Yes I'm still alive...The audition didn't kill me....though people were convinced it would >>;;; Okay Here was yesterday in sections.
Yesterday Morning:
Went back to school
While we were gone people came and painted the classrooms.
The color is......white
It used to be an orange-brownish color
Comment: It looks cleaner but it hurts my eyes...too bright to look at.
Okay school went normally....Work, class talking, teachers yelling ,me being a goody-goody again.
I have an organizer, a book titled "How to get good grades" New notebooks and school supplies I need.
Three people around me needed to borrow a pen and pencil. I had two pens and one pencil. I got two pens back. I better get that pencil back!!! I acidentally brought my art pencil to school thinking it was a normal one. (Art pencil=the pencil that drew every fanart I've sent in and more that I haven't)
Okay I have a science fair project that is due in two days and I haven't done anything at all for the past...umm..
Inu: The past....3 MONTHS AND A WEEK!!!!!!!?!?!?!
I hate doing work on time...you should know that by now.
My Social Studies teacher wasn't here today.
Bad news: I didn't turn in my four page report
Our principal replaced her for the day.
I was pretty much freaking out all day.
I was so nervous that I woke up two hours before I usually do for school(4AM in the morning)
I seem to work well under pressure....
P.E. was today and we played B-ball I hurt my knee cuz I landed on it in a weird position.
Yesterday Afternoon:
Went home
Got ready for audition
Started to freak out more
Listened to music
Started falling asleep in an up-right position
Gramps said to leave for the audition and he wished me luck
While mom was driving I was thinking very negative thoughts that only made me more nervous
Went to the highschool
Stayed behind mom
Inu: You were clinging on to her arm........
SHHHHHHHhhhh! Big mouth!
Went to a waiting area
Got signed in
My throat was dry and I could barley speak to anyone without having to choke the words out.
I couldn't stop moving
Mom tryed to reassure me and tryed relaxing me.......Didn't work for long
She got students to reassure me.....didn't work
When my friends reassured me.....it didn't work
Went to the warm up room were I can practice for 10-15 min
I practiced my scales and didn't get to my piece
A student in my orchestra who got in to the school was sitting with the judges
The judges seemed nice
We started out with questions then scales then my rehearsal piece then sight-reading THEN *deep breath* Rhythm exercises then more questions
I'M JUST GLAD IT'S OVER!!!
I did it I finished it I'm not doing it again
Last Night:
We had an hour before my dance class so we went home after dropping my friend home at her house.
As soon as I came home I went to bed and fell asleep.
Mom woke me up and I really didn't feel like getting up. (I am extra lazy)
I did anyway....I danced and I got tired and my knees hurt even more now.
Good news: I got pizza and Root beer
Bad news: I still had HW to do.
More Good News: I have a day off of school next week.
Why couldn't school be out until next Monday? *shrugs* Oh well....
Today:
School
No viola lesson cuz mom is giving me a break
I've been stressed enough as it is
I have a contest coming in Feb. for the viola and a scholarship form to fill out.
Work never ends.....
Inu: You never do any of it.
Yeah you're right.
My mom knows the prob with my laptop
I need a new hard-drive
Cost: $170
More than the ipod nano she just got me.
*nervous laugh* Thank you mother
Questions:
1)Make any art recently?
2) Read any good books? Any books at all?
3) Do you forgive me if I didn't make it to your site yesterday because I was stressed and still had extra stuff to do?
4)What are your favorite boy names? Girl names?
I always liked the name Natalie
Courage/Confidence Quotes(These didn't help my nervous prob either):
Without self-confidence we are as babes in the cradle. And how can we generate this imponderable quality, which is yet so invaluable, most quickly? By thinking that other people are inferior to oneself.
To value his own good opinion, a child has to feel that he is a worthwhile person. He has to have confidence in himself as an individual.
Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today I dare to win.
Dare to be naive.
The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.
Pic:
I was gonna type some of my old poems on here but I'm too lazy to do it now.
I don't have as much time as I used to so I will only make it to choice sites. That's pretty much everyone who has commented at least once on my posts. About 18 did about 64 didn't.
Site visits: 482
Guestbook signings: 80
80 people sign 16 are my friends...Oh well their loss. At least I have you friends!! ^^ Oh and I'll delete some PMs so you can PM me again. I have so many that I keep for no reason >>;;
A.J.
