6:42:31 PM): my grams woulda died from the dorr being kicked in drizzle (6:42:45 PM): i aint have nothin to do wit that so dont even put that on me JW (6:42:50 PM): no but they r gonna come back 4 me now that they kno my door is busted drizzle (6:43:03 PM): what you want me to talk to terrance or somethin? JW (6:43:16 PM): no i want this shit done and gone drizzle (6:43:30 PM): i aint got nothin to do with it dont put nothin on me, this time it aint my fault JW (6:43:44 PM): tell u bro 2 leave me alone u ain't evn heard from me 4 like 5 days and i said u was cut and not speakkin 2 u evr again cuz of all this shiyt drizzle (6:43:45 PM): you guys shoulda been thinkin before you call someone a nigga, you dont even know JW (6:44:07 PM): no but they ur bros boys drizzle (6:44:17 PM): only one of em JW (6:44:25 PM): and i didn't evn say shit so they steal my shit and threaten 2 rape 2 girls JW (6:44:28 PM): sarah and michelle drizzle (6:44:36 PM): and chris aint even gettin involved cause i told him not to drizzle (6:45:09 PM): and chris said stop bein a bitch and callin the cops if you in the crips drizzle (6:45:26 PM): and if anyone touches jessi they dead drizzle (6:45:47 PM): cause you tryin to get jessi jumped JW (6:45:52 PM): i ain't got nothin 2 with it if they hurt sum1 i ain't havin no1 do nothin drizzle (6:45:58 PM): aight JW (6:46:04 PM): duce mgith idk about his dad and zack idk about JW (6:46:11 PM): george is a weak little pussy drizzle (6:46:39 PM): chris wanna know who tha bitch was that ran out tha back JW (6:47:09 PM): idk i think it was like tom or sum1 sum little bitch ass punk drizzle (6:48:30 PM): he aint sayin anything anymore cause he is jus singin JW (6:49:46 PM): and jessis the whole reason it started cuz kept callin tryin 2 come pick up sarah drunk as hell but then there was a misunderstanding ovr the fone as duce puts it and then the bust in and beat his ass all bcuz she went bhind 2 of them and siad duce is the tallest 1 in the back with the tattoo onhis arm drizzle (6:50:40 PM): and he called michelle a bitch cause he know her, and why is you gonna tell jessi shit if you dont want her tellin it ? drizzle (6:51:00 PM): and why you tryin to blame me for jessi's shit if its her doing? JW (6:51:07 PM): i didin't tell her shit JW (6:51:11 PM): she ratted ducey out drizzle (6:51:18 PM): you always say shit to her like that coke shit drizzle (6:51:29 PM): if you dont want her tellin why you gonna tell her? JW (6:51:38 PM): i dn't talk 2 her nomore JW (6:51:55 PM): joker-zack talked 2 her on my sn drizzle (6:52:17 PM): so now you got friends that you cant even trust to keep they mouth shut and not tell anything to her drizzle (6:52:29 PM): which will keep your ass outta trouble JW (6:52:41 PM): w/e JW (6:52:57 PM): now ur pissin me off by tellin me how 2 run my shit plz leave me alone right now drizzle (6:53:54 PM): man im doin it for your own good JW (6:54:17 PM): w/e gonna go smoke a blunt and relax drizzle (6:54:18 PM): you dont know who you messin wit and nothin about them and appearently fuckin you over right now drizzle (6:54:23 PM): whatever drizzle (6:55:32 PM): and you aint foolin anyone wit this junk either cause they really think you is jus a bitch now cause you all talk no action Auto response from JW (6:55:32 PM): i'm bored. call me if u can and save me from the insanity of my grandmother. plz call!! *******. Session concluded at 6:57:25 PM Then again wit shit, not as bad i guess JW (9:19:53 PM): they rollin thru again drizzle (9:19:59 PM): is they? JW (9:20:40 PM): thats what jessi just told me drizzle (9:20:53 PM): hm i dont know drizzle (9:21:14 PM): i talked to terrance though he said this shit gotta get settled, i dont know what he meant though drizzle (9:21:28 PM): he said its either gotta be over wit or they kinda be beefin still JW (9:22:42 PM): its ovr wit with me i have no probs JW (9:22:44 PM): i nvr did drizzle (9:23:42 PM): well ima callin maya up and talk to chris so hol on real quick JW (9:25:28 PM): brb runnin 2 a friends be back in like 25 mins drizzle (9:25:30 PM): and terrence i dont know what he doin cause he said jessi jus sayin stuff and startin shit drizzle (9:25:31 PM): aight Then I said what was needed to be said drizzle (4:08:50 AM): jus so you get this shit straight Terrence talked to duce, i dont know what tha fuck is goin on beyond that. No clue if they is fightin or not, jus not tonight. Chris was gonna fight juu cause you is frontin, and thinks your full of shit cause you sayin you can fight and shit and dont do nothin. You been pissin him and alot of people off wit your junk, he didnt like you playin head games wit me either and you know you is doin that to me. You asked earlier why everyone hates you, I don't hate you so not technically everyone do, but the way you be approachin people and actin pissin them off, and tha way you treatin your ladies too. Jessi told chris how you like to brag about when you cheat on girls, and he don't like that. I aint tell him anything about chu, he found out from everyone else. I'm tryin to keep you outta shit. If you dont want him knowin don't tell people you cant trust, i fucked up alotta shit cause of that. Auto response from JW (4:08:52 AM): i ain't here so 2 bad 4 u. drizzle (4:09:37 AM): Dont say shit either if you dont want shit happenin, there gonna be an effect on shit, you're smart you should know that. You wanna get mad at me about tha po po' drizzle (4:09:56 AM): s and shit, yet you even said that cops prolly gonna be comin after me. drizzle (4:19:39 AM): You and I both knew what we was gettin into. And I couldnt help the cops fuckin witchu so dont push that on me. You didnt have to do it, even though I'm grateful you went through this shit for me. I cried my eyes out worrying if they was gonna lock your ass up, I worried as much, if not more about you gettin locked up. And it killed me having you mad at me. The only thing I can easily blame myself for is tha drama and the weed shit, so I'll get it somewhere else or keep in on tha DL, you still don't have to deal me it. And i apologized to you many of times for it, and tried to prevent anything. This time, I had no involve with the shit going on. Chris not liking you isnt cause you're friends with me, though he stresses all my guy friends. It's how you approach and act. He thought you was aight at first, now that he's hearin your bullshit, and tha way you act, he turnin against you. Him being related to me at this point doesnt matter. It's because he could get info on you from jessi and people that caused him to not like you, like I said, I don't tell him nothin. I try and back your ass up on shit like why you smacked Sarah, you got enough enemies, you dont need anymore, and probably more than you know. I can name about 8 right now you wouldnt think of nor know. They arent all even people i know well, just girlfriends friends and etc. Dad dont have much of a problem cept how you act, you say theres a different side to you, why not let someone see it, or some people and change some peoples oppinions on you? It's your decision, every action affects what people think of you, you decide on what chu wanna do cause i cant run your life. drizzle (4:27:25 AM): So you can remain mad at me if you want to, I tried with you to stop gettin you mad at me. I don't know why all this happened or anything else. If you don't wanna see me, talk to me, anything anymore, I'm not gonna stop you. You was a good bud to me lately though, I'ma remember that... even though you wont give me my video back and some other things... mhmmm. BUT jus notice things arent gonna be any different, chris still aint gonna like you and people will still tell him shit that'll make him wanna fight you, hell shit might even be worse cause I wont be like "No don't mess with him" or clear any shit to stop him from gettin his boys and fighting you. Personally I think we should jus get shit straightened between you, duce, chris and whoever else... he gotta have a better thought of you. Hell he even said lucas was better than you... and thats sad as shit. I'ma end this piece, maybe you'll listen to me, I don't know... whatever you want. Maybe you will, or you'll jus get more pissed off at me, I tried. Atleast try this, dont depend on you SE DC shit so much. Jus cause you come from DC dont mean nothin at all, and alls you makin it seem like is that you have a front that you are some badass, and its not workin. Remember I've never seen you fight, I'ma think you cant until i see you fight, I prefer proof before anything. If you can, good for you, if you cant, stop actin like you can, its not foolin anyone. Aight I think I said all I needed to say... jus think about this shit and do whatever. Session concluded at 4:31:27 AM

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Thursday, June 15, 2006

Decreasing Bond in Such Short Of Time

Life I hadn't seen you for so long It's been good seeing you lately But why has things been goin' so wrong 'Cause it just seems like it's pullin' us away I remember you callin' me everyday But now you only call now and then And when you got something to say I don't understand how this can be That I miss talkin' to you And you making fun of me What else could I possibly do To fix how things use to be Is the shit going on lately stoppin' you From picking up the phone And talking to me Only been a month Since I've once again seen you Yet so much has occured To damage what's between me and you Lately I've been puttin' you through alot of shit You are still here though Why do you put up with it Do you care like you say you do Or is it part of us drifting I find it hard to tell the truth I just don't know what's goin' on anymore I'm still dreaming about the past And hoping things turn out like before You seem so far away Even though you're near I'm not too sure why I feel like I need you here You've been such a good friend to me And shown me what I never thought I'd see But now I just cherish that As a memory

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

More cause he kinda bugs me

Life I recently read What came to be a surprise The things you two said Now she's seen through your disguise I was stunned She finally realized How painful you really are to her Now tearing her up on the inside It even kills me to see all of it Hurting her so much Yet you I still cannot resist People told me not to try But I never really listened to my best interest I'm digging my own grave in this episode I know it's all soon to happen to me Yet I'm too tempted to leave you alone Once more fallin for a trick Should I really take on this risk Risking my heart, my soul All that I possess I might risk my mind and loose control Yet isn't that the purpose of life I've risked much more All through my teen years And many years before I've survived through it all But my emotions this will try to drain Then once more I'll hang my head in shame And dwell on what I caused to be pain For your false affection might hurt me as it hurt her I think I'll take this on And if it hurts, more in life I shall endure

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I wrote this for my girl sammie

Life I recall you telling me a couple days ago Back on Mother's day Coincidently happening It's day your mother passed away While you was talkin' to me I reconized your reaction You tried to seem like you was alright But I knew heartache had already happened You and her would always fight You thought you wouldn't care But now she has seen the light Now the pain you must bear I can feel your pain Though I never have been through it We've all lost more than we gain You thought everything was all right But then the tears started falling from your eyes After you finally reconized Your mother was motionless and there was no replies But now your momma is leaving the world Leaving all friends and family Especially leaving you while you still just a girl Boo, you been gettin' alot to carry on ya shoulders You can't hold up your struggle on your own It just makes the world seem even colder I want to help you along the way I know I can't bring her back But I can give you a shoulder to cry on for these days I promise you my dear Just hit me up I'll cry with you if you want me to Since these times are gonna be rough

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Monday, May 15, 2006

For Your Viewing: Wrecking of a Teenage Romance

Life What a tragedy this has come to be Appearently you have changed Yet you and I can't see But to her you must have in a way It's done something, somehow To cause her to state that on this day Going on for almost a year Being a couple But soon shall you fear This may be ending soon enough For the calmness of this relationship Has been rocking back from smooth to rough I've yet to obtain enough information of you two But I fear that you Have grown blinded and cannot see the truth You claimed that you loved her Said you didn't want to hurt her Yet your actions have lately caused me to wonder I don't believe you're in love as you say you are How can you love someone and do such things Or is that the bad side Of what falling in love brings Maybe I just don't understand How you can say such things But still be her man Going behind her back for sex, drugs and your fun How long can you pull this off I don't believe long if you think you're the one Not only on her behalf do I think it's wrong But you send me these mixed signals I should of known this would happen all along I've been anxious lately to be with you I wanted you and denied any other offer Yet I think I won't get you So I don't believe I should bother

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Monday, April 10, 2006

More Juicey.. or not

Life Have I reach beyond that point? I have this phobia, this fear Please explain it It's so very queer I hate this feeling It's a feeling that will not supress But I hate the lonliness Ever since it started, I've been depressed How desperate have I come to be? This craving for a signifigant other I need it more than anything Yet I can't obtain or keep no one Metaphorically, it seems like a pit Never can be filled I don't quite understand it How could something of this sort make one so ill? I take glances People all together These couples, in love they say? But will it really last forever There has been offers Why is it though I could only last for a short time Before I'd have to let them go Then once again I made an attempt To find someone Failure, once again I figured it'd come to this So temptation is strong I try to express emotions back But I failed to, I knew it all along Is it that I'm weak? I can't survive on my own Maybe that is the solution I can't stay with one, yet I fear to be alone (c)Adrienne

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Slut Juice (no thats not the title)

Life I was just about to fall asleep Then I hear a ringing tone I looked out of curiousity It was you that called on the phone I hadn't talked to you in a week It seems longer though We talked for over an hour More you told me, more I know Today is the day Officially two months locked up But it seems like too much I think you've been in long enough I asked if you found out anymore about time A couple more months left you say I want you out now, yet nothing I can do And begging won't help me anyway I felt comfort in your call You seem to be doing good But I might be wrong I feel like you are a little misunderstood How am I doing? Things gettin' a little better around here Finally doing something right And I can finally think straight and clear You feel better from what I told ya Telling how your traitor friend got kicked out Then some weird shit about that skinny bitch Still I swear soon I'm gonna knock her ass out I'll talk to you again soon Give me a call again on monday And still keep ya head up If you do it'll seem like it's not far away (c)Adrienne

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Thursday, April 6, 2006

For Your Viewing: Checkin' On Ya

Life To my boy Lucas, I'm writtin' you a letter Seeing how you been doin' Are ya getting any better? I heard you was gettin' some help Emily told me something 'Cause you can't do this by yourself Boy we be waitin' for ya We've all been stressin' It's been affecting me Because you the friend I'm missin' I might got some that live far away But you in the jail I worry if you gonna be okay We gone through some hard shit But this tops it all This is one of the hardest As we all fall apart I be sheddin' tears for your sake You gotta survive through it Someone said you gonna break All this shit been messin' with my head Just extending the time Another tear to shed You said to start prayin' But ya know I don't do that shit I'm not that type of person is all I'm sayin' Sometimes I wonder if I should try it Boy you made me start missin' It's got an affect on me Made me ill, my grades start slippin' I'm doing pretty good now Just keep ya head up and crack a smile I know you can do it and I know ya know how Just healing up will take a while

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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

Jail Poem

Life Look back on the calender It's been a while, my dear Though only two months I kinda miss you being here Now I hear from you less Things have been changing more and more It's been boring, you coulda guess For your presence ain't here anymore "When do you get out?" I asked Yet you still aren't sure We just gotta wait for time to pass More and more we must endure Have you heard news lately? Inside and outside of the jail cell Your friend Tommy is gettin' better You doing good or is it hell? How you been doing? 'Cause we worry about you Just be there waitin' Thats all we can do Days go by "Just a couple more weeks" Just a reminder I say Please don't say I'm being decieved If you don't get out I'll be disapointed in you Even more if you do this again And in that case, you got an issue So I'll try writtin' to ya soon Even though my dad don't want me to Just fuck him He don't know what this is like to go though Gettin' out is on the way Just hold on there boy Just wish for better days You'll be out in no time, then you got life to enjoy (C) Adrizzle/Adrienne King

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Sunday, April 2, 2006

For you viewing: Looking Back on Life

Life Sitting at home I took a glimpse into the past I wonder if I should leave this topic alone Taking a look at what will last I shuddered as I remembered Watch my own life go down the drain I'm fucked up so much Never will it be the same "How did it all happen?" Many times I questioned this Things were bad some time ago But compared to this they seem precious I admit I have a sense of adventure And I'm not the purist of girls But this type of life Not very much adored I seem to have an attraction To the immoral actions Not sure how I managed it It's just a reaction More I ponder about Remember the accusation of theft I swear I've done nothing How I wish I could forget And the drugs I tried to keep away Yet I got contact high Which appearently, wasn't okay I'm certain that I can't change anything And it's killing me To see what I see I hate waking up to these memories Remembering how my friend is in jail Others on the worst drugs or fucking up I can't do much but watch everything fail Then something I really adore I remember being considered a whore Too much went on I didn't care about whatever was going on But I'm not afraid to say I've made plenty of mistakes I know that I cannot change anything Just I wish I could of planned out everything Sometimes I tried to make it all safe But it didn't seem to want to turn out that way There was a dream in my life Have this wild lifestyle I can't decide I'm not completely sure If I should of taken this risk But now it must be endured (c)Adrienne k

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