Friday, March 23, 2007

Today

Life I read this, I was inspired to write this because of what has recently happened. Read it today in one of my classes, very very very nervous. I felt better though when people reacted positively to it. It has alot of spelling errors though and grammar, I'm too lazy to fix it. I hope those who read or listen to this do not misinterpret my words, even with my grammar errors. Those who hang out with me enough will probably hear me say, "You should look before you leap, but life is about taking chances. If you feel that what you're doing is right, then go for it. If it fails, then at least you learn a lesson and if someone else is in the same predicament then you can talk to them and help them better themselves." at least once. In some cases, this belief of mine is wrong. Sometimes the consequences have too big of an impact on everything else. You may learn something, but failing it may be incomparable. On March 22nd, my brother was sent to Jessup after being put in a prison in Baltimore since February. He will be in boot camp for an estimated three months, after that he will do two out of a ten year sentence. On that same day, his girlfriend was sentenced to five days in jail. My brother was arrested for stealing three guitars that were autographed by a musician. His girlfriend was an "accomplice". It probably took no more than ten minutes to steal those guitars, but the sentence was far longer. The same for his girlfriend. This will be a problem for the two for the rest of their lives, it will be difficult to get jobs or anything now. It took merely minutes to do the actions they did, but the consequences can last a lifetime. Also, there was a boy that my brother did the crime with I wish to include in this. He was once a friend of his, but that ended once betrayal was the last resort after getting caught. It's often that people never do any extreme crimes alone in fear of getting in all the trouble. There will always be that one person, a scapegoat, that the others will put all the blame on to reduce their punishment. While on the phone with someone, a boy said the N-word in the background (I will not say it because I strongly despise that word and not out of fear of sounding like a racist because I know I am not). He went to the house that the person was at and busted down the door, beating him with a studded belt, quite possible other things were done as well. Along with the assault charges for beating the boy and robbery, he is now facing 15 years in prison. Assault charges are usually about 6 years, do you think someone saying something is worth going to prison for 6 years? I don't. Regardless of whether it's a regular insult or a racial slur, it's moronic to fight over what someone says. I know it's wrong, I hate racism and prejudice strongly, but we don't live in a very accepting society even though this country is so diverse. It's disappointing. Still, even if you don't want someone pushing you around, don't start the fight for future reference. They are nothing compared to those that will push you around in jail or prison, and these are the ones you don't want to mess with. Even my brother who can fight wouldn't run his mouth off to someone that was in prison a week ago because not only was that guy bigger than him, but in a gang. When my brother first went to jail last year, he wanted to blame musicians like Tupac for his new attitude. No one is to blame but you, there is no "the devil made me do it" that doesn't work in the real world. You hold responsibility for yourself, not Tupac, not anyone but you. If you were to watch Tupac Resurrection, he said something similar to, "I got two days in jail for a problem that was only a couple minutes long" he realized what he shouldn't of done, even though it was too late afterwards. He was fortunate enough to get off so easily that time, others are a different story. Maybe some incidents aren't as bad. I know someone who had a child when they were in their teens. Do not be confused, I am not disappointed in her. I will not talk down to her because she had a child at that age. I'm actually proud of her, you have to be strong mentally and physically to go through that. I will not call her a slut, whore, or anything of the sort, no woman deserves that. What I can call her is a single mother who can look at her child and not see an image of the man that left her, but her offspring that she loves dearly. There are women in their late 20's who can barely take care of their children, I do not think age determines a good mother. But I do know that she wasn't ready to have a child, I really don't believe any teenager is ready to devote that much time yet, especially when we don't even devote half that time to schoolwork. We all make mistakes, but some are too hard to forgive or forget. The simplest thing is to think carefully and ask yourself , "Is what I'm doing worth it?" because the time it takes to do it does not always equal the outcome. Think of how it's effecting your loved ones too, it's cost nearly $10,000 so far just to pay for my brother's lawyer. We constantly think of how he's doing in prison. Within months I've lost ample amount of concentration for anything else but his well-being. It's had an impact on my grades too, failing math and possibly science from my thoughts drifting elsewhere. Other classes are just easy to begin with, they take no effort so I have no fear of failing them. -------------------------------------------- Aside from that, nothings really been happening lately. I'm pissed because of my mom, I was suppose to visit her tonight but she hasnt called me or anything. She recently got money, dad thinks shes out doing something else. But it's okay, I'll just go to Amanda's birthday party this weekend

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