myOtaku.com
• Join Today!

My Pages
• Home
• Portfolio
• Guestbook
• Quiz Results

Contact Me

E-mail
• Click Here
Yahoo! Messenger
• bocasnewbrat

Vitals

Birthday
• 1988-05-22
Gender
• Female
Location
• United States
Member Since
• 2003-10-26
Occupation
• Student (Senior!)
Real Name
• Alene

Personal

Achievements
• Oh I'm so full of those, it would take forever to list them all.
Anime Fan Since
• Hmm... Is there such thing as "before forever"?
Favorite Anime
• Ha! You expect me to list them all?!
Goals
• I want to learn how to not breathe. I just hate it, breathing get's in the way of everything.
Hobbies
• Acting, anime... and a most hated hobby... breathing.
Talents
• Woah... To name them all... I'm good at breathing... though as I've stated before, it's not my favorite thing to do.




Jump to User:

myOtaku.com: InuyashaGirl8803


Friday, May 21, 2004

   Guess what I've done now?
How quick I can screw things up. Wanna hear about my day?

At school everything was fine. Of course the day went by slow because I'm excited about tomorrow. Found out Ben likes me "as a friend," not too happy about that. But as soon as Elizabeth told me I was over it and moving on.

I got home. My "step brother" gave me some things that he bought me for my birthday and all was going good. I taught him how to play Egyptian Rat Screw when my "step mothers" friend came here.

My "step moms" friend has a son and as soon as her son asked if my "step brother" could stop playing of course he did.

That made me kinda upset. Then when I went outside and sat on the swing and started talking, everything that is going on in my life right now can change. Yeah, I screwed it up that bad.

I told my step mother that I didn't have to listen to her because she's not my mom. She made a good point in saying she's done more for me than my mom ever will because that's true. Then when she asked me why I said that I told her "because I don't like it here, I don't like who you're related to" basically I hate everything about my life right now. Things at school contribute to this too.

So she's all "you think things will be better if I'm out of the picture?" Now she thinks I want her gone, which I don't, and when we talk to my dad when he gets home there's a huge chance that everything could change.

"Why do you have to do this to me? Why are you treating me this way?" I asked God. I know the answer. It's because God want's to see how I'm going to react to this situation, I know he's waiting to jump in and help me if I mess it up even more. That's the first thing I did when this happened. I cried my eyes out, I'm still crying, and I talked to God.

Don't comment on this if all you're gonna say is "good luck" I don't want to hear it.
Comments (2)

« Home