Tuesday, January 9, 2007

Oh my gawd

Life My hands are seriously cold. I don't even want to touch them they're so cold! Maybe I'm sick, yes, that must be why I came home early today. Well lately I've been feeling as if I'm running out of time. I cram too much stuff in, or it seems like I do. Currently I have been playing video games, schoolwork, writing a story, drawing, and teaching myself japanese. It seems like I don't have time to do it all in one day. I think it kills my brain too cause I can't even think of anything to write for my story now, 70 pages done, at some fight scene, can't think! I was thinking about beginning a naruto or bleach fanfic but I need to finish this! I will go mad and explode! I do that sometimes... Maybe I should make a planning thing, just a little weekly schedule thing... but I already confirmed with my brain that I'm going to take 2 lessons of Japanese a day. That brings up another thing, why is it that the teaching person peoples talk so much faster than people in Dir En Grey or Miyavi. I've watched little interviews I don't understand and they don't talk as quick. Maybe it's because the thing I'm learning by is old? Has things changed within some time period? What is the world coming to?! Only thing I can remember is watashi wa is used when you're talking about yourself. They say hajimemashite is "I am meeting you for the first time" but it says something else in a dictionary I got. Arigoto I already knew, the difference between are, sore, and kore I figured out. Maybe I'm just pushing it too much, I've only been learning for like 4 days. I can't use the teaching thing my friend gave me cause my computers old, lame. Something else too, his moms making him go to counseling cause he's gay, what an asshole parent. I read once that gays commit suicide more than straight people, well if they weren't harassed by family and stuff all the time then it wouldn't be a problem. We need to learn to accept and tolerate better. If I ever became president, I'd change alot of shit. There I go imagining stuff again, like I've been doing alot lately. Thinking about the Dir En Grey concert, time to go to baltimore and try hanging with a band again. I hope someone knows a decent ammount of english, my Japanese sucks. I believe Kaoru does just because he hung with Wednesday 13 once and stuff... or maybe that was someone else in Dir En Grey, too far back to remember now. Dir En Grey should definately tour with Wednesday 13, that would be one kickass concert cause Wednesday has good, weird concerts. Best I've ever been to. Theres so many bands that should tour in the U.S. besides Dir En Grey. Hmm especially Miyavi, Gazette, Alice Nine, Ancafe, Gackt... ooo I'd love it. I especially wanna see Miyavi cause he's kinda weird and reminds me of me with strange behavior. Besides, he dressed up like a panda, and I have always had a love for pandas. Hmm so I think I should just hire a tutor to learn japanese cause I'd rather have a person I can go up to and ask questions if I need to rather then some screen. Theres one in baltimore costing 15 dollars an hour, I think that'd work. Hmm theres a change, I usually hear in Jrock/Jpop only english and Despairs Ray's song Spider was counting in German... yes I realized something! I didn't even know I had them on the computer. Eins zwei drei vier funf sechs seiben acht neun zehn elf zwolf dreizehn vierzehn funfzehn sechzehn seibzehn achtzehn neunzig zwanzig. There I can count to 20 in german... actually more cause its hella easy. I'm looking through my computer and see them and all "Double yuuuu tee efff mate?" ha I'm retarded. Ooh I decided "lets go put up new icons" cause I got 2,000 now. So what do I gots, Die and Shinya of Dir En Grey, Lulu, something that means love, I don't think it's japanese though cause the way I saw it written looks different, maybe Chinese(but enough of that). Drinking thing, cause I like to drink, alot. And Tupac... my favorite rapper. Okay I've talked wayyyyyyyyyy too much today, I'm out.

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