Friday, November 12, 2004

   Today has been a good day
Alright, so technically the day isn't over yet, but I'm going to over look that fact.

Technically I'm in a slightly worse phsyical condition than yesterday, but I am emotionally better today than yesterday. No longer feel like I need to bash my head against the wall. Very good.

Don't get me wrong, yesterday was a good day, too. It's just that I spent too much time over thinking everything...which almost always involves me becoming stressed out.

Today is good because 1) it is rainy and warm 2) it is Friday 3) I am not stressed out.

Okay, so I'm just writing the same thing over and over again. *grin, shrug* Forgive me, I'm just a wee bit lacksidasical or something. Thinking I can actually get stuff accomplished this week.

Write, so ("...we were merely freshmen...") even though I have written much since the last time for Split Apart I have come to a realization about some things.
Sam - *cough* Dream. *erhm*
Fred - *pats Irish on the head*
So I'm going to be working on that, my vampire novel, and sending in my short story this weekend.

Saturday is a BBQ! *wide grin*

'K, now for songs!

"It's Been A While"
Staind

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means

And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again

Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste

And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry


"Boulevard of Broken Dreams"
Green Day


I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I'll walk alone!


"Boulevard..." has become my new favorite song and I will listen to the radio for hours just to hear it. Then turn it off after it's done. Yeah, I'm a little weird. Why? Maybe because I can identify with the lyrics so well. Especially on days like yesterday.

Fencing was great yesterday! It looked like we were doing modern dance or something when we looking for one of the guy's pins (his epee broke). Those things are about as dinky as you can get, so we're spread out on the floor with our eyes to the carpet trying to find it. *lopsided grin* I also won a bout against my friend, which rarely happens 'cause she's a whole lot better than I am.

Well, fixin' to go to work, that's all for now.
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