Saturday, January 6, 2007

We care about things but are careless about how its handled

Life A friend and I had a discussion, woo yeah im so insightful. ------------------------- person#1 : uh nothing...just bored. i think im going to find out what he thinks of me. and if he does thats great, but im pretty shure he doesnt and then i'll find out cause once i do i'll be able to get over him better. [fer shure maybe, fer shure not] person#1 : cause i'll stop thinking so much about the 'what ifs'. person#2: i could ask him right now dun dun dunnn. person#2 : i think of 'what ifs' alot too. person#1: nah dont. person#1: its okay, i dont want alot of people asking really. yeah it would get pretty annoying. i just want to know, but tis okay i'll wait to find out myself. =] person#1 : so bleh person#2: heh person#1: i hate thinking of the 'what ifs' i do that all the time and it drives me fucking insane. person#2 : i do too person#2 : thats why i no longer think person#1 : i cant help it person#1 : i am always like well what if i said this insted? or what if i did this? then what would be different. person#2 : but you cant go on worrying about the past, its behind you and needs to be that way. person#2 : and if you worry of the future, there is no definate way of knowing what will happen. person#2 : you should look before you leap, but life is still about taking chances. So its pretty much blind, but if you find it right then go for it, if it fails then you at least learn something from it and if someone else is in the same predicament then you can tell them to help them better themself. person#1 : heh yes i think thats a good answer to it. i try to live by the 'no regrets' thing cause it does help me feel better about the shit iv done that im not too proud of. person#2 : eh i cant help it too. person#2 : but im trying not to worry about the past i cant change it person#2: eh yeah but i think its alright if you dont keep doing the same dumb thing over and over. person#1: but if you do regret it then why arent you more carful? person#2: you mean me personally or people in general? person#1: in general. person#2 : humans arent too smart when it comes to emotion related things. and it takes time before they actually decide to think things through. we care about things but careless about how its handled. person#1 : in the end tho you still feel like shit either way (in general). person#2 : yeah i think thats a good way to put it. -------------------------------- So i decided to start learning japanese again. Very hard... well maybe remembering katakana, hiragana (prolly the wrong spelling i forget now) and kanji. Kanji especially, i fear i wont be able to remember all this. Plus, learning two laguages at once is hard. I took some notes after watching this one thing, time to study them I get to see dir en grey feb 5 yes! I have to buy tickets soon, prolly next thursday aside from that, I'm going on a diet, hopefully loosing 10 pounds before the concert. Diets suck, so do slow metabolisms I like how i can look for dir en grey icons and find few but find TONS of Gazette. I will get this out, Aoi is hot. Final got my science project crap out the way, now to work on math and gym projects. Honors classes suck, never do them if you dont wanna do alot of work. Eh atleast im not failing, s'alls good I keep chewing gum and it makes a popping sound... rather queer and this picture is creepy but cute dressing up like a panda... odd miyavi, odd. Damn pandas rock though You know I wonder of two peoples Deaths: Tupac and hide of X-japan. I feel the need to look into them because I wonder if Tupac is really dead and I don't understand hide's quite well. hide hung himself with a towel, but its also consider an accident. He hung it on a door, but I can't entirely picture that, it might be cause I don't want to. It made me sad thinking of it, but I can't help but to sometimes because of my thoughts wandering. I keep getting killed in final fantasy x-2 by some dragon thing, how lame. My fanfiction is at page 70 so far heh, I havent worked on it much lately cause of school. I'm tired of typing so ill update some other time, later.

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