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• Columbia, SC
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• 2004-01-29
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• student, theologian
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• what is 'real'?

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• I won First place for the Carmen Nylan Writing Contest in 2004
Anime Fan Since
• latest: ninth grade earliest: second (didn't know it was anime at the time)
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• oooh, hard one...there are just too many
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• 1) graduate college and be somewhat solvent 2) become a professor 3) save the world
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• reading, writing, backpacking, hiking, collecting candles, collecting voices, playing violin, fencing
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• writing, drawing




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myOtaku.com: Irish de Fenal


Thursday, September 2, 2004

   *hmmm*
So...right. I've come to the realization that I don't know who I am. I don't know my purpose in life. I don't even know what my trials and suffering are suppose to be. *she types while balancing a frisbee on her head, smiling, while 24 and Boy look on*
Yeah, so I was asked what my cross was at Bible study last night and it came to me that yeah, I have no idea what's going on. I'm sorta in limbo at the moment.
There are some things that are going on with me that some people know and others have no clue about. Things that I should be consentrating on, but instead...
Why am I here?
Why can't I live up to my parents expectations?
Why do I continue to exist at all?
You know, the depressing thoughts. Sam and Fred really didn't like me acting like that, so I actually Didn't ever go into a really big funk the whole time. And then I busted out some Relient K and started singing along and felt much better.
So, now I'm mostly back to my old self with a little bit of an older self left over from middle school days to help me along. *wheeee*
So, that was me for the past two days and felt better yesterday.
I started tearing up some old love letters and I'm going to burn them the next chance I get. Fire! *manic, insane laughter* But yeah, took the guys picture off my mirror, threw away some stuff, and I'm going to delete the e-mails over the next couple of days. Then I will be clean and only have the memory of our friendship. *contented sigh* This would be the Plaid Avenger/the Plaid One for any of those who are interested so you don't have to ask me.

Okay! Window pane thought for the month:

"Just a thought:
Stories don't ever Conclude.
-Nobody."

So, I'm just going to get off and chill now. Working on another short story that I hope to finish.

Oh, good quote from 24 just now:
"She's like a literary chipmunk you know? ... Seriously you're a literary chipmunk because you stock pile books and never get around to reading 'em." And yes, that was about me. TTYL
Cheers
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